Respect Me Not

Warnings: There still are mistakes in grammar, I think. Also Shounen-ai, which means malexmale love. NOT FOR KAIRI FANS! (or Naminé) Also, there might be some drug using, self-destructive activities and maybe some character deaths… Crossovers from Final Fantasy VII and VIII…

Pairings: SoraxRiku, one-sided SoraxAxel and RikuxKairi, WakkaxTidus, CloudxLeon, AerithxCid and maybe some more…

Disclaimer:writes to the Santa Claus: "Dear Santa, I've been a really good girl. I wish nothing, but one thing: I want to own Kingdom Hearts, because, even after these really long years I still own nothing of it... Thank you."

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I've noticed that this is the part everyone ignores… :waits a while: Hmm… Anyways thank you for all of your nice reviews!

Chapter 25, Go Home

"Okay… now it has been one hour, three minutes and 14 seconds since I last time saw Sora." Riku informed Cloud, and stood up from the couch, "I'm definitely going to look for him now… He has been gone too long…"

Cloud lifted his eyebrow and shook his head wearily, "Okay, fine… Let's go look for him." He replied, as he followed his friend's example and stood up also. He placed the magazine he had been reading on the table and walked to the front door, accompanied by Riku.

"Though I still think he'll be okay…" Cloud mumbled, while pulling his jacket on, "…Probably just went to some of his friend's place… or something."

Riku shook his head and exited the house, "Maybe, or maybe not."

They both started to walk down a street towards the city of Tokyo. Cloud let out a deep sigh, and slumped his shoulders, "You know… it's kinda impossible to find Sora out of the millions of people who live in Tokyo…"

"I know." Riku stated simply, "But I don't care. We'll find him."

"…As confident as ever…" The blonde man rolled his eyes and hugged his arms, as a cold wind hit against his body.

Riku looked at his friend and then up at the sky. The sun was shining in the middle of the sky, though it wasn't warming at all. Typical winter sunshine. Cold yet blinding bright.

"Say, Riku…" Cloud started suddenly, and looked at the silver-haired man, a large grin plastered on his lips, "You remember when you proposed Sora?"

A really faint blush rose to Riku's cheeks. It was one of those rare moments when Riku actually blushed. He nodded his head as a reply, and looked down at the frozen pavement, "Uhh, yeah? What about it?"

"Well… You know that he'd probably say yes if you asked him now…" Cloud said in a carefree way, while examining his fingernails. Then he looked back at Riku, who tried to hide his face behind his silvery locks, "…And… It'd be nice to see you two getting married… since I don't know if I have too much time left."

"No, not again Cloud…" Riku moaned and suddenly grabbed the blonde man's shoulders and started to shake him rather violently, "You're not gonna die!"

Cloud smiled, and looked down. For a while, the two men just stood there, Riku still holding the other one's arms, while the said one kept his eyes at the ground.

"Riku… Thank you."

Aerith rubbed her eyes and groaned. Her head felt like it was going to explode… And she had no clue what had happened yesterday. The last thing she remembered was some cozy bar. Then the rest of it was kind of… lost.

She sat up on a rather comfortable bed, which definitely wasn't hers. She scanned her surroundings, and found herself in a place, which probably was a hotel room. But she couldn't remember booking a hotel room… The brunette woman shook her head and slowly stood up.

She noticed that she was still wearing the same clothes she had yesterday. She sniffed them, and smelled a powerful scent of alcohol and cigarettes in it. She definitely couldn't go home like this… But she had been gone all night, so she had to at least call to her sons and Tidus and make sure everything was okay.

With quick steps Aerith made her way to a small table, where a white old-looking phone was. She picked it up and dialed her home phone's number.

She waited for a while, for someone to answer. But even after few minutes, no one picked the call. She snorted and placed the phone back to its place and sighed. Since it looked like no one was home, she could as well go there now.

She walked out of the door, and found an elevator right in front of her room. She stepped into it, and pushed the first floor- button. The whole hotel looked a little old, but not in a bad way. The wooden floor and reddish furniture made the place look really cozy.

Aerith walked to a counter, where a black-haired man stood, reading today's newspaper.

"Uhh, hi…" The brown-haired woman said awkwardly to the man, who immediately dropped his magazine. He looked at Aerith, and smiled.

"Ahh, Auron brought you here yesterday. Told me that you needed to clear your head up a little…" The man chuckled. His voice was harsh, yet welcoming, "How do ya feel today?"

"Great…" Aerith replied, frowning thoughtfully. The dark-haired man was somehow too kind to be nice… She pulled her wallet from her pocket and opened it, "How much?"

"Whaddaya mean how much?"

The brunette woman rolled her eyes, "I slept here, and from what I've seen this' a hotel… and I don't think it's free to spend a night here, now is it?" Aerith said, maybe a little more nettled than needed, but she wasn't in a good mood right now.

"Ahh, don't worry about it. Auron took care of it… He's a good ol' friend of mine." The black-haired man laughed, while running his hand through his long black locks.

Aerith shrugged and shoved the wallet back into her pocket, "Fine… Thank you." She said, before smiling sweetly, "I guess I should go now. My children are probably worried about me. Though they all are already adults…"

"Haha. I had a kid too. But haven't seen him in a really long while… not since I divorced his mother. He was probably only like half year old…" The man behind the counter said, rather bitterly, "He was a crybaby. Always whining… though it was no wonder, since his mother was the biggest bitch in this whole universe."

Aerith lifted her eyebrow, "I'm sorry to hear that." She said, her voice sincerely concerned. The black-haired man just chuckled, and waved his hand in front of his face, gesturing that it was okay. The brown-haired woman gave a last smile to the man, before she started to head towards the door.

"Feel free to come back anytime, ma'am."

Aerith turned around, amused smile on her lips, "The name is Aerith. Ma'am makes me sound so old." She said, before walking out of the door.

After shopping a while, Sora and Axel found themselves sitting in a small café. The brunette laughed lightly, yet happily to some funny things the other one said.

It was no wonder why women went to shopping when they were stressed… it really works to handle the stress. Sora smiled and looked down at his glass of coke. It would have been even more fun if Riku had been with him…

"So…" Axel started, "How's everything with you and Riku?"

Sora looked at the redhead and smiled, "Awesome. Riku's so sweet… Sometimes too overprotective maybe, but… can't complain I guess." The brown-haired man explained, and giggled a little.

Axel hmph-ed and took a sip of his coffee, "You know…" he said, while putting cup back on the table and folding his arms, "…I really used to like you. Until Kairi came and messed it all up… I'm still kind of ashamed of what I've done. You just resemble someone, who used to be really close to me."

Sora looked at Axel, with a deep frown in his face, "Who? What happened?"

"It's a long story…" the red-haired man stated, and looked out of a large window. His eyes had a longing look, but otherwise his features were emotionless, "I should just… try to move on. Not try to hold on the past."

Sora sighed and looked down. Axel chuckled and gently slapped Sora's head, "C'mon it's nothing serious. Let's be friends, okay? I can promise to try to keep my hands offa you…" a devilish grin came to the redhead's lips.

The brunette rolled his eyes and laughed, "Yeah… But you know, if you wanna talk about it, you know I'm all ears."

Axel shook his head, before giving his typical, a little bit arrogant smile to Sora, "Nah, it's okay. I'd rather not recall those memories. Helps me to forget him eventually… I hope." He said, and finished drinking his coffee.

Sora nodded his head in understanding. He yawned widely and leaned his head on his palms, "I guess I should go back home soon… Riku and Cloud are probably worried…"

"Heh, yeah maybe." Axel replied solemnly, staring intensely at Sora, who was oblivious about the greenish eyes following his each movement.

The brunette quickly drank his coke and stood up. He picked up his shopping bags and smiled at Axel, "You coming too, or you wanna stay here?" he asked. Axel shook his head and stood up too. He placed his hand on Sora's shoulder and squeezed it slightly.

"I'm gonna escort you home. You never know what kind of strangers moves around Tokyo's streets… especially if someone as cute as you is walking alone." Axel winked and started to walk towards the glass doors, which leaded outside, to the snowy Tokyo.

Sora had to run a little, so he could catch up with the redheaded man. Once they were outside, he untied Angelo's leash, which was tied on one of the street lamps, near the café. The Border collie happily greeted Sora with few cheerful barks.

Axel looked at the brunette, who was a head shorter than him. He chuckled and patted Sora's head, "You're pretty short, did you know that… Oh well, I don't think that Riku minds… you look like a perfect uke, if you ask me."

Sora sweatdropped, and smacked back of Axel's head, "Pervert."

"Shorty."

Both of them laughed, and nearly crashed onto two men, who were standing on their way. Axel frowned and looked at Riku and Cloud, both of them were giving him rather suspicious and angry looks. Angelo barked few times and ran to Cloud and jumped against his feet. Axel just rolled his eyes and folded his arms.

"R-Riku? Cloud?" Sora gulped to the looks on the two men faces, and his hold around Angelo's leash tightened, "Uhh… we were just shopping…"

"Sora! We were worried about you, and yet you were hanging out with Axel." Cloud snapped angrily, while still glancing at Axel.

Riku walked to the brunette man and tied his arms around his waist, pulling him close against his side. He sent few dirty glares at the redhead man, before looking at Sora, "Are you okay? Did Axel cause any harm to you?"

Axel snorted, clearly annoyed. Sora looked at him and then at Cloud and Riku, "C'mon, we were just shopping! Nothing else!" he explained, but neither Riku nor Cloud was listening. It looks like they still hadn't forgotten what happened during Sora's eighteenth birthday parties.

"I'm outta here." Axel mumbled, while turning around and walking away.

When only three of them were standing in the middle of a large pavement, Riku pushed Sora away gently. He looked into the other one's eyes and leaned down a little, "Are you sure you're okay? Axel wasn't trying anything? Anything at all…?"

Sora looked away from Riku and pouted hardly, "What do you mean 'tried anything'? We're just friends, okay!" the brunette pushed Riku away, and started to walk forward. Angelo followed him, sniffing the scents in the snow along the way.

Riku glanced at Cloud, who shrugged.

"Well, at least we found him…" Cloud mumbled. Riku nodded his head, a thoughtful frown on his face. The blonde man rolled his eyes and patted the other one's back, "C'mon don't get all jealous. Sora told you they were just friends."

Riku nodded his head slowly, "I know… I just can't help, but feel a little bit paranoid about Axel."

Sora was already way ahead of Cloud and Riku. The blonde looked at his friend and chuckled, "Your overprotective attitude towards Sora is pretty admirable. I wish Leon was like you… Or maybe not."

"Pfft."

"Hahaha."

When the tree men returned to the place where they had left, they found Aerith in the kitchen, in front of the cooker, baking something. Cloud walked to her and sniffed the air and smiled, "Smells delicious, what'cha doing?"

"Baking some gingerbread men. It is Christmas tomorrow after all." Aerith laughed and turned around, to look at Riku and Sora, "Riku's staying here over Christmas, right?"

The silvery-haired man looked at Sora, who nodded in agreement. Then he focused his attention back at Aerith, "Sure, if it's okay with you. Don't have much any other plans either."

"Why, of course it's okay!" The brunette woman chuckled, and looked at Cloud, a wide smile spreading to her features, "And you'll ask your boyfriend Leon come too, yeah?"

Cloud blushed from head to toes, "Mom! Leon is not my boyfriend!" he cried and turned his back on everyone else in the kitchen, so they wouldn't see his glowing red face. Aerith couldn't do anything but laugh, and pat her son's soulder.

"You still try to deny it? I saw you just three or four days ago lying on our sofa, making out rather passionately." Aerith giggled and poked the back of Cloud's head.

Sora and Riku exchanged glares. Everyone knew that Cloud and Leon were in love. They both were just too bone-headed to admit it out loud… yet still, if you left them alone in a same room, the next thing you could find them doing was making out…

"Mooooom! Leave me alone!" Cloud snorted, and turned around, "Okay, fine, I'll invite Leon, you happy now? But that still doesn't mean that we-…"

"Oh shut up." The brown-haired woman said. She laughed a while, before she froze completely. The other ones frowned at her, as she looked down and sighed, "Is Tidus home?"

Sora looked at the living room, which was behind his back, "I don't think he is…" he replied, after glancing around, "Why?"

Aerith sighed again and shook her head, "Cid's coming here tomorrow too. And… I don't know how Tidus will react… He haven't seen his father in two months, so…"

"Why's that asshole coming here!" Cloud asked, while folding his arms and frowning angrily, "After everything he has done, you still love him? I mean honestly…"

"Of course I do." The brunette snorted.

Sora looked at Riku, who didn't seem to understand the situation. It was probably because he had never before met Cid… He looked at his mother and asked, "Does he know that I'm with Riku and Cloud's with Leon?"

Aerith slumped her shoulders, before shaking her head weakly.

"But what he'll say when he'll find out?" Sora asked. But the only reply he gained, was a shrug from Aerith. He let out a loud sigh, "You do understand that you're on a edge of ruining your relationship with him?"

Riku looked at Aerith, who bowed her head downer, then at Sora, who pouted sadly, "Umm… Hey, guys? What's up with Cid?"

"He doesn't like a man loving another man too much." Aerith replied, "But you don't need to worry about that. He… would find it out anyways. And I'm not blaming you for anything."

After that, Aerith turned around to examine the gingerbreads in the oven.

"I'm sorry mom." Sora sighed and looked down. Riku frowned sadly and took Sora's hand into his. The brunette man smiled wearily, while looking up at his boyfriend. It was… unfair that the world couldn't accept them. There were just way too many people, who couldn't understand their love.

"Sora…" Aerith said, never looking at her sons or Riku, "…Just… don't try to pretend anything when Cid comes here, okay? If he can't stand me after knowing that my sons are gay, then I just have to move on and find a new man."

Cloud kneeled down next to Aerith and placed his hand on her shoulder, "…But you were going to get married this spring too…"

"How could I marry someone who can't accept my sons?" she replied, her voice was filled with agony and sadness, but yet it was confident and firm, "And one more thing. When Tidus comes home, don't tell him that Cid's coming here tomorrow."

Everyone nodded, and at that very moment the front door opened, and Tidus walked in. His face was pale, and he looked like a walking corpse. Aerith looked over her shoulder, and gasped, "Tidus? What happened?"

But the blonde just walked past them, to the upstairs, and slammed his room's door close.

Sora looked at the other ones, before freeing his hand from Riku's, "I'm gonna go talk to him…" he mumbled, and ran after Tidus.

Riku stared after him, wanting to say something, but couldn't find the right words. He knew that Sora and Tidus were just friends… but he still couldn't help the sting of jealously in his heart. No matter how hard he tried to smother the painful emotion, he couldn't make it go away.

Somehow, Cloud seemed to see his suffering and chuckled, "My god, Riku… They're just friends."

Aerith, who was currently standing up slowly, looked at Riku and Cloud, "What?" she asked, and glanced Cloud quizzically, "Did I miss something?"

"Nothing important." Riku mumbled and walked to the living room, quietly murmuring something about paranoid bimbo blondes.

Cloud grinned widely, "It's so funny how jealous some people can get…"

"Tidus?" Sora asked, as he opened Tidus' room door quietly. The room was pitch black, since the lights weren't on and the curtains were closed tightly. The brunette man frowned, as he stepped in and pushed the door close behind his back, "Tidus, you here?"

Sora ran his hand on the wall next to the door. Soon he found the light switch and he clicked it. The room was filled with light, and now Sora could see his friend lying on the floor, clutching a knife against his chest. The brunette's eyes widened and he ran to Tidus and kneeled down.

The blonde man's eyes were half-lidded, and he mumbled something that Sora couldn't understand, "Tidus!"

Tidus looked at Sora. He sat up and dropped the knife on the floor.

"What do you think you're doing?" Sora cried, as he grabbed Tidus' hands and examined them. Luckily, the blonde hadn't yet done anything to them. Sora let out a relieved sigh, and tied his arms around the other one's neck, "Thank god… You really freaked me out…"

"…Sora?" Tidus said, like he would have just snapped out of some kind of trance. He frowned, as he found Sora's arms rather tightly around his neck. Of course he had been aware of what he was about to do, but somehow he hadn't noticed Sora entering the room. He gently pushed his friend away, "W-what are you doing here? Why you didn't knock or anything!"

Sora's eyes filled with tears, "You are so stupid! I was worried, so I came!"

"…There's no need to… worry…" Tidus mumbled, as he felt like crying too. He bit his lip, as he leaned towards Sora, and leaned his head on the other one's chest, "I'm so sorry…"

"Tidus, what happened?"

The blonde man closed his eyes and inhaled a deep breath. The scent of Sora's shirt was pretty much like Selphie's. Not the real scent itself, but the way they could calm down. It felt like there actually was someone who cared about you.

"T-Tidus?" Sora yelped, as he fell backwards, his head hitting the floor pretty painfully, while Tidus collapsed on top of him. The brown-haired man groaned under the other one's weight, as he tried to push him away, "T-Tidus what d-do you think you're d-doing?"

"You smell sooooo good Sora…" Tidus mumbled, as he nuzzled his nose on Sora's stomach.

"Tidus! Snap out of it!" The brunette cried, as Tidus started to gently rub his sides. He tried to fight himself free from the blonde's grasp, but couldn't. This wasn't Tidus… something clearly was wrong with him, "Tidus, let me go!"

Tidus suddenly stopped all of his movements. Slowly he get off of Sora, and held his head, "I'm sorry Sora…" he mumbled a faint apology, "…I… I don't know what's gotten into me…"

The younger man gulped and sat up, "It's okay…"

"Oh my god…" Tidus mumbled and looked down at his hands, "I… I don't understand this at all… What have I ever done wrong? Am I not good enough? Is there something wrong with me…?"

Sora frowned and looked at his friend, concern in his sky blue eyes, "What on earth are you talking about! You know that that's so not true!"

"Then why…"

"Then why what?"

Tidus inhaled a deep breath and then shook his head. Sora lifted his eyebrow and reached out his hand to touch his friend, but the blonde slapped his hand away, "Don't… I don't want that thing happen again… You're with Riku and I'm…" tears came to Tidus' eyes and he closed them.

"Something happened between you and Wakka?" Sora asked with a naïve voice.

"It's nothing you should worry about…" The other one replied, while standing up slowly. He looked at his friend, a faint smile plastered on his lips, "If you don't mind… I'd like to be alone for a while…" he said, and Sora could see that he was in the edge of crying.

"But…"

"Don't worry. I won't try to hurt myself… I promise." Tidus said, like he would have read Sora's thoughts. He picked up the knife from the floor and handed it over to the brown-haired man, before nodding his head towards the door, gesturing Sora to leave.

"Ah… I… Okay…" Sora mumbled, and stood up. With rather quick leaps, he walked to the door, and opened it. But before exiting the room, he looked over his shoulder and gave Tidus a caring smile, "You know that if you ever wanna talk to someone, I'm there for you… I'll be all ears if you have something to say."

"I know."

When the door closed, and Tidus was sure that Sora was already walking down the stairs, he fell back on the floor and cried.

Axel stood silently next to a small tombstone. He let out a heavy sigh, as the wind blew hardly across the graveyard. Besides that, everything was quiet and peaceful.

"I'm such an idiot…" Axel said to the stone, while kneeling down and placing a single white rose on the frozen ground, right in front of the tombstone, "I just can't believe you're gone. I still try to find people who remind me of you… I know it's foolish, but I can't help it."

The red headed man touched the cold stone with his fingertips, "I don't know what to do anymore. I'm so lost without you. How could you leave me behind?" he mumbled, as his vision started to get oddly fuzzy, "You told me to move on, but how do you think I could do that, since you keep haunting me all the time?"

Axel stood up and straightened his back. It had been so long since he last time had been here. But it still hadn't help him get rid of all the memories, which kept him coming back to his mind every time he closed his eyes and into his dreams.

"Go home already… Roxas."

CC: Omg… chapter 25 already. I think I deserve a cookie. I'm trying to update pretty fast so I can end this story… though I think there will be +30 chapters… Not sure yet though. And I don't know if I'll make a sequel, it depends on what kind of ending I'm going to type. If it looks like this story needs a sequel, then there will be a sequel.

Sora: Yay!

CC: …?

Sora: Dunno. Felt like I had to say something… o.o

CC: I see… Well, ANYways, review? Oh yeah, and thanks to one of my reviewers (sorry, I really can't remember your penname), who told me that Axel's just molesting Sora, because he looks so much like Roxas. Hope you don't mind me using your idea. xD