Rain Drenched Promises
Chapter Six
May 2006
Location- Arizona
Jason cruised down the desert road. Darkness surrounded him, with only a sliver of the moon to light his way.
He had been on the road for weeks now. As soon as he left Sam on the docks he hopped on his bike and headed for the highway. He had no destination in mind, just somewhere that felt wide open. Somewhere there was no one who loved him and needed him to be something he couldn't.
His cell phone was tossed somewhere near Ohio. Jason called Sonny first telling him he needed time away. Time without having to save Sonny from himself or care if a mob war broke out.
The last year changed his priorities. There was a way to run the business so everyone lived in relative peace. But Sonny had stopped taking out their enemies at the first sign of trouble years ago. And that threatened everyone.
Jason gave his life to managing those threats but now he saw that left no room for anything, or anyone, else. Would that be enough for him for the rest of his life?
I wanted the ocean
to cover over me.
I wanna sink slowly
without getting wet.
Maybe someday,
I won't be so lonely,
And I'll walk on water
every chance I get.
Time and time again
Time and time again
Time and time again
I can't please myself
Counting Crows Lyrics
Location- 555 Lilac Lane, Port Charles NY
Carly sat among the boxes in her new living room, dreading unpacking them. Maybe she could hire someone to do it for her? Or order Max to when he brought the kids back from Sonny's.
It felt nice to be out of the suite at the Metro Court. That space was entirely too small to raise two rambunctious boys. Lorenzo offered to let her stay until she found a house but Carly knew that would only drag out the pain. Even though they did not work as a married couple the pending divorce still marked the end of all the shared hopes that had on their wedding day.
From her purse Carly took out an envelope, then unfolded the severely creased paper. She read this letter every time she missed her best friend.
Dear Jason,
You are lucky you called me today. I was about to hire a private eye to track you down. Sonny could have told me he knew you were safe. But he let me freak first.
You picked a hell of a time to leave. I need you now, Jason. I haven't been this alone in years. And Sonny is not the only one who doesn't do alone well.
I can make it on my own, if I have too. You know that better than anyone. But you know that I am no good at ... anything, Jase, when you are not here to keep me sane.
Lainey would hate that I just wrote that. She babbles on about how no man should be your key to sanity. I like that idea. And I am trying to live it.
The club is the new it spot in town. Of course, the masses want to flock and see what the former tramp turned mob moll is now doing.
If you could read this you would say, " Come on, Carly. Like you care what they think."
And you would be right. I don't because I know all the boring common people in this town will always wish they could live one tenth as exciting life as us.
But all that dancing on the edge we did together and apart took a toll, didn't it? It cost us both things we couldn't afford to lose. I won't recount them all now because we both know the score when it comes to that.
So, my boy on the side, how do you like the Southwest? Not too much, I pray. Because you are needed here. I know I lean on you too much but you are my soft place to fall Jason.
The letter ended there when Carly crumpled it up in frustration. With no address to send it to and Jason not into reading any thing beyond the bare facts she knew it was pointless to write it. But, later, when the stress of the day piled up on her she pulled it from the trash can and smoothed it out. Carly still wanted to make it on her own but she never thought that meant without Jason around to help her.
I wish I was traveling on a freeway
beneath this graveyard western sky.
I'm gonna set fire to this city
And out into the desert
we're gonna ride...
Time and time again
Time and time again
Time and time again
I can't please myself
Counting Crows Lyrics