WoM- I was gonna do someone else, but this took on an idea all it's own. Also, I'd like to acknowledge that with this update I've realized I'm starting to become the Queen of Bad Puns…
"Man will do many things to get himself loved; he will do all things to get himself envied."
-Mark Twain
Green-eyed Monster
I gave you everything I had
My hope, my trust, my life
I stood by you in troubled times
Suffering with you in strife
I love you.
How many times have I said and thought that? When I was alive, you were all I cared for, and when I died, you became all I had. I should've passed on, but I couldn't without you. I didn't want to lose to in life, and I refused to lose you in death. I'm not powerful, not as a mortal or as a ghost, but I am determined. And what I'm most determined about is to stay with you forever.
And all I wanted in return
Was what I gave to you
Your attention, all your love
To know that you are true
When people see me, they don't think I'm a romantic. A trouble maker, yes, but not a girl who had sacrificed everything for love, and was still ready to give more. But that's all I really was at heart, and I was always so sure that you felt the same. That you would give me all that I gave you, that you loved me the same.
Lately, though…
You think that I don't notice
When you watch another girl
You figured I'd accept the pain
And my rage would not unfurl
I hate it when I'm trying to get your attention, and your eyes are on someone else. It's like you're making a mockery of our love, of my feelings for you. How can I stay with someone who doesn't give me their all? I'm not the kind of girl who will just accept her place with her head down, following her man everywhere he goes and not complaining about his behavior. My mother was like that, but not me.
So go ahead, keep watching her, but remember that it might be the straw that breaks the camel's back…
I'm human just like you are
And I don't like getting hurt
You ignored all the warning signs
So I won't let you treat me like dirt
You never even noticed.
You didn't see how mad you were making me, how hurt I was that you never paid me the attention to gave other girls! What do they have that I don't? You know what? I don't even care anymore. Forget them! Forget you! I don't need you, I can look after myself fine! Goodbye, pal, and good luck with those little hussies. You obviously care about them more then me!
I don't know where I'm going
Since you were all I had to claim
But now I'm here and on my own
And you only have yourself to blame
I can barely see straight with how mad I am right now. It's stupid of me. I mean, what am I gonna do now? I can fend for myself, not here and not in the Ghost Zone. I've always needed you. But I can't go back now, I won't! Just because I need you doesn't mean it has to show. Besides, I can learn to fend for myself. Or I can find someone better, someone who'd treat me right! That would teach you, wouldn't it. I slow a little at that thought.
I wonder…
Yes, I'm the jealous girlfriend
But then you knew that from the start
And now I'm here, plotting revenge
Green-eyed monster, sweet and tart
I smile down at him as he's talking to his two friends, the dorky looking one with the glasses and the spooky girl who always wore black. I saw the look he gives the girl as he jokes around with her, almost at the brink of flirting. It's almost cute. Back to the point, though, she'd be perfect for what I planned on doing.
True I'd have to do some major makeover work in her body, but hey, it'd be worth it in the end. You would learn not to mess with me and I'd have a new, better boyfriend you'd absolutely hate. I grinned as I saw the boy's eyes glow in his anger at the jock bullies, biting back a giggle at the pure irony of this as I snuck into the bathroom to put my plan into action.
They always say jealousy is a green-eyed monster…
WoM- That one was obvious after a while, wasn't it? Ah, well. Sorry for the bad pun, and if you haven't figured it out, this takes place during Lucky in Love. Oh, and this story's gonna be on pause for a while so I can work on something else. If I've got time, I'll post something, but I don't think I will until like, the end of January. Sorry!
Thanks to;
Anne Camp aka Obi-quiet
conan98002
Myst
Nisha Athalwolf
Ytak
Next Poem; Possibly January 22nd, but it might (Key word here) be earlier.
See you then!