The Mystery of Love
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Chapter Forty-six
The Pain That Never Fades
~~~POV-LEGOLAS THRANDUILLION~~~
"I tried, believe me, I tried." Once again I was stuck listening to the bickering soldiers who did not want to room together.
"Look, all four of you are in one flet and that is final. I have no more room to offer. I have your generals in the room I once stayed in for the sake of all that is holy, please just leave me be! I cannot provide anymore than I have already, I am sorry." Fire burned in my eyes, but I regretted being so harsh.
Reyna stood beside and was blushing, "Amin hiraetha, melamin. I had no idea that such chaos would ensue." {I am sorry, my love.}
I kissed her hand delicately, "Of course you didn't. Come, let us go for a walk."
Her face paled and she brought a hand to her mouth, "One second." With that she turned and ran down the hall. As soon as she reached the first chamber, she ran in.
A few minutes later I heard her thanking the boarders and then the echo of her soft feet walking back up to the throne room.
She blushed; "I am terribly sorry. I don't know what is with this illness. I am confused. I feel fine now."
I ran a hand across her cheek, "Perhaps your breakfast did not sit well."
Reyna sighed, "Three days in a row?"
I shrugged, "You are quite right. Shall I call a healer?"
Her eyes went wide, "No, that's quite all right thanks."
Without meaning to, I gave her a suspicious glance. "All right, I trust you."
Before we could depart Loraine ran walked in, "Reyna! I feel terrible! I think something may be wrong with the baby!"
Reyna did not look at all worried, in fact, she looked amused. "Loraine...come here." Loraine approached and Cathelle placed her hand on Loraine's still flat stomach. "Hmm, yes, there is something wrong. The baby is growing! Oh no!"
It took a minute for Loraine to understand the false tone in Reyna's voice. She glared, "Reyna!"
My kitten began to giggle merrily. "Calm down Loraine, I hate to think how you will react when he actually starts kicking. The baby is just beginning to grow and you might experience some nausea soon."
Loraine sighed, "I have felt a little ill in my stomach, but only in the morning."
Though I was paying little attention to the conversation, I heard that last part. I broke in, "There must be some illness going around, Reyna has been getting sick in the mornings too."
My sister eyed Reyna and me, "Have you gotten her with child Legolas?"
I gasped, "What? No! Of course not, that's not even a possibility!"
Reyna blushed brightly, "That's the truth. There's no way..." Her eyes went wide, "Oh my holy Mother!" She took off down the hall and up the stairs to the king's chambers.
With a frown, I turned to Loraine; "I am sorry but I should probably see to her. If you have any further concerns, you know where to find us." With that I followed my lover down the hall in a hurry.
~~~POV-REYNA LINDELE~~~
Tears began to fall from my cheeks as I ran down the hall, "Oh no! Oh no! Curse it all!"
As I walked into the chambers I saw the pouch of powder lying on my nightstand. "It's still not possible, you have to make love 'and' use the powder...and we haven't..." I began to think about what it would be like to make love to my Elven prince.
"Damn it all! Why must I...why must I love him like this?" I began to walk about the room impatiently. 'Before him I was fine, alone and content. Now there is this needing in my heart for him, and I can't get rid of it!' I walked out onto the large balcony and started to pace it in the soft, drizzling rain.
A voice rose from inside the room, "Oh, she loves him all right. Damn it! Well, perhaps I can still persuade her."
The voice belonged to a man, and anything male was the last thing I wanted to deal with right now. I ignored whoever it was and leaned against the balcony railing.
A song came to my mind...and I could not help but sing it. I thought of how things were before I met my prince, my dear Legolas.
"Never let nobody know me,
Never let nobody dare
Never let somebody hold me,
Long enough for me to care.
'Till I found you, 'till I found you!"
The rain fell harder onto my face and into my thick hair. Soon my salty tears joined the tempestuous shower.
"Never let my guard down easy,
Never let myself let go,
I never knew the reason why,
I never let my feelings show.
Until I felt the pain of loving you."
I leaned over the edge of the balcony, letting my tears fall to the ground below.
"And that's what hurts when we say good-bye
And that's what hurts on those sleepless nights
There's nothing I can do, 'cause I am lost inside of you
And that's what hurts."
'Yes, Legolas pained me...and it was my fault. I led him to love me, and I did not tell him to stop until it was too late. What was I thinking? I had made it so far without love, why did I have to change? Why did I have to set him up to be hurt? When I am gone, he will be alone...'
"I never let nobody touch me,
Never let nobody try.
I never let somebody move me,
Deep enough to make me cry.
'Till I found you, 'till I found you!
I was strong and independent,
I never needed anyone.
I thought I had it all together,
Until you came a proved me wrong.
Now I'm stronger with you, in my life."
I wanted to jump for a moment, leap off the balcony and never have to worry about this again, but that was a cowards way out. That wouldn't change the fact that I love him and that he's changed me.
As I placed a hand on my stomach, I glared at my own womb, 'How can something so lovely and life-giving be so terribly cruel at the same time?'
I never wanted to leave Legolas, and I never wanted to hurt Legolas; but, both were bound to happen. That was what tore me apart, that was what pierced my heart like an icy dagger.
"And that's what hurts when we say good-bye
And that's what hurts on those sleepless nights
There's nothing I can do, 'cause I am lost inside of you
And that's what hurts, and that's the catch.
'Cause the heart's not good at holding back.
It is a blessing and a curse, and I don't know what's worse
And that's what hurts. What hurts."
I wept harder, sob racking my chest. My breathing was raspy, but my voice did not waver through my tears. I was singing my heart out, and at the same time some hesitation and a lot of pain were being released from my heavy soul.
"Sometimes I wanna' run.
Sometimes I feel just like a fool
Sometimes I'm even sorry baby
That I fell in love with you"
My voice grew in intensity and in volume. I was crying as I sang from my heart.
"And that's what hurts when we say good-bye
And that's what hurts on those sleepless nights
There's nothing I can do, 'cause I am lost inside of you."
The pain was too much, and if Legolas loves me as much as he says, he will hurt more.
"And that's what hurts, and that's the catch.
'Cause the heart's not good at holding back.
It is a blessing and a curse, and I don't know what's worse
And that's what hurts. What hurts."
That was when I broke down, fell to the ground and sobbed. "No! I will kill this cursed thing within me before I will leave Legolas!"
Legolas walked up to me and wrapped me in his arms. "You never have to leave me, my love."
I tried to push him away, but I couldn't. "Yes, I do. I...I think that I....am....pregnant."
Instead of worrying like I had imagined, he laughed. "Darling, that is impossible. We have not made love yet, so how could you be pregnant."
Suddenly a cold wave of fear pummeled me. "Legolas, I may not have made love to you...but I am not a virgin...." Thoughts of Lorei and Rauko shot through my mind. If I was carrying a child from one of them, I 'would' leap off this balcony.
Legolas, in turn, also became very concerned; "Are you saying that you may be carrying Rauko's child?"
Sobs came over me. "I don't know Legolas, I truly don't know..."
He held me tightly, "No matter. I will love the child like my own."
I began to cry harder, "Don't you remember what I told you? If I have a child, my fate is sealed!"
Realization lit in his eyes, "Oh no....no...NO!" Legolas turned his head up towards the sky and yelled. A loud crash of thunder buried his cry of pain.
We sat there for what seemed like eternity. His arms wrapped around me, my arms gripping his. I wanted to stay here forever, in his warm embrace. Rain began to soak Legolas as well. "My love, let us get out of the rain."
I stood weakly, and took his hand. "If I am truly pregnant with a child from Rauko, the Mother will ensure that everything turns out okay. She will protect her daughter."
Legolas nodded, "I suppose you are right. Come, let me dry you off and perhaps we should stay in the chambers today."
With a faint nod, I embraced him tightly. "Legolas. I 'love' you. I really do and every time I am around you I just want to make everything right in the world. I feel like I can accomplish anything with you at my side."
He kissed my forehead, "You 'can' accomplish anything." With unbelievable tenderness, Legolas picked me up and carried me into the bathroom. He slowly removed my soaking clothes, down to my undergarments.
I stripped off my undergarments and started wringing my hair out over the bath tub. Legolas undressed and I turned to him and walked towards the bed. "Legolas, perhaps...if I am going to die...we should make love...because I am doomed now anyway."
My prince laughed, "You are not positive you are pregnant, and even if you are...you have some time after the baby's birth to live, right?"
"About two years."
He laughed, "That's plenty of time for love making."
I nodded, "You are right. Let's just lay down and sleep." Legolas wrapped an arm around me as I lay on the bed.
"That sounds good, my love." I dosed of quickly.
~~~POV-LEGOLAS THRANDUILLION~~~
'Pregnant with another man's child? No, she can't be. Her Mother would not do this to her...right?'
I watched her breathing contentedly. "Sleep well, kitten." I rose silently, dressed and walked out. I had some matters to tend to.
Once in the grand hall, I saw Loraine and smiled. "Dear sister. I need your help. There is an event coming up that you happen to know about. I need you to help me arrange it."
Loraine smiled, "Oh, yes, of course. That ball."
A grin crossed my face, "Correct. Now, where should we start?"
She smiled, this was what she loved to do. "What color theme do you want for the decorations? And then we need to have you fitted for a suit..."
"Great. Reyna has had too much pain in her life. It's time to add a little joy, curtesy of Mirkwood."
Loraine grinned brightly, "You are going to be a great husband someday." I blushed lightly.
~~~To Be Continued~~~
PS: I don't own that song in there, it's called "That's What Hurts" by Daryl Hall and John Oates. It sucks when they sing it but the lyrics are great.
PSS: Let's hear a big round of applause for my Beta Reader: Aramis. Thanks so much!
350 Reviews!! YOU GUYS KICK ASS! Do I have to up the rating for that? LOL.
Aramis: Thanks for Beta reading! I love ya'! I changed the song and added more, so I hope it's still all good!
Chapter Forty-six
The Pain That Never Fades
~~~POV-LEGOLAS THRANDUILLION~~~
"I tried, believe me, I tried." Once again I was stuck listening to the bickering soldiers who did not want to room together.
"Look, all four of you are in one flet and that is final. I have no more room to offer. I have your generals in the room I once stayed in for the sake of all that is holy, please just leave me be! I cannot provide anymore than I have already, I am sorry." Fire burned in my eyes, but I regretted being so harsh.
Reyna stood beside and was blushing, "Amin hiraetha, melamin. I had no idea that such chaos would ensue." {I am sorry, my love.}
I kissed her hand delicately, "Of course you didn't. Come, let us go for a walk."
Her face paled and she brought a hand to her mouth, "One second." With that she turned and ran down the hall. As soon as she reached the first chamber, she ran in.
A few minutes later I heard her thanking the boarders and then the echo of her soft feet walking back up to the throne room.
She blushed; "I am terribly sorry. I don't know what is with this illness. I am confused. I feel fine now."
I ran a hand across her cheek, "Perhaps your breakfast did not sit well."
Reyna sighed, "Three days in a row?"
I shrugged, "You are quite right. Shall I call a healer?"
Her eyes went wide, "No, that's quite all right thanks."
Without meaning to, I gave her a suspicious glance. "All right, I trust you."
Before we could depart Loraine ran walked in, "Reyna! I feel terrible! I think something may be wrong with the baby!"
Reyna did not look at all worried, in fact, she looked amused. "Loraine...come here." Loraine approached and Cathelle placed her hand on Loraine's still flat stomach. "Hmm, yes, there is something wrong. The baby is growing! Oh no!"
It took a minute for Loraine to understand the false tone in Reyna's voice. She glared, "Reyna!"
My kitten began to giggle merrily. "Calm down Loraine, I hate to think how you will react when he actually starts kicking. The baby is just beginning to grow and you might experience some nausea soon."
Loraine sighed, "I have felt a little ill in my stomach, but only in the morning."
Though I was paying little attention to the conversation, I heard that last part. I broke in, "There must be some illness going around, Reyna has been getting sick in the mornings too."
My sister eyed Reyna and me, "Have you gotten her with child Legolas?"
I gasped, "What? No! Of course not, that's not even a possibility!"
Reyna blushed brightly, "That's the truth. There's no way..." Her eyes went wide, "Oh my holy Mother!" She took off down the hall and up the stairs to the king's chambers.
With a frown, I turned to Loraine; "I am sorry but I should probably see to her. If you have any further concerns, you know where to find us." With that I followed my lover down the hall in a hurry.
~~~POV-REYNA LINDELE~~~
Tears began to fall from my cheeks as I ran down the hall, "Oh no! Oh no! Curse it all!"
As I walked into the chambers I saw the pouch of powder lying on my nightstand. "It's still not possible, you have to make love 'and' use the powder...and we haven't..." I began to think about what it would be like to make love to my Elven prince.
"Damn it all! Why must I...why must I love him like this?" I began to walk about the room impatiently. 'Before him I was fine, alone and content. Now there is this needing in my heart for him, and I can't get rid of it!' I walked out onto the large balcony and started to pace it in the soft, drizzling rain.
A voice rose from inside the room, "Oh, she loves him all right. Damn it! Well, perhaps I can still persuade her."
The voice belonged to a man, and anything male was the last thing I wanted to deal with right now. I ignored whoever it was and leaned against the balcony railing.
A song came to my mind...and I could not help but sing it. I thought of how things were before I met my prince, my dear Legolas.
"Never let nobody know me,
Never let nobody dare
Never let somebody hold me,
Long enough for me to care.
'Till I found you, 'till I found you!"
The rain fell harder onto my face and into my thick hair. Soon my salty tears joined the tempestuous shower.
"Never let my guard down easy,
Never let myself let go,
I never knew the reason why,
I never let my feelings show.
Until I felt the pain of loving you."
I leaned over the edge of the balcony, letting my tears fall to the ground below.
"And that's what hurts when we say good-bye
And that's what hurts on those sleepless nights
There's nothing I can do, 'cause I am lost inside of you
And that's what hurts."
'Yes, Legolas pained me...and it was my fault. I led him to love me, and I did not tell him to stop until it was too late. What was I thinking? I had made it so far without love, why did I have to change? Why did I have to set him up to be hurt? When I am gone, he will be alone...'
"I never let nobody touch me,
Never let nobody try.
I never let somebody move me,
Deep enough to make me cry.
'Till I found you, 'till I found you!
I was strong and independent,
I never needed anyone.
I thought I had it all together,
Until you came a proved me wrong.
Now I'm stronger with you, in my life."
I wanted to jump for a moment, leap off the balcony and never have to worry about this again, but that was a cowards way out. That wouldn't change the fact that I love him and that he's changed me.
As I placed a hand on my stomach, I glared at my own womb, 'How can something so lovely and life-giving be so terribly cruel at the same time?'
I never wanted to leave Legolas, and I never wanted to hurt Legolas; but, both were bound to happen. That was what tore me apart, that was what pierced my heart like an icy dagger.
"And that's what hurts when we say good-bye
And that's what hurts on those sleepless nights
There's nothing I can do, 'cause I am lost inside of you
And that's what hurts, and that's the catch.
'Cause the heart's not good at holding back.
It is a blessing and a curse, and I don't know what's worse
And that's what hurts. What hurts."
I wept harder, sob racking my chest. My breathing was raspy, but my voice did not waver through my tears. I was singing my heart out, and at the same time some hesitation and a lot of pain were being released from my heavy soul.
"Sometimes I wanna' run.
Sometimes I feel just like a fool
Sometimes I'm even sorry baby
That I fell in love with you"
My voice grew in intensity and in volume. I was crying as I sang from my heart.
"And that's what hurts when we say good-bye
And that's what hurts on those sleepless nights
There's nothing I can do, 'cause I am lost inside of you."
The pain was too much, and if Legolas loves me as much as he says, he will hurt more.
"And that's what hurts, and that's the catch.
'Cause the heart's not good at holding back.
It is a blessing and a curse, and I don't know what's worse
And that's what hurts. What hurts."
That was when I broke down, fell to the ground and sobbed. "No! I will kill this cursed thing within me before I will leave Legolas!"
Legolas walked up to me and wrapped me in his arms. "You never have to leave me, my love."
I tried to push him away, but I couldn't. "Yes, I do. I...I think that I....am....pregnant."
Instead of worrying like I had imagined, he laughed. "Darling, that is impossible. We have not made love yet, so how could you be pregnant."
Suddenly a cold wave of fear pummeled me. "Legolas, I may not have made love to you...but I am not a virgin...." Thoughts of Lorei and Rauko shot through my mind. If I was carrying a child from one of them, I 'would' leap off this balcony.
Legolas, in turn, also became very concerned; "Are you saying that you may be carrying Rauko's child?"
Sobs came over me. "I don't know Legolas, I truly don't know..."
He held me tightly, "No matter. I will love the child like my own."
I began to cry harder, "Don't you remember what I told you? If I have a child, my fate is sealed!"
Realization lit in his eyes, "Oh no....no...NO!" Legolas turned his head up towards the sky and yelled. A loud crash of thunder buried his cry of pain.
We sat there for what seemed like eternity. His arms wrapped around me, my arms gripping his. I wanted to stay here forever, in his warm embrace. Rain began to soak Legolas as well. "My love, let us get out of the rain."
I stood weakly, and took his hand. "If I am truly pregnant with a child from Rauko, the Mother will ensure that everything turns out okay. She will protect her daughter."
Legolas nodded, "I suppose you are right. Come, let me dry you off and perhaps we should stay in the chambers today."
With a faint nod, I embraced him tightly. "Legolas. I 'love' you. I really do and every time I am around you I just want to make everything right in the world. I feel like I can accomplish anything with you at my side."
He kissed my forehead, "You 'can' accomplish anything." With unbelievable tenderness, Legolas picked me up and carried me into the bathroom. He slowly removed my soaking clothes, down to my undergarments.
I stripped off my undergarments and started wringing my hair out over the bath tub. Legolas undressed and I turned to him and walked towards the bed. "Legolas, perhaps...if I am going to die...we should make love...because I am doomed now anyway."
My prince laughed, "You are not positive you are pregnant, and even if you are...you have some time after the baby's birth to live, right?"
"About two years."
He laughed, "That's plenty of time for love making."
I nodded, "You are right. Let's just lay down and sleep." Legolas wrapped an arm around me as I lay on the bed.
"That sounds good, my love." I dosed of quickly.
~~~POV-LEGOLAS THRANDUILLION~~~
'Pregnant with another man's child? No, she can't be. Her Mother would not do this to her...right?'
I watched her breathing contentedly. "Sleep well, kitten." I rose silently, dressed and walked out. I had some matters to tend to.
Once in the grand hall, I saw Loraine and smiled. "Dear sister. I need your help. There is an event coming up that you happen to know about. I need you to help me arrange it."
Loraine smiled, "Oh, yes, of course. That ball."
A grin crossed my face, "Correct. Now, where should we start?"
She smiled, this was what she loved to do. "What color theme do you want for the decorations? And then we need to have you fitted for a suit..."
"Great. Reyna has had too much pain in her life. It's time to add a little joy, curtesy of Mirkwood."
Loraine grinned brightly, "You are going to be a great husband someday." I blushed lightly.
~~~To Be Continued~~~
PS: I don't own that song in there, it's called "That's What Hurts" by Daryl Hall and John Oates. It sucks when they sing it but the lyrics are great.
PSS: Let's hear a big round of applause for my Beta Reader: Aramis. Thanks so much!