Warnings: There still are mistakes in grammar, I think. Also Shounen-ai, which means malexmale love. NOT FOR KAIRI FANS! (or Naminé) Also, there might be some drug using, self-destructive activities and maybe some character deaths…
Pairings: SoraxRiku, one-sided SoraxAxel, WakkaxTidus, CloudxLeon, AerithxCid and maybe some more…
Disclaimer:sigh: This' so depressing. I don't own Kingdom Hearts, nor the songs I'll use in this story.
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Serenity Cathedral a.k.a. serena429 – Yeah, you maybe right… Thank you, anyways! Hmm, they're pretty good… I'm not still sure what the bands name will be…
lonegear – Hehee, thanks! Yeah, but if I'm sick and don't have to go to school, that means more updates ;D
losthimagain – Yay, I'm not the only one who's sick here… I promise to keep on updating!
StormyWeasel – You're absolutely right! It was all Kairi's fault! Mu-hahahhahaa:evil laughs:
Heart's Door – Good point… But then again- it takes few weeks to die to starvation and few days to die to thirst… Or so I have heard. Yeah, maybe I should, but my head's kinda empty right now… Thank you, anyways!
forgotten-rose-b - :giggles: Noo, we're sooo low! Why do we authors always torture Sora the most:lol: Be patient, it takes only few more chapter, so you'll find out what's the matter with Cloudie! It wouldn't be interesting, if I'd tell it to you already, now would it? (Man, I'm evil)
Someday Eternity – Yeh, why I never even thought about that? I'm such an idiot… I wonder why I ever put this name Respect Me Not? Maybe I thought it would fit to the ending… Aaerrhg, I hate my muses, they just can't make up their frickin' mind what I should do…
DomesticTo-oTChild – Yeah, Riku's stuuupiid! You think the angst was good? Thank you! I really thought I suck at writing angst! Some characters are going to die, I'm sorry. But I hope you won't stop reading this fic, because of it… Thank you for reviewing!
Shi no Yume – Thanks :)
Chapter #10, Already Gone
Sighing heavily, Cloud walked down stairs in a public hospital. After visiting a doctor, he had sent him to different tests- blood test (Cloud simply HATED needles…), X-ray and every other think, and after that he had told him to go home, and he'd get results in a few days. Oh joy…
But after leaving the doctor's office for a blood test, he started to doubt his condition. The expression in the old doc's face wasn't very pleasing, yet he didn't say anything. Which made everything even more suspicious. Cloud shook his head, trying to think positively- Tour in this damn place was over, and he could finally go home… After he had bought some aspirin and a new remote controller…
Cloud pushed open large glass doors, and stepped outside. He frowned when he saw a car parked next to the walkway. "Maybe someone's waiting someone." He told to himself. Yeah, he spoke a lot to himself, if you hadn't noticed.
Slowly and elegantly, he stared to walk down stairs, which leaded away from the white building. When he passed the car, he quickly peered into it, and saw a familiar brown-haired man, dressed in leather and wearing black sunglasses. He lifted his eyebrow and walked to the car.
He knocked to the window, and Leon opened it. "Are you waiting someone, Leon?"
The brunette man nodded, trying to force himself to say what he wanted to say. He bit his lip and frowned, fighting against himself. "I… I was wondering if you needed a ride."
"Really?" Cloud's expression brightened as he opened the car's door and jumped in. "Sure! Thanks!… But how did you know I was here?"
"I saw you coming." Leon stated simply, and started to drive, ignoring Cloud who glanced him thoughtfully.
"You saw? When I came here?"
"Hn."
"That means, you've been waiting all this time, haven't you!" Cloud pointed Leon with his finger. The brunette chuckled and ran a hand through his hair, remaining silent. Pout came to Cloud's lips and he folded his arms. He fixed his eyes out of the window.
Leon glanced the blonde man from the corner of his eye, trying not to smile.
"Would you drive me to pharmacy. I need to buy aspirin…" muttered Cloud, who leaned his head to the glass of window.
"Hn."
Cloud rolled his baby-blue eyes. "Not very talkative, are we? Can't you say anything else than 'hn'? Is something wrong, since you're so quiet? Oh, but then again- you're always quiet! Damn, I've never heard you speaking more than one sentence at one time! It's okay to be quiet person, but some peoples maybe start to think, there's something wrong, since you won't say anything! And-"
"Cloud…" Leon snapped, causing Cloud to shut his mouth. "You talk too much."
"Thanks for walking with me…" Tidus said, as he and Wakka reached Selphie's home. "I think I'm going to visit Selphie… So umm… Bye…"
"Yah… Here's my number- call me." Wakka stated simply as he gave Tidus a small piece of paper, numbers hastily written on it. The blonde glanced it, but when he looked back at the orange-haired man, Wakka had already left. Sighing he shoved the paper into his pocket, and turned to walk towards Selphie's door.
He could have gone home, but when Cid wasn't there it was rather boring… His old man was always so funny to be with. Tidus didn't want to sound like Sora or Aerith, but he didn't like his smoking too much. And Cid was the biggest homophobic Tidus had ever met… Oh, how he'd be in trouble, if his father would hear about Wakka…
… Wait… Why would he be angry? There was absolutely nothing going between him and Wakka. Nonononono… Nothing!
Tidus shook his head, and was about to ring the doorbell, but the door slammed open, right on his face. Ever so hyper Selphie squealed and tackled her friend to the ground.
"I saw you, I saw you with Wakkie! Sooooo cuuuuuteeee!" Selphie giggled and poked Tidus' ribs. "You're going to make such a good couple, don't you think Tiddy!"
"Ugh… Stop Tiddying me!" Tidus blushed, and tried to punch the snickering girl on top of him, but managed only slap her shoulder gently.
After few more minutes, Selphie stood up, still giggling madly. She offered her hand to Tidus, who took it, cursing under his breath, and glaring Selphie angrily. But that only made her laugh even more, since she thought Tidus' ah-so-angry-glares were super hyper ultra cute.
"…Stop snickering… This' anything, but fun…"
Selphie quieted down strangely fast, and gave her friend a concerned look. "What's wrong Tiddy?"
"…There's nothing going on between me and Wakka, so cut it off! I barely even know him!" Sighed Tidus, who slumped his shoulders and looked down at the ground, as trying to seek something interesting from it. "…And if there'd be something, it'd never work, you know that…"
Selphie tilted her head to left slightly. "No? Why not?"
Tidus shook his head, feeling really weak right now. Even if he loved his father and all, he also was very scared of him- lord knows what he'd do after finding out his son was gay… No, Tidus didn't even want to think about it. He knew what his father could do when he was pissed off.
"…Don't worry Tiddy!" Selphie said happily, a cheerful grin plastered on her face, "If it comes down to it- I promise, I, the great warrior Selphie, will save you from your father, aka, the evil monster!" She clapped her hands.
A smile made its way to Tidus' lips, as he looked up at Selphie, lifting his eyebrows, "Evil monster?"
"Yup! Everyone who stands between Wakka's and yours love, are my enemies!" She stated, nodding her head firmly.
Tidus chuckled and walked past Selphie and patted her shoulder. "Thanks Selphie… But I still don't think I love Wakka. I bet he's cool and all, but… I'm not a gay Selphie."
"That's what they all say…" Selphie mumbled quietly, grinning widely.
"Did you say something Selph?"
"Oh, nothing… Nothing…"
"Ri…ku… I'm… sor…r…y…"
"No! Don't go! Gaah… How… Why did this happen! How could this happen! You… You're going to pay!"
"Listen Riku- I wasn't…"
"I hate you! I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU! How… How could you do this to him? You… I swear, I'll kill you!"
"No- Riku I… I didn't mean it to go like this… It wasn't supposed… to end like this! I love you, can't you see? But you… You just left me…"
"I don't love you! Stay away!… D-don't touch me!"
"…How could you love him, but no me?… Come here Riku… I promise I won't hurt you-"
"AAAAHH!" Riku screamed, and his eyes snapped open. Very startled Zexion looked at him, raising his eyebrow.
Riku placed a hand to his chest, trying to regain his normal breathing rhythm. He looked around, and realized he was sitting in an armchair, in Zexion's living room.
"Aahh?" Zexion asked finally, now frowning. "Don't tell me you fell asleep, when I was talking about my grandma's new kitten?"
Riku blinked few times, then pull out his smug grin, shaking his head. "Of course not." He shrugged and leaned his back on the armchair, fixing his aqua eyes on his friend. "I just thought that there was a ghost behind your back, but I guess was wrong."
"Riiight…" Zexion said, "Well, like I was just about to say, the kitten's name is Willie and it's very annoying, since it always tries to eat my socks and everything! But yet it's-"
"Zexy…" Riku said simply, looking slightly amused, events of the dream already fading away, "I didn't know you're such a softie."
Zexion's eyebrow twitched. "Take that back."
"Hah, you wish."
"Do I have to force you?"
"Bring it on."
Zexion let out a frustrated sigh, as he balled his fists. He was no-softie, that's for sure. And he'd make that sure to Riku too…
The younger silver-haired teen gave a suspicious glance to Zexion, who slowly approached, resembling a cat. A laugh escaped from his lips, as he felt two hands tickling heel- Zexion was only one who knew Riku's only ticklish spot. Soon Riku was laughing loudly, trying to kick his foot free, from Zexion's endless tickling torturing.
"Haha- st-stop! Ze-heh-exion!" Riku cried between the laughs. Smirk spread to Zexion's lips, as he let go off Riku's foot.
"You're so damn evil Zexion… Just like back then…" Riku frowned, panting heavily. The other one shrugged and sat back to his place, smiling innocently. He shoved few locks of his hair back of his ear.
"Good times… You were my best student."
"Well, I gotta say- I learned from the best." Riku shrugged. "I really wouldn't be able to sing like this without your help."
"No, you really were talented from the beginning. You'd done it very well even without my teaching." Stated the other silver-haired man, eyeing Riku carefully. "It's strange how the time passes so quickly… I still can remember when you were only twelve and came to your first singing lesson. Hah, you were afraid at first, but then when I encouraged you a little, there was nothing that could stop you."
Riku rolled his eyes. "Oh, please stop, you're making me blush." He faked his tone girly and covered his cheeks with his hands. Zexion chuckled, while smiling slightly.
"See all those people on the ground
Wasting
time…
I try to hold it all inside"
Zexion sang softly, and caught Riku's attention immediately. He smiled slightly and bowed his head.
"…But just for tonight…"
He added to Zexion's song, keeping his head bowed all of the time. His former teacher nodded his head, and continued, now accompanied by Riku:
"The top of the world
Sitting here
wishing
The things I've become
But something is missing
Maybe
I...
But what do I know?
And now it seems that I have found
Nothing at all
Wanna hear your voice out loud
Slow it
down, slow it down
Without it all
I'm choking on nothing
Its
clear in my head
I'm screaming for something
Knowing nothing
is better than knowing at all"
(A/N: The lyrics are The Used's On my own.)
A silence surrounded them after this little singing session. Their slow and peaceful breathing was only thing that could be heard in the room. Soon, however, Riku snapped his head up and grinned widely.
"Wow, I didn't expect you'd still remember that song! We wrote that together, didn't we?" He asked, smiling brightly to the memory that took over him. Zexion smiled also and nodded his head.
"I'm happy you remembered."
"How could I forget?" Riku asked, tilting his head to the side slightly, running his hand through his beautiful metallic locks. "…After all, I could do it with my best friend, and the teacher I respected, how could I forget?"
Zexion frowned, but soon he wiped it off, and smiled his small, yet happy smile. "Thanks… Riku… But when you become famous, promise me that you'll sing that song someday? It has such a big meaning to me too."
"Of course!" Riku stood up and nodded. "I can already see myself in every poster in every fangirl's bedroom's door and peoples are going to bow in front of me! Mu-hahahhaa!"
Zexion lifted his eyebrow. Riku sure had potential to become a true star. He knew, that no one's gonna stop him, if he already was that serious.
He smiled and listened at Riku, who kept speaking about himself, and what he'd do with the money and fame he'd get. It was… relaxing to see Riku so happy… Zexion shook his head, smiling slightly, ignoring the loud 'what!' which came from annoyed Riku.
"Why aren't you listening Zexy! Just when I got on the roll!" Riku whined playfully and slapped Zexion's head.
"I am listening. I was just thinking at the same time… Guess which one is more interesting?"
"…"
Cloud smiled widely as he climbed back into Leon's car. The brunette frowned, and started to drive again.
"So, what did you buy?" He managed to ask.
"Oh, just few things!" Cloud chirped happily, as he looked at two shopping bags. "Some medicine to my head ache, food, clothes, shampoo and new remote controller!"
"Remote controller?"
"Oh, yeah- hehe… Last one broke, when I threw Sora with it." The blonde said simply, waving his hand. Leon just had to give an odd glare to Cloud, which continued to smile ever so widely, while humming something. He shook his head and turned his attention at the road.
"You have kind of violent family fights." Leon murmured.
"No, not really! I just couldn't find anything else to throw in that instant! And besides, that's not the first remote controller that broke." Continued Cloud carelessly, while groping the contents of two bags. "Oh, by the way! I was just wondering are you and Yuffie together?"
Leon frowned and gave a quick glance towards Cloud's direction before shaking his head.
"Oh… Are you a single then?" The blonde said, before he could stop himself. He slapped his forehead and laughed stupidly, "Sorry, sorry! That's a stupid question!"
"Yes, I'm a single." Leon said solemnly. Cloud blinked and scratched back of his head absently.
"Oh, nice to hear… I mean- that's sad! No one should be alone! Really really, it's not nice not to have a soulmate, don't you think?" he tried to cover up his stupid question, while laughing nervously.
Leon just growled and ran his hand through his hair. "Sometimes it's better without."
"Hm? You speak like you'd have some kind of experience about that…"
"Hn." Was the only reply Cloud was able to get.
…But then again, maybe sometimes hearing the whole story isn't the most pleasurable thing.
Sora lied in the bathtub, warm water caressing gently his skin. His eyes were closed and his chest rose and fell peacefully, as he breathed. The stillness was screaming, but Sora couldn't complain. Finally, he got some peace- no Cloud, or no Aerith around asking how he felt, and pitying him. He pitied himself enough already, so there were no room for the others hollow words.
It was strange, how you can be so happy, but then suddenly so sad and alone. Sometimes, you just wish you could run away from it all, and never look back. Life would be so much easier, if there everything just could be forgotten…
Sora bit his lip bitterly. He should have guessed when he thought Riku was his it would all go crashing down. He should have known that when Riku was with him, he had already left.
But time heals the wounds, right? And besides, Riku wasn't stupid- soon he'd realize the mistake he had done and come back to him. There was no doubt about it! Riku loved him, loved him, loved him… And there would be no one, who could tear them apart! Not even Kairi!
…But she had done it once, so how he be so sure, she wouldn't do it again?
Sora shook his head. His mind was running way too fast once again. Yes, Riku would forgive him eventually, but what then? Was he sure he wanted Riku back? What if he'd disappoint like this again? It was hard enough to take this, but if this'd happen again, he'd just… fall apart, wouldn't he?
Sighing, Sora stood up, and get out of the tub. A pain shot through his wrist, as he supported his weight on his arm. A loud cry of pain escaped from his lips, as he fell on the cold marble floor, unable to control his falling.
He groaned and rubbed his head, which had hit the edge of the sink. Cursing, he looked at his hand, which had been the reason he had collapsed on the floor. Deep, red cut wound looked like smirking at him, as he glanced it, feeling disgusted. Something wet ran down Sora's neck, and he touched it. He brought his hand in front of his eyes, and saw red blood covering his palm.
When he stood up, he felt odd. The room started to spin around, and he it was hard to even stand up straightly. Sora blinked his azure-eyes few times, and held his head. His body started to feel sore all over. The pain he had felt doubled as he lost his balance, and fell back on the floor. He cursed, as he tried to get back up, but in vain.
"I feel… dizzy…" He mumbled faintly, before his eyes closed and his consciousness slipped away.
Leon parked to Cloud's house's yard. The blonde had been quiet for the rest of the ride, just to make sure he wouldn't let anything stupid be said again.
"We're here." The brunette informed. Cloud snapped away from his thoughts and looked out of the window.
"Oh…" He just said, and opened the door, "You want to come in for coffee or something?"
Leon shrugged, but get out of the car with Cloud, closing the doors after him. They walked to the door, awkward silence surrounding them all of the time. Cloud just wanted to break it, by saying something, but he didn't trust his mouth anymore.
"I'm home!" Cloud yelled, when he opened the door. When there was no reply, he frowned slightly. Maybe Sora had gone to sleep already?
He walked inside, followed by the leather-suited man. When he entered the kitchen, he saw the food, which he had left to the kitchen table for Sora, untouched. He pouted slightly, and threw the shopping bags to the floor next to the fridge.
"Take a seat… I'll go to change few words with Sora." He stated calmly, as he nodded his head towards the chairs of the table.
Leon watched as Cloud disappeared to upstairs. He shook his head. It was rather cute how Cloud took care of his little brother so well. Chuckling, he sat down and grabbed a magazine, which was lying on the table. It was a gossip magazine, telling about the hottest celebrities lives and such. Not Leon's first choice of reading, but since there were nothing else in sight, it should go for now.
Meanwhile, Cloud stomped towards Sora's room and tore the door open, expecting to find his brother lying on his bed. But the room was empty- no sight of spiky haired brunette. Cloud sighed and turned around, now walking towards the bathroom.
He knocked the door. "Are you in there Sora? Well, I'm coming in anyways."
A loud scream echoed throughout the house, when Cloud saw what was in the bathroom. It took few seconds for him to realize that it was his little brother, who was lying on the floor in the middle of his own blood, his head bleeding like crazy.
Leon's loud footsteps were the next thing that Cloud heard. He turned his head towards the brunette man, who stared at him, and for the first time- Cloud saw concern in those cold eyes.
But turned his gaze back at Sora, and covered his mouth, blocking another scream's entrance. There was so much blood… Even Sora's brown hair had dark-red stains in it. The blonde tried to force himself to go to him, but the smell of crimson liquid was sickening him.
Leon walked closer, so he'd be able to look into the bathroom. His eyes widened, and he looked at Cloud, who stared at Sora, his eyes hollow and mouth left open, to a silent scream.
"L-Leon…" Cloud sobbed, even though he tried to keep his pokerface. It felt like hundreds of needles would have been stabbed to his stomach, as he stared the young man, who was lying in the lake of blood, unable to tear his eyes away. "…T-t-this… ho-horrible…"
"Don't you just stand there, do something!" Leon said firmly, as he ran to Sora and kneeled down next to him. Luckily, his brains worked in a situation like this. "Go call an ambulance or something, for God's sake! Your brother is dying and all you do is STARE!"
Cloud nodded, and quickly ran to find a phone, so he could call for an ambulance. Meanwhile, Leon lifted Sora from the floor, staining his leather jacket to the smaller man's blood along the way. He was surprised when he noticed how light Sora was… And how thin and pale he looked.
Leon placed Sora to his bed, ignoring the fact that now the blood was everywhere. When he looked at the other brunette, he spotted a deep wound, running across his wrist. He examined it carefully, but when he heard Cloud's footsteps, he quickly hid it under the blankets. This was already too much for him to take…
He looked down at his jacket and took it away, cursing heavily.
Leon heard Cloud's hysteric voice from downstairs, as he stared at Sora. Poor boy… So young and so weak… The white pillow under his head slowly turned red, as the blood continued to spread. Leon bit his lip, and sat on the edge of the bed, and placed Sora's head to his lap, and pressed his hand against the wound in the back of his head.
Soon Cloud dashed in, breathing heavily, "T-t-they're coming! How's Sora!"
"…" Leon didn't even look up at the blonde. "…There's a lot of blood… But I think he'll make it…"
Cloud's expression brightened as he walked to Leon. But when he looked at Sora, he couldn't help but sniff loudly. Few tears slipped from corner of his eyes, but he quickly wiped them away, hoping that Leon didn't see them. He hated when he had to be so weak in situations like this.
But Leon had noticed those tears, yet he couldn't find words to calm Cloud down. He knew how it felt like to watch as someone close to you are bleeding to death… Even if Sora wasn't maybe dying, it was a horrible sight anyways.
An urge to throw up took over Cloud, and he placed a hand over his mouth. He wanted to turn around, or close his eyes, but they were like glued to Sora. All he could do, was watch his little brother, bleeding in Leon's arms, his skin pale and black color surrounding his eyes.
And that's when Cloud's fighting gave up, and he broke up into heavy sobs. He jumped to hug Sora, completely forgetting all of the blood. "Oh my god, please don't die Sora!"
Leon watched helplessly, as the man he loved fell on the floor, holding his brother, like there would be no tomorrow. The bond between these two siblings was stronger than Leon had never even thought. He frowned, his heart aching, as he listened those cries mixed with screams and desperate words.
Cloud tried to stop his crying, as he held the brunette man tighter. He could feel the coldness of Sora, when he pressed his forehead against his, shaking his shoulders. "Sora! Sora, wake up!"
"Cloud…" Leon tried, but didn't know how to continue. How much he wanted to say Cloud that everything's gonna be alright… But he wasn't so sure about it anymore. The fact he didn't know what would happen next made him angry.
"Leon… Please say he's going to be okay…"
Riku:holds a knife on CC's throat:
CC: Waahh! Don't kill me Riku! You won't ever know what happens next if you kill me now!
Riku: I'm not even sure if I'd like to know…
CC: No, please, spare my life!
Riku: … Okay, but remember what I said about killing Sora…
Sora: Rikuu… Stop teasing CC and let her continue this story, oookaay?
Riku: You're too cute for your own good Sora.
Sora: R-Riku? You have that mad smile again…
CC:glances Riku, who is trying to molest Sora: Thank you all reviewers, and I hope you continue to do it! They makes me reeeaaaallyyyyy happy! (Oh, btw, I wrote this in the middle of night too, so sorry if there's even more mistakes than usually)