Warnings: There still are mistakes in grammar, I think. Also Shounen-ai, which means malexmale love. NOT FOR KAIRI FANS! (or Naminé) Also, there might be some drug using, self-destructive activities and maybe some character deaths…
Pairings: SoraxRiku, one-sided SoraxAxel, WakkaxTidus, CloudxLeon, AerithxCid and maybe some more…
Disclaimer:sigh: This' so depressing. I don't own Kingdom Hearts, nor the songs I'll use in this story.
Reviews:
DieChan: Hehe… Kairi's eeeeeviiil… And- no, it's not Axel, who's going to go to tell Riku the truth… Heh… Whee, we'll see soon what's wrong with Cloud, I promise.
losthimagain: No, Sora won't cut himself anymore, since he realized it's not very clever. I didn't read it, because I hardly had time to write these two chapters. Maybe when I have time, I'll check it out.
Just love me: Let's see if I can do any happier… But hey- there's times when things go right down to the hell, and then again, are times when everything goes like they should be. And yes! I can't even think about killing Sora, or Riku'd shoot my brains out and feed my corpse to wolves…
lonegear: Thank god, there's peoples that sides with me:laughs to Riku: Sucker! Thanks!
Serenity Cathedral a.k.a serena429: Glad you liked ;D Still I have ways to go to be a good angst writer… Thank you anyways!Heart's Door: I'm happy I could make the chapter even a little touching… I know, I still need to do something to my grammar, but let's just say, that I excuse my poor English with interesting plots, 'k?
Shi no Yume: Yeah! Let the true angst begin! ;D
forgotten-rose-b: Noo, please don't hate me! Hah, just kiddin'! You're supposed to hate me what I've done… Damn I even hate myself for torturing Sora and everyone else. Cloud, well… You'll find out sooner or later!
asa-chan: Umm… Well, Kairi had that stupid photo thingy as a proof… But, as I said before- you'll find out the reason for Cloud's headaches soon. Stay tuned! ;)
Chapter #9, Wings Of An Insomniac- Part II
When Sora woke up in the morning, his body was aching all over. Blinking and groaning, he managed to sit up, but when he looked around, he noticed that it wasn't his room he was in. It took him few seconds to recognize Cloud's familiar light-blue walls and messy floor. He frowned, as he tried to remember what exactly had happened yesterday.
"…No way…" Sora looked down at his wrist, and saw a bandage, which was clumsily tied around the wound. Wincing in pain, the brunette slowly untied the material, and wrinkled his nose as he saw the red wound, blood staining his skin around it. "…I can't believe I actually did that again…"
Sora looked down at his clothes, which he had worn yesterday. "Damn…" He cursed, as he saw the crimson spots in his new white shirt. Oh, forgot about the shirt- his jeans, which Riku had bought him, were all covered up with blood. There were only few places, where the indigo-blue color was still visible.
"Riku…" Sora said quietly. He gulped, and cursed slightly. Even thinking about the silver-haired man made him want to cry once again. Funny, how everything can just fall apart in a mere second. First, you think nothing can go wrong, but then you just want to forget it all. Sora shook his head, as he felt a burning in the back of his eyes.
Inhaling a shaky breath, Sora tried to collect his thoughts. He had to focus to the present, not linger in the past. Time will fix things, and soon he and Riku could be together again… Or, at least, Sora hoped so.
Crossing his fingers, wishing that his brother wasn't sleeping in his room anymore, Sora exited Cloud's room, to the small corridor. He frowned and listened- small sounds could be heard from downstairs, which meant Cloud had already woken up. Sighing, greatly relieved, Sora tiptoed to his room, as quiet as he could.
In his room, Sora walked straightly to his wardrobe. Quickly he scanned the piles of shirts, until he found a long sleeved black jacket, where read text- "Respect Me" with large white letters. It was Riku's shirt. Sora didn't remember why it was even in his closet, but it didn't matter really. Inhaling the silver-haired man's scent from the jacket, a faint smile made its way to Sora's lips and a single tear slipped from his right eye.
Sora tugged the jacket over his head. It was a little too big for him, but it covered his wounded wrist and it was comfy. The dirty clothes Sora shoved under his bed. He'd have to deal with them later, but now all he wanted was a breakfast.
"Huh?" Sora's thoughts made him stop his movement. Was he hungry? He touched his stomach, and listened the grumbling it made. Yes, he was hungry, for a very long time. Happily Sora wiped the tear from his cheek and dashed out of his room.
Cloud raised his eyebrow, as he watched his oddly happy little brother. "What's gotten into you? Yesterday you… Oh, never mind!" The blonde smiled and stood from his chair, and went to the fridge.
Sora frowned slightly, when Riku came into his mind, but he just pushed the thoughts aside, and continued to smile genuinely.
"So, you want something to eat?" Cloud asked, looking over his shoulder. The younger one nodded his head happily. "Yeah! I'm hungry!"
The blonde nearly fell to his butt, as he heard his brother's words. His eyes widened, and he stared Sora in disbelief. "Did I just hear you right? Did you just say you're hungry!" Cloud asked hopefully.
"Umm… Yeah?" Sora scratched back of his head.
"That's GREAT!" Cloud cried happily and jumped to hug all of the oxygen out of his little brother. The said brunette gasped for air, as he gently shoved the older one away. "…It's not such a big deal…"
"It is a BIG deal!" Cloud danced around the kitchen and picked up the phone, grinning like an idiot whole the time. Sora's brow rose as he watched his brother to do happy-go dance on the kitchen floor.
"I'm going to call a pizzaaaa…"
Sora stared Cloud as he dialed the number of the pizza service. The blonde's face beamed from happiness and he continued to bounce up and down. Sora couldn't understand why the other one was suddenly so happy- he only had told him he wanted to eat. Like it wouldn't be everyday peoples wanted to eat something…
"I wanna ten pepperoni pizzas, since my brother decided to start eating again!… What! That much? You think I'm a millionaire? Listen, I'm not too rich yet, but my friend and I are starting a band, so I swear I'll sign my first autograph for you!… Not interested?… Aargh, you pizzamen are so hard to deal with!"
Sora laughed as he listened Cloud's arguing with a pizzaman. It's not like Cloud wouldn't like to pay for the pizzas, but he just wanted to pick on those poor peoples pizzamen… Sora chuckled.
"Hmph! I see how it is! You don't even want to sell me a pizza…" Cloud said, with fake sad tone. "FINE! I don't even want your stupid pizzas!"
The blonde ended the call, and started to snicker. "Ah, it's always so fun to tease kind little pizzamen…"
"That's nasty Cloud."
"I know, I know! But it's just so much fun!" Cloud giggled and went to the fridge and pulled out milk and eggs. "…I'll make us an omelet. I don't have much time though…"
Sora lifted his eyebrow and leaned his head to his palms. "Are you going somewhere?"
"Yeah, I'll go to see a doctor, because of my headaches and after that I'll go to speak with Riku…" Cloud said, facing his back to Sora, so he couldn't see the expression on Sora's face, when he said name 'Riku'.
"I see…" said Sora, who looked down, trying to hide his sudden depression. "…You know what… I'm not hungry anymore…" He added quickly, before leaving quietly.
Cloud looked down at the stove. "Damn…" he cursed, "I shouldn't mentioned Riku… Shit… Gah…"
Meanwhile, in Sora's room, Sora jumped to his bed and buried his head to the white pillows. He knew he was acting very childish, only because Riku had left him. But it just hurt so much, to hear all those words coming from Riku's mouth. Did he really hate him that much? And if he did, why he hadn't said anything before this?
Sighing, Sora rolled around and looked up at the ceiling. One thing he had learned- life wasn't fair. Things happen, and you just have to go on. Maybe he should try and find a new boyfriend? Or even better- a girlfriend, and be like nothing ever happened.
"No can do…" said Sora to himself, before rolling over once again. "…Riku will forgive me, sooner or later."
The brunette frowned. Why he was waiting for Riku to forgive him? Wasn't Riku the one, who was responsible for all of this? Why he had to be so stupid and believe someone like Kairi!
Suddenly, Sora wasn't sad anymore. No… All the sadness was replaced by anger, which now controlled his body and thoughts. His hands trembled from furry, as he threw his pillow to the wall. After watching it to land the floor with quiet 'thud', he took his other pillows, and started to throw them rapidly to the spot, where the first pillow had hit.
Inhaling a deep breath, Sora felt a little satisfied, yet he still wanted to smash someone's head. It was odd- Sora had never had such a violent desire to kill someone than he had now.
The door opened slowly, and a spiky blonde haired man peered from behind it. "Are you done yet? I was wondering what those loud thumps were…"
Sora snorted and lied down on his bed.
"Oh… So I guess I'm off now… I left some food on the table, make sure you'll eat them!" Cloud added quickly, before closing the door.
The brunette looked at the door, wanting to say something to Cloud. He was honestly very worried about him. Those headaches, which continued to bother him, weren't such usual thing. Sora bit his bottom lip and sat up. He pulled up his sleeve, wincing slightly, as the material brushed against his cut wound.
The scent of ocean and mint had faded from the jacket, but Sora could still smell Riku's individual odor. When he closed his eyes, he could see Riku's smug smirk, his aqua-colored eyes mysteriously staring back at him. Sora just had to curve his lips up slightly.
"Riku…"
Tidus kept his eyes locked on the ground, as he walked across a street, his hands in his pockets. Cool wind caressed his face, and messed his dirty blonde hair.
Suddenly he lifted his gaze at the sky, which was covered with clouds. Tidus frowned and looked at his watch. It was only 1 p.m. and he had absolutely nothing to do. He had just been walking, not even noticing where his feet had brought him. Quickly, he scanned his surroundings, and found out that he was lost. Well, that's what you get, when you wander around aimlessly.
He groaned. Normal terrace house area and a small park was all he could see. He kicked a death leaf, which was rolling on the ground, annoyed. "Great, just great…"
"Yo."
Tidus' head spun around, as he heard a voice behind him. An orange haired man approached him, waving his hand. The blonde lifted his eyebrow, and grimaced. That was the mysterious man he had crashed last week.
"Ya don't have that crazy friend of your with you, ya?" he asked as he stopped in front of Tidus, who shook his head, sincerely confused. "…What was her name again… Selphie, or somethin'."
"You know Selphie?" Tidus gasped, shocked. If he knew Selphie, that'd mean that she had done something to 'help' him once again! Oh nooooooo…...
The redhead nodded his head and chuckled. "Yah… I know her. She's pretty hyper, dont'cha think?"
Tidus only managed to let out a faint gasp- Selphie just had to mess up with his business! Oh, how Tidus wished, that earth would swallow him! Lord know, what his lunatic friend had told to this man…
"Oh…" Tidus said suddenly, "I still haven't heard your name!"
"The name's Wakka. Nice to meet ya, Tidus!" Wakka winked, "Selphie sure talks lots about ya."
The blonde bowed his head weakly, and mumbled something fuzzy about idiotic friends called Selphie's, or something. Wakka grinned and patted Tidus' shoulder.
"Nah, don't worry! She talked only good about ya."
"That's what I am afraid of…" said Tidus, who slowly fixed his eyes back at Wakka, who whistled and stared at the sky, his hands folded behind his head. The younger man's lips curved up, as he tried to form an embarrassed smile to his face.
"Umm… I'm kinda lost… Do you know where we're?" he asked.
Wakka spun his head, and looked around. Then he shook his head, smiling goofily. "Naw, I just followed y- I mean, ermm… I'm actually lost too."
They both sighed in unison. Tidus toyed nervously his sleeve, while secretly glancing the other man. Wakka, however, smiled to himself, obvious about the looks he got from the blonde. Slowly he walked past Tidus, humming something quietly.
"I guess we just hafta go back the route we came."
Sephiroth looked at the notebook, before lifting his eyes at Riku, who sat by a table, next to him. A smile graced to his lips and he leaned his head to his palms, letting his long silver hair drop down to his shoulders.
"This is what I call Lyrics, Riku. I knew you could do it." He smiled and winked to his cousin, who gave him a weary smile.
"I know. I'm the best." But inside, Riku didn't feel like that at all. He felt like an idiot, stupid, betrayed, self-pitying, zero, hopeless, heart broken fool.
Sephiroth threw the notebook back at Riku, who snatched it coolly. Smugly smirking to himself, Sephiroth pulled out his laptop, and opened it.
"Let's see…"
The other silver-haired man lazily looked at Sephiroth, who was thoughtfully looking at the screen of his computer. Riku leaned his back on the chair, and closed his eyes. He was tired. Really tired. He hadn't got a wink of sleep last night. All was because of Sora. Even the name of the brunette boy made him shiver.
"…Well, how long do you need to practice that song?" Sephiroth asked suddenly, tearing Riku away from his thoughts.
"Dunno. How long can you give?"
"…A week."
Riku nearly fell down from his chair. He jumped to his feet and stared at his silver-haired cousin, "A WEEK? How do you think we could practice in such a short time! I was expecting a month or two, but no! A week?"
Sephiroth smiled calmly and nodded his head. "Your first concert is at next Saturday. I've got all planned out."
"W-what! You… You can't be serious!" Riku gasped and slammed his fists to the table, narrowing his eyes. "No can do! That's… That's just not possible!"
"Then make it possible." Sephiroth stated simply, ever so calmly. Riku bit his lip, and slowly sat back down again. Inhaling a deep breath, he tried to regain his lost composure and ran a hand through his silver locks. His cousin was insane- no way they could do anything in a mere week!
But Sephiroth didn't change his mind, a stubborn bastard he was. "So… Have you decided a name of your band yet?"
"No, we haven't." Riku gritted his teeth, wanting to kick Sephiroth's ass and hard.
"You should decide soon. It's not like you could be forever Riku's band, or whatever."
"I know…"
"I could help you if you'd want to…"
"No… I think I don't need anymore of your help, thank-you-very-much." Riku stated simply and folded his arms, looking firmly at Sephiroth, who tried to act hurt. But the younger man rolled his eyes to the pitiful act, frowning hardly.
Soon Sephiroth returned to his laptop, letting Riku to slip back into his dreamworld. And only thing his dreamworld included right now was Sora. Sora, Sora, Sorasora, Sorasorasorasorasorasorasorasora… He sighed, and wondered, if Sora really was happy with Axel. And what's so special was in that perverted redhead anyways?
…But then again- was there anything special in him either?
"You can go if you want to. You have lots of practicing anyways." Sephiroth waved his hand absently, his eyes locked at the screen. Riku nodded and stood up.
"Thanks Seph." He said, before exiting the room, followed by a quiet 'hn'.
He shoved his hands into his pockets, and started to walk towards an elevator. But before he could reach it, he heard a familiar voice calling at him.
"Rikuuuu!"
He turned around and saw Zexion walking towards him, smiling widely. But when he noticed, that Riku didn't smile back, his lips frowned. "What's wrong Riku?"
"Nothing… Why do you ask?" shrugged Riku, who grinned, yet not happily as he normally did. Zexion's eyebrow lifted, as he put hands to his hips, eyeing Riku carefully. Groaning, Riku's shoulders slumped. "Nooo… Nothing's wrong, I'm fiiineee… Really!"
"Hah, you may be able fool everyone else's eyes, but not mine… I mean really! I can feel your sad aura all around you!" Zexion said playfully, half seriously.
Riku rolled his eyes, and chuckled. "I thought you would have grown up from that aura stuff, Zexy."
"Gimme a break! I'm Zexion- Z-E-X-I-O-N! Zexion!... But now, we're going to go out for a coffee, and you're gonna tell me everything, what's wrong!"
Riku rolled his eyes, and tried to protest, but all his words went to deaf ears, as Zexion started to drag him to the elevator. The shorter silver-haired man couldn't help but smile. Zexion sometimes resembled an over-protective mother, as he looked after Riku.
"Zexion?"
"Hm? What is it?" He asked, as he pushed 'down' button.
"Thank you."
CC: Sorry this' soo short. I wrote this in the middle of the night, since I couldn't sleep… I've been coughing so fucking much… :cough cough: Nothing works…
Sora: Noo… CC's sick again!
CC: Yeah… But anyways, once again- sorry for the shortness, I swear, I make the next one longer! But I just felt like posting it already… Thank you all dear reviewers, I love you all, and will love you even more (if it's even possible) if you continue to write me reviews! And everyone else who liked this story so far, write write write write!
Riku: …And if you have good suggestions for my band's name, please tell CC! She's running out of ideas!
CC: Yep! So if you want to suggest something, feel free!