Fading
Summer stood in the doorway of Marissa's bedroom watching as her best friend flitted around to the blaring record. She admired how she was able to put her fight with Ryan to the back of her mind and just get lost in the music. Summer couldn't. Whenever she tried to drown her troubles in a feel-good song they always found their way to the surface of her mind. Ryan kept finding his way back.
'Oh, Hey Sum, didn't see you there,' she reached for the remote and lowered the volume as she settled onto her bed, ushering summer over. 'So what's up?'
Summer stood silent in the middle of the room, her eyes fixed on the bed.
'Hello? Earth to summer…. What's with you?' Marissa questioned.
Her words fell on deaf ears as Summer was completely immersed in another painful rerun of her ordeal that took place on that bed. Without lifting her head to meet Marissa's confused gaze, Summer attempted to explain her mistake, which she was so sure would indefinitely end their friendship right then. 'It's ….I've got… just….,' It was clearly a rare occurrence for her to be lost for words but sounds were struggling to leave her mouth. She felt a shaking throughout her body, as she continued to try to vocalise what was so clear in her mind. All she could hear now were the sounds in her flashback of her own whimpers and pleads that gave no relief from Ryan's weight on hers. Her breathing became deeper as her legs buckled under her panicking body that now lay shivering in a ball on the carpet. As real as the night before, all she could see was Ryans face, so close to her that she began struggling for breath. The suffocating feeling of his naked body on hers felt like suck a reality that she just let herself fade away until nothing was visible.