An: This is one of my first Naruto fictions. This idea is probably well used, but well I had inspiration and I just went with it. Basically it's in Naruto's POV and his thoughts on life and the future. This has suicidal themes so if you don't like that then please feel free to return to the main page and choose another story to read. In the mean time if you want to read it, please continue onwards towards the story.

Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto, it's characters, props, the works. But I would like too...

All too soon

Soon I'll be gone. Soon they won't have to worry anymore. Soon they won't have to scorn and hate me. Soon they won't have to worry if a 'monster' will break into their houses at night and kidnap their children. Soon they will be able to celebrate.

They won't be the only ones celebrating. I shall also celebrate. Because I won't have to suffer anymore. Because I won't have to see their glares or hear their whispers. Soon I'll be free. But I shall also mourn the loss of everything that could have been. I shall mourn with my friends, for the loss of a pure life. I shall mourn with my teachers, for the loss of the boy who, with so much potential, failed. I shall mourn with my leader, for loss of her little brother. With all of them, my tears shall rain down, for the loss of a single life.

But eventually they will stop crying. They will move on, they will continue with their jobs, make new friends, find news goals, find love, get married, have children, reach their ultimate goals. These are the things I won't ever be able to do. I will never get the chance, but I never had the opportunity anyway. I would never be allowed to experience those things. Then the village would be divided. It would split in views deciding what I could and couldn't do. I would have no choice, no freedom.

I use to want to become the Hokage, so that I would be acknowledged, so I could be trusted, loved. In return I'd protect them, forgive them for the suffering they caused me, assure them that it was all in the past. But I now realise that it would never happen. It would make it worse. The ninjas who didn't trust me would ban together and turn against me. Many civilians would also turn against me. There would be war, and I would die a painful death, knowing that I would never be acknowledged as anything but a monster. Not only that but my friends would try to fight for me, protect me. They would die as traitors.

It would all be because of me. It would be all my fault. I don't want that. It would kill me nine times over. I can't allow that to happen. So instead of waiting for anything to happen, I'm gonna do it myself. I'll finish it for everyone. For once I'll have the freedom to choose. It is my choice. I hope my friends will understand. They probably won't, but I can hope. Soon I shall die. Soon my death will be celebrated. Soon I will be mourned. My name is Uzumaki Naruto. All too soon, I shall be forgotten.

AN: So what did you think? If you have any nice positive comment, please hit the review button. If you have a positive criticism that would help me with my writing, please hit the review button. But if you're only going to criticise it without any suggestions for improvement, well even if you review I'll completely ignore it, and I should hope others do as well. Back on to cheery things, hope you enjoyed the story!