Warnings: There still are mistakes in grammar, I think. Also Shounen-ai, which means malexmale love. NOT FOR KAIRI FANS! (or Naminé) Also, there might be some drug using, self-destructive activities and maybe some character deaths…
Pairings: SoraxRiku, one-sided SoraxAxel and RikuxKairi, WakkaxTidus, CloudxLeon, AerithxCid and maybe some more…
Disclaimer:sigh: This' so depressing. I don't own Kingdom Hearts, nor the songs I'll use in this story.
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Chapter #11, Be There
Naminé stood nervously in front of Riku's apartment's door, too afraid to knock or ring the bell. She wasn't so sure if this would really be the best thing to do after all- this would ruin her and Kairi's friendship for sure. But then again, what kind of friendship they ever had had? Ever since they were babies, their mothers had forced them to play together, just because they were the best friends.
They really weren't friends… Naminé just didn't have anyone else, so she had to stay with Kairi, and try to act like nothing's wrong. Kairi always used her to get what she wanted, but what did she ever get? Nothing. She got nothing, except more shame, because of her actions. Yes, she was always the one who was blamed because what she had done for Kairi.
But now she was an adult, and she could decide what to do with her life. No more clinging on Kairi. She was on her own, and made her own choices, and would take responsibility from them.
She moved her blonde hair from her shoulder, behind his back and lifted her hand to knock the door. It was now or never…
"Hmm? It's you- you're a friend of Kairi, aren't you?"
Naminé let out a quiet squeal, and spun around on her heels. Riku was standing right behind her, looking at her quizzically, his hands resting on his hips. "So, what are you doing here? If you're looking for Kairi, I don't know where s-"
"No…" Naminé said quietly, looking at her new trainers, "I… wanted to tell you something… So if you'd have a moment…"
"Sure, come in." Riku nodded and smiled gently. He knew the girl was extremely shy, so it must be something important since she dared to come and meet Riku face to face. He opened the door, and let the blonde woman walk into the apartment, before following after her.
But when the silver-haired man was about to shut the door, a foot was placed between it and the doorframe.
"Riku, wait! Is Naminé there?"
Riku opened the door, and saw Kairi, who was panting heavily, like she'd be running across Tokyo. Then he glanced at Naminé who winced and shook her head rapidly, hoping that Riku'd get the sign. And so he did, and turned her heads towards Kairi, opening the door slightly, leaning on the doorframe.
"Nope, haven't seen her. Why do you ask?" He lied easily, trying to block Kairi's view to inside his house.
"You're lying! I saw her coming!" Kairi shoved Riku away from the door and rudely walked in. Naminé looked down, ashamed, even though she had no reason to feel that way. Kairi, however, didn't think that way, "What are you doing here Naminé?"
"I was… visiting my friend…" She muttered weakly, afraid to look into Kairi's fiery eyes. Looks like she had guessed what Naminé was about to do…
Riku looked at the two women and shook his head. "Now, now… I'm not in a mood to watch a catfight, so do it somewhere else than here." He grunted as he rubbed his temples.
Naminé opened her mouth to say something, but before even a tiniest voice managed to escape from her lips, Kairi had already pulled her outside, slamming the door close with such a force, that made the whole block of flats tremble.
Riku frowned, but decided that this was some kind of 'girls-stuff', and he should stay out of it. He closed the door and walked into his kitchen, and grabbed a beer can from the fridge.
Meanwhile, outside of Riku's apartment, in the third floor's corridor, Kairi gave very angry glares towards Naminé, who tried to look out a place to hide.
"I know what you were about to do. And I just can't let you just get away with it." Kairi stated and folded her arms on top of chest, eyeing the woman, who seemed so weak against her.
"I-I'm sorry Kairi… I didn't…"
"Shut up Naminé." The brunette girl snapped and approached Naminé who backed against the wall, looking like she was about to cry every moment now. "…You promised to side with me, even if you weren't there to fulfill the plan, didn't you? But now, you nearly deceived me! And I thought we're friends…"
Kairi's voice was so cold and hollow. Naminé bowed her head, thinking hard. She had exactly two options: She could side with Kairi, or she could tell Riku the truth and bear with Kairi's anger. But then again, she might be able to get rid of Kairi, and find new friends…
"…F-friends?" Naminé said weakly, a faint chuckle passing her lips. Kairi lifted her eyebrow, since she hadn't waited this kind of reaction from her. "Tell me K-kairi… Have ever even been friends? Friends… are not supposed to use each other to gain something… And after all… After all these 18 years, I've let you to use me…"
Kairi backed few steps. This was unbelievable! Naminé never stood up for herself…
"N-N-Naminé? What's wrong with you!"
Naminé looked up at Kairi, a smile curving her lips up shyly. How long she had waited this moment? "What's wrong with me? I… I don't know… But say Kairi… Can we be called friends?"
"Huh?" Kairi was a little taken aback from the blonde girls words, but managed to recover quickly. She formed her best fake smile, "Naminé… We have been friends since we were babies… Why do you doubt it all now? You're my best friend."
Naminé gasped weakly, and looked down. Looks like her plan backfired… "I… I…"
"That's right… Now let's go to movies or do something fun! Like every best friends does!" Kairi clapped her hands cheerfully, before dragging Naminé arm. She gave her a firm nod, trying to convince her.
"We're friends." She said, "Best friends."
There was something in Kairi's eyes, which made Naminé freeze. It was pure sincerity, which she had never seen in those lilac eyes before. They usually were filled with fakeness and hatred, but not this time. Naminé just couldn't do anything else but believe, that Kairi wasn't lying. Not this time.
She smiled shyly, and nodded too. "Yes… I'm s-s-sorry Kairi."
The said one nodded, feeling relieved. Everything was clear to her now- now she knew how Naminé really felt, when she kept using her all of the time. How could she have been so blind, not to notice how her best friend had been suffering all this time. And now she finally understood how much she really needed a true friend beside her.
"No. I'm sorry Naminé."
Sora opened his eyes slowly. They felt like two iron weights, and it took lot of effort to even narrow them open. But everything remained black. He couldn't see even a tiniest ray of light. Were his eyes really even open?
"OHMYGOD! SORASORASORA! TALK TO ME SORA!"
Someone screamed next to him. He turned his face towards the voice and blinked his eyes, still blankness surrounding him. "Who?"
A loud scream, which resembled a high-schoolgirls squeal of joy when she had passed a math's exam… Or it could be Cloud too… Yeah, it probably was Cloud.
"Thank GOD!" Cloud sighed and sat at the edge of the bed. "We brought you to hospital… You fell and hit your head… Oh my god… there was so much blood and I thought you were going to die, and I was going to die too! Thank god Leon was there, Leon saved us both, because if you'd have died, I'd have died too, and-"
"Cloud." Leon said strictly from a corner of the white room. "Let Sora relax."
The blonde snorted and sat down on Sora's bed, and touched his forehead gently. "How are you feeling, Sora?"
"I…"
Cloud lifted his eyebrow, to Sora's oddly empty eyes, which kept roaming around the room aimlessly, like trying to find a target to look at. It was kind of scary to watch, as his eyes rolled around and round. He glanced Leon, worry written all over his face.
"Cloud, where are you?" Sora reached up his hand, and grabbed Cloud's forearm. "It's so dark… Could you turn the lights on?"
Cloud gasped. "W-what did you say Sora? Here- oh my… god…" He turned to look back at Leon, "L-Leon?"
The brunette nodded and walked to Sora's bed. He waved his leather-gloved hand in front of Sora's eyes, but nothing happened. Sora didn't even blink, only continued to stare into the emptiness. Cloud gasped, as he stood up and took few steps backward.
"Don't—don't tell me…"
Leon kneeled next to the bed and tried to look into Sora's eyes, which continued to seek for something. "Cloud, go get a doctor."
The blonde nodded and dashed out of the room, nearly stripping to threshold.
Sora managed to sit up, even if he hardly could even feel his own body. Tiredly he raised his hands to rub his eyes, but it didn't work either- he just couldn't see anything.
"…" Leon watched, as Sora spread his hands, fumbling his surroundings, nearly hitting him while doing it. He sighed and stood up, "Sora- can you hear me?"
"Yes."
"But you can't see me, right?"
"…Yes."
The leather-dressed man shook his head. This was bad. He should have guessed that there would be some kind of side effects from that falling… He looked up at ceiling. This had to be hard to Cloud too. He already was worried from Sora's eating problems and now this… This was just so… Unfair…
The door opened and a man with long white jacket walked in, followed by Cloud, who looked down at the floor. Leon's heart throbbed painfully, as he saw Cloud's tired and beaten expression.
The doctor walked next to Sora, who heard the footsteps, and turned his head towards the sound. "Hello Sora. I'm Laguna Loire, nice to meet you."
"What's… happening?" Sora mumbled quietly, looking down, where he thought his lap would be. "It's all so dark… I… I can't see anything…"
Leon's eyes narrowed, as he stared Laguna's back. He was angry. Not because of the doctor, but because of him being so weak. Being able to do anything, just watch aside as Cloud suffered because of Sora. It was all so wrong. All he wanted to do, was hug Cloud tightly, drive away all his pain and misery… He balled his fists and his arms started to tremble from the fury.
He didn't know why he was so angry this time… Maybe it was because Sora resembled him so much. Or maybe it was those tears that Cloud cried? Who knows…
But suddenly something warm touched his arm, and snaked around it. He looked down, and saw Cloud, clinging on his arm, and all his angriness washed away, as he looked into those worry filled blue eyes. His fists unclenched slowly. …There's so much more for me here… Something that I could never before reach…
Cloud smiled weakly, before turning his eyes towards Sora, his hands firmly tied around Leon's well-built arm.
Meanwhile, Laguna had taken out a flashlight, and pointed the cold light into Sora's eyes, which remained emotionless. He sighed and stood up, shaking his head weakly.
"Looks like he hit his head so hard to right place, which caused him to lose his sense of sight." The doctor said, "I'm not sure if it's only temporary, or will he be blind forever. But if we're lucky, he'll recover eventually. Anyways, I'm not expert at these kind of things, so I'll go and get someone who actually knows something…"
Sora had closed his eyes, and lied back down, listening the explanation from Laguna. To be honest, he wasn't sure how to react. He wanted to cry, and beg on his knees to get his sight back, but then again, it would've been useless. So all he could do now was hope, even if he doubted that things could never be like they used to be.
First his eating problems, then Riku had left him and now he couldn't see anything. When this torturing will come to its end? Sora just hoped, that he could fall asleep and never wake up. Everything would be so much easier if there wouldn't be tomorrow.
He wouldn't be able to draw anymore. His dream to become an artist someday was crushed. And he wouldn't be able to play games or read… But the fact that hurt the most was, that he couldn't see Riku never again.
Sora could feel saltiness of his tears, as they poured down his cheek. He started to doubt, if he'd be even smile anymore…
Laguna looked at Sora, sighing heavily. Doctor's job was never easy. Then he looked at Leon and Cloud, and sighed again. "I'm sorry… I'll be right back."
Then the doctor left, closing the door quietly after him. Cloud bit his lip, still holding Leon's hand.
"I… Sora…" Cloud said, nearly sobbed. "D-d-d-don't worry S-S-Sora! It's a-all g-g-going to be okay…"
Only sniffs and sobs were reply to Cloud's pitiful intention to calm him down. Leon tried to control his emotions, and awkwardly pulled Cloud against his chest. He ran his hand through spiky blond hair, tightening his grip around the smaller man's waist. Cloud was too emotional to even understand the situation, so he grabbed back of Leon's leather jacket.
"Everything's so messed up…" Leon stated sadly, closing his eyes.
"…Leon…" Cloud sighed, and sobbing freely. "W-what am I going to do…?"
Sora turned around, hugging a pillow. Everything… was in vain… Why he even tried to gain something, since he knew that everything would end when he died? There was no reason to live anymore- He could as well have thrown his life away right at this moment. It's not like his life would have any big role in this world… Unlike Riku… or Cloud…
How could he be able to live anyways? He was blind, which meant he wouldn't be able to walk on his own, without dying. Yeah, the doctor had said, that he had a change to get his sight back, but that was only part of doctor's job- try to convince everything will be fine to their patients. Not fair, but then again, no one ever said that life would be fair.
"C-Cloud…" Sora gasped, his throat dry. The blonde immediately pulled away from Leon and ran next to Sora.
"What is it?"
"Where's… Riku?" He asked, without knowing why. It was like he'd been sleeping, yet fully awake. "…I… wanna… hear Riku's voice…"
Cloud turned to look at Leon. "Could you?"
Even if Cloud didn't explain himself further, Leon understood and nodded. He walked calmly out of the door, leaving two siblings alone.
Sora reached his hands towards the direction where he thought that Cloud would be. "Cloud… Please don't leave me alone… I… It's so dark…" the brunette said weakly. Cloud took his hand into his own and squeezed it gently.
"Don't worry…" He said, as a tear rolled down his cheek, and dropped down on Sora's forehead, "I'll be here…"
Leon parked to the parking lot and jumped off the car. With long paces, he hurried into the block of flats where Riku lived. It took him only few minutes to dash up the stairs to the third floor.
He literally punched the door, and waited few second, before punching again.
Very pissed off Riku finally tore the door open and gave angry glares to Leon. "And what exactly are you trying to do! Break my door?"
"No time for chit-chat. We have to go. Sora's in a hospital."
Riku's eyes widened, before his expression turned cold and serious. "What happened?"
"No time to explain. Come with me." Leon ordered and turned around, starting to walk away, until he realized that the other man wasn't following. "…?"
"Sorry Leon… But I can't." The silver haired man said solemnly, slightly frowning. "I… I just can't go to see him Leon. I'm such an ass…"
Leon stared at Riku, his eyebrow slowly lifting. Could Riku be serious? The one who loved Sora the most, refused go to see him, when he lied in a hospital, completely blind? Leon shook his head and folded his arms.
"You can't be serious Riku."
"But I am." Said Riku, who copied Leon's gesture and folded his arms. "It would make things even worse than they are already… I just can't look into his eyes anymore."
Leon sighed and walked over Riku. "What's wrong with you two?"
"Oh, so you haven't heard. That's strange really… I thought everyone knew." Riku laughed dryly, "Well, he doesn't love me."
"…"
"So if you want to get someone to see poor Sora, go get his new boyfriend Axel. I bet he'd want to know Sora's in hospital, god knows what he has done now." Riku said, his tone was supposed to sound confident, but hint of sorrow was ringing in it. Riku turned his head away from Leon, to hide his guilty expression.
"Fuck you Riku." Leon said and narrowed his cold eyes warningly, "Do you even realize what you're doing?"
"Of course."
Leon inhaled a deep breath. How someone could be so damn stubborn?
"Fine. Do what you wish. You're just walking past your happiness." Leon snorted. This will break Sora's heart to even tinier pieces, but it looked like no one's gonna turn Riku's head so easily. He turned and started to walk away, leaving over-confident looking Riku.
The brunette man walked down the stairs, making loud sound with an each step. "Fuckin' bastard…" he muttered as he walked outside to the dark night. He looked at his watch- it was already 11 p.m..
He walked to his car and opened the door. He hated to go back empty-handed, but there was no other choice.
"Hi! Umm, you know Riku right?" A brown-haired girl jumped like out from nowhere, followed by a blonde haired man. "I mean, we just came and heard you muttering something about him…"
Leon nodded lamely and stepped inside of his car.
"Well, do you happen to know where Sora is?"
"Yeah." Leon looked at the girl, frowning tiredly. "He's at the hospital. If you want to go to see him, I can take you there."
The girl covered her mouth and screamed, but the man just gasped like a goldfish. "WHAT HAPPENED!" she shrieked.
"He fell and hit his head kind of badly…" Stated the brunette mad, avoiding the whole truth, as he started the car, "You coming?"
The blonde man nodded and pushed past the brunette girl, and climbed in.
"Yeah, take us there the fastest you can!" He said and looked at the girl, "What's wrong?"
"Where's Riku…?"
"He didn't want to come."
The girl nodded firmly and nodded her head towards the block of flats. "Then, I'm going to go to talk some sense to his thick skull! You go without me, I'll come after later!" She said and started to run towards the building.
Leon started to drive towards the hospital, remaining silent whole the time. The man, who sat at the back seat moved nervously around. "Umm… I'm Tidus by the way. Who're you?"
"Leon." He replied shortly. Tidus nodded and fixed his eyes out of the window. Nervous atmosphere filled the car, as Leon drove the fastest he could, dodging other cars and ignoring Tidus, who opened his mouth to say something every now and then.
Meanwhile, Selphie rang Riku's doorbell rapidly. It took few moments for the door to open and reveal Riku, who looked tired, black circles around his swollen eyes and his skin pale.
"What is it, umm… Selphie? Long time no see." Riku chuckled bitterly and stepped aside, so Selphie could walk in. She gave a long glance towards Riku, before walking in. The door was closed right behind her.
"So is there something you need?"
"In fact, yes there is." Selphie said. She had never before this serious.
"Well?" Riku started to get impatient as he eyed the brunette girl, who narrowed her eyes angrily, and folding her arms.
"I'm quite sure I don't have to explain myself. But I'd like to hear what gives you right to act so bitchy towards Sora." Selphie grabbed Riku's collar and pierced her eyes through Riku. "Something that Kairi said? Well? Would you like to tell me what she said to you, so I can go to beat her up!"
Riku sighed and took Selphie's hand away from his shirt and straightened it. "And why do you care?"
"I care because SORA IS MY FRIEND!" Selphie raised her voice, "And I don't want you to hurt MY FRIENDS without reason!"
"Without reason?" Riku chuckled. He shook his head and narrowed his eyes to Selphie, who backed few steps. The angriness and hatred in Riku's face… there was no proper word to describe the expression. "No reason, you say? Well, let's see… I was stupid enough to think that your 'friend' was in love with me, and I let myself fall in love with him too. But then I found out that he loves another man, not me. Happy now!"
Selphie frowned. "Sora… who? Do you mean Axel?"
"Whoever that son of a bitch is, I don't give a shit." Riku gritted his teeth and balled his fists, his nails digging into his skin.
"Wait…" Selphie said and pointed Riku with her finger. "You got it all wrong!"
"Oh really?"
"YES!" Selphie cried and bounced up and down. "Sora doesn't love Axel, I swear! That bastard had been molesting for a while now! And… I heard Tidus talking something about some pictures, which Kairi had taken when Axel had been groping Sora! Aargh, how can you be so stupid and believe her?"
Riku lifted his eyebrow, his lips slightly parted. Selphie nodded firmly and took few steps forward.
"Sora doesn't even like him! He loves you!"
Suddenly Riku's knees started to feel weak. He'd be supposed to feel relieved now, but all he could feel was shame and guiltiness. "W-what have I done?" he looked down at his hands, remembering the moment when he had hit Sora. "…What have I done?"
Selphie looked at Riku, who turned around, facing his back at her. She looked down at her yellow shoes.
"I… I can't believe this… I've been so stupid." Riku said, never turning around, "I actually believed her… I believed… But why? She… I… It's all so clear now…"
"Riku…"
"This can't be true… Is that true Selphie? Have I been so stupid… so blind… How could I not see this coming?" said the silver-haired man weakly, while shaking his head every now and then.
"It's true… Every word… I'm sorry Riku…" Selphie bowed her head and gently patted Riku's back. "Do you believe me?"
"I… Don't know… I don't know what to believe anymore. I… Maybe it's better for me to be alone after all. I only cause my loved ones to suffer… I can never do right decisions can I? Everything I've done so far has been a big mistake." Riku opened the door and gently pushed Selphie out.
"I… I think it's better if you leave me alone."
Selphie stared in front of her, as the door slammed close. A sigh escaped from her lips, as she continued to stare the wooden door, unable to move.
Was this the right thing to do after all?
CC: Thank god Riku's knocked out… I now you readers are like 'What the fuck!' right now... This' odd, but I just had to make Sora blind... Dunno, felt like torturing him even more- mu-hahaha!
Sora: CC, that's just way too mean! Tell me I'm gonna get my sight back.
CC: Hmm… Well, isn't it kind of obvious?
Sora: …No…
CC: Then it's too bad, ho-ho-hoo!
Sora:pout:
CC: Thank you reviewers, and I hope you liked this chapter! This was the first time I cried when I wrote something. I dunno why, maybe I was already in some kind of emotional state… Well, review!