Same disclaimer as before so, yeah… the song is Paperbag by Anna Nalick… this chap is strongish, and FOUL LANGUAGE IS USED! so be careful….it's a lil depressing, why? Because I can. Quote from Alias is used. Btw: fluoxetine is Prozac

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Meredith was walking through the halls of the hospital on her way home. It had been twenty eight hours since she had set foot in her house, and she was tired. Hardly anyone was at the hospital. She walked to the elevator and hit the lobby button. Just as she began to walk out of the elevator she slammed into Derek Shepard, and the contents of her purse went everywhere.

"Sorry."

"No, its my fault."

"No, really." Meredith tried to get everything back into her purse, then she noticed the small orange bottle rolling a couple feet from her, right near Derek's foot.

"Oh, here."

He picked the vial up and stared at it. Meredith tried to take it out of his hand.

"What—"

"Good night Dr. Shepard." She finished putting the contents of her purse back in and was about to stand up when he put his hand on her arm.

"Why are you taking fluoxetine? That's an SSRI."

"I know what it is, now give me back my pills."

And the night was complete when Shepard found her happy pills.

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She don't run from the sun no more
She boxed her shadow and she won
Said I can see you laugh
Through these bottle caps
And this wire around my neck aint
There for fun

But someday we'll all be old
And I'll be so damn beautiful

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Meredith is sitting by the counter in the kitchen and Izzy is icing cupcakes…

"You're cooking, and cleaning. Izzy, what's wrong?"

"It's nothing."

"Izzy, its fifty…one two three four, cupcakes, fifty four cupcakes, chocolate no less."

"It's just, never mind."

"Okay, chocolate and a clean kitchen, its like Chernobyl, but in Martha Stewart land."

"Its Alex."

"Ooohh… good or bad."

"Bad, I mean good, I mean, I don't know."

"Well, you know how good my love life has been lately, so, spill."

"Its, uhh, I don't know how to…well…"

"Oh my god! YOU LO—"

"DON'T! Do not say it!"

"This is rich, I mean… too rich."

Izzy and Meredith get into an all out cupcake fight (sounds like something id do) The doorbell rings and Meredith goes to answer it. She opens the door and her laughing smile fades away, you then see outside the door to Addison and Derek standing in the rain. Flip back to Meredith as a cupcake slams into the side of her face.

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Meanwhile I'll hide my head
Here in this paper bag
Cause if I cant see you
Then you can't see me
And it'll be okay
Fly little bee away
To where theres no more rain
And I can be me

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"Hi, we were on our way home and our car broke down a few blocks from your house, can we use your phone?"

"Yeah, one second." Meredith takes the cupcake off the side of her face and goes to get the phone.

"Mer, who is it?"

"The Shepards."

"Here." Meredith hands Addison the phone. Izzy walks up behind Meredith as Addison calls a lift.

"I'm sorry, excuse me." Meredith sniffs a little and walks up the stairs.

"Here." Addison hands Izzy the phone and heads back to the car, Derek opens his mouth to start talking but Izzy cuts him off.

"No…"

"Can I talk to her."

"You can't come in our house, not now not ever."

"Sorry." He turns to leave.

"You know, you're a jackass."

"Excuse me?"

"You act like everything is normal, like it is all how it is supposed to be. You can't see anything can you. You are blinded by stupidity. Being friends, it's killing her, and you are too selfish to notice it…You cant have your cake and eat it too. You've got to pick, Addison or Meredith. You've just got to stop being her friend. You get so close to her, and you…you just make it worse. Just, just…if you care about Meredith as much as you claim to, then push her away. Be cruel if you have to – make her despise you. Because your 'kindness' tortures her, I can see it. What it does to her. And I wont have it." Izzy slams the door in his face.

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Yeah they talk about her
She smiles like shes so tough
She says
"hey can you talk a little louder,
I don't think my heart is broken enough"

But someday we'll all be old
And I'll be so damn beautiful

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"Meredith, you need to come out of the bathroom."

"I don't need to do anything!"

"Come on, I'll take you to Joe's my treat." Meredith opens the door and sticks her head out.

"Can we get me drunk enough to forget tonight?"

"GEORGE! Wake up!"

"What?"

"We need a driver."

"Why?"

"Meredith and I need to get drunk off our asses, and you need to be the designated driver."

"Let me get dressed."

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Meanwhile I'll hide my head
Here in this paper bag
Cause if I can't see you
Then you can't see me
And it'll be okay
Fly little bee away
To where theres no more rain
And I can be me

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JOES:

Meredith, Izzy and George are sitting at the bar, George is drinking coke….Izzy and Meredith are stone drunk and playing with beer nuts.

"Boys suck."

"Boy, sitting right here."

"Shut up George." Izzy and Meredith say at the same time.

"Love, it is the worst four letter word ever. Its kinda like cancer. When you find out about it, you're lost, it's like you're at a fork in the road and you don't know were to go. You can choose one way and treat it, but leave it shoved in that dark little corner, or you can just let it overcome you, and jump in head first, forgetting about the consequences, and go for it. Then it goes away, like everything does with time, but then it comes back, it bleeds and festers anew, and you are left broken… shattered… and left to die… but by then, you really don't care anymore. You just want to give up, you just wanna die." A lone tear travels down her cheek.

"If you ever decide you don't want to be a surgeon, become a writer." Meredith's phone rings.

"Hello? Yes…yes…y-- What? Oh- Okay…I'll be there tomorrow, no, I cant come tonight, tomorrow."

"What was that?"

"My mother's cancer is progressing faster than they thought it would. Odds are she wont live to see Christmas."

"Mer—"

"Don't, don't say your sorry, you didn't give my mother cancer…I'm walking home." Meredith stood up from the bar and walked out the door. George was about to get up when Izzy stopped him.

"Let her go George."

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Some days I wait in the indigo
Singing that song on the radio
I blame these puddles on the rain
You know I gotta keep these cheeks dry today
Gotta keep my cheating strategy
And baby I'm gonna have it made.

But someday we'll all be old
And I'll be so damn beautiful

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this is a scene with no words, so I am just going to descibe

Its raining heavily. Camera rolls around the streets of Seattle, then comes up to a bridge with Meredith standing on it. She has a bottle in her hand and she is crying, looking down at the street below the bridge. She screams and throws the bottle down to the empty street as it crashes into a thousand tiny pieces. She looks up to the sky.

"WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME? WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT! I HAVE DONE NOTHING TO DESERVE THIS!" She punches the cement and her hand starts to bleed and she looks at it and laughs hysterically.

"That's great, just great." She slides over the fence and stands on the edge of the bridge with the tips of her feet hanging over the side. Camera looks at her face, crying, you see a blurry car pull up behind her and someone steps out.

"Meredith? Mer, what are you doing." Him.

"And I'll write your name on the bullet so you'd know you were the last thing that went through my mind."

"Don't…" Derek steps within five feet of her.

"Take another step, and I'll take one too." Derek takes a couple steps to the right, then one over the fence. He scoots next to Meredith.

"Meredith."

"No."

"Fine, we can just stand here."

Five minutes later the rain stopped but everything was still soaked. Derek went back onto the right side of the bridge and held out his hand for Meredith from behind her. She took it and her lifted her over the barrier. She crumpled her ands against her chest and collapsed into him.

"Meredith…shhhhh…shhh, I got you, calm down."

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Meanwhile I'll hide my head
Here in this paper bag
Cause if I can't see you
Then you can't see me
And it'll be okay
Fly little bee away
To where there's no more rain
And I can be me

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to be continued…