Aight folks, just got back from a day filled of mall and movies. Daddy daughter day anyway. If you haven't seen Day after tomorrow, see it it's an awesome movie! Also, if you have children, or are one, see Garfield, it's really cute. Anyway, back to what you are here for. I own Shane, my best friend, and some hot sauce from taco bell that asks too many questions. Because you love me belongs to Celine Dion.
For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all
"LIZZIE!!!!! WAKE UP! We have a wedding to plan!" Miranda yelled into my ear.
"Randa, you just got engaged last night." I said annoyed sitting up. "Why on earth should we start planning now?"
"Because, I need to get my wedding on the road so everyone can witness yours and Gordos in August or July or whatever." Miranda said mischeviously.
"What are you talking about. August is only 3 months away, and besides our anniversary isn't until January."
"I know, but you know you want a summer or fall wedding, it's all you ever talked about, and your our excuse to get married before I start showing."
"Start showing what?" I said not quite getting the picture.
"Lizzie, are you even awake, or have you always been that dense? Anyway, before I start showing the baby Larry and I are expecting."
"OH MY GOD! When did you find out?"
"Just this morning, but nothings official until I go to the doctor tomorrow. It's a nice thought to have though."
"Yeah, I can't wait until Gordo and I are expecting."
"Expecting what?" Gordo asked stepping into the room.
"A package Gordo. Stupid, a baby."
"Do you really think that is something we should be having now Liz? What with you starting you new job Wednesday, and me in film school?"
"Yeah, your right. It's still a nice thought though. Gordo, what do you think about a fall wedding?"
"I think that if it's what you want," Gordo said sitting down and pulling me in his lap, "Thats what you will have. Any certain date I should be keeping open?" He asked kissing my ear.
"Okay getting too intimate for me, Liz be ready to go ASAP I have us scheduled for a dress fitting in 2 hours. So don't make her late Gordo!"
"Oh be quiet Miranda." I said to the closed door. "We put up with yours and Larry's pornos on the couch."
"Anyway," I said twisting myself around so I was facing him and we were lying on th bed. "How does October 12 sound?"
"It's a date. As long as your the one standing at the end of the aisle in a white dress."
"I love you." I told him kissing his ear.
"Liz, your driving me crazy!" He whispered huskly into my ear flipping us over so he was on top.
"I love you too." He replied pulling my shirt off.
(I'm a tease!)
"Lizzie finally! We're going to be 30 minutes late!" Miranda yelled when I walked out of my room ready to go.
"Sorry Randa, but you can't stop nature."
"Nature, more like sex crazed bunnies in heat."
"So, whens the big day? You never said when, while you were beating me awake." I asked Miranda while she was picking up her hunderedth gown.
"Um, July 24, it's back home on a quiet cliff overlooking the beach with a reception to follow at Larrys parents house that my dear, talented, beautiful, Matrion of Honor, and lifetime best friend is in charge of decorating, and keeping a budget on."
"Are you sure you want Gordo decorating your wedding, because I know your not talking about me since thats only a month and a half away. I mean at least Larry and I had been planning your birthday party for 3 months and that was still alot to do in that short of time."
"Lizzie, your good at what you do and you've been offered a wonderful job to do it full time. I know you can do this. The important thing is that you know you can do it."
"I hope your right, because I'll be planning my own at the same time. Are you sure that your mom and Larrys mom doesn't want to help in this at all?"
"Yes, they said if we wanted this wedding so soon then we were on our own. And since I don't want this wedding to have a Star Track theme, I'm on my own. That's why I need your help. So please don't say that you won't."
"Well, I need the practice. So register with Anje and say we already worked out a payment, you just need my time."
"Lizzie, your such a great friend! I love you so much!"
"No problem Randa."
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
These past few weeks were a major whirlwind after whirlwind. Between dress fittings, Mirandas cravings, floral arrangements, secureing the location thanks to my mom, caterers, music choices, the rehearsal which I finally gave up on and let Gordo and Larry handle, rings, wedding cake choices, first bride and groom dance, daddy-daughter dance, mother-son dance, getting Larry to select grooms men, the overly long guest lists, and keeping Miranda sane while I'm already insane.
The only upside was that I was getting alot done for my own wedding while planning Mirandas. No wonder this job pays so much. You need a phsyciatrist when it's all over with.
I know that Miranda loves me for helping her with her wedding, but I didn't know how much I could take. She still didn't know how far along she was, but my god she was horrible to be around. she was like a water faucet. Hot and cold all at once. You could be talking to her and she'd be as nice as could be, then she'd yell at you, then she'd cry for no reason at all.
I was sleep deprived from staying up late doing seating arrangements and planning out the timeing. When I did get some sleep, I dreamed about the floral arrangements and bridal bouquet.
I was miserable and really missed being able to talk to Gordo. He was going to school full time and doing extra hours so he could be able to attend Randas wedding and the ours and the honeymoon he was keeping a major secret. When he came in after me he wasn't in the mood to do anything but sleep, and when I came home after he did I wasn't in the mood for anything. I really needed a break and so did Gordo.
"LIZZIE! I've gained weight! I'm never going to be able to fit into my dress at this rate!" Miranda yelled through the house trying to find me.
'not again' I thought.
"Miranda, it'll be fine, your pregnant and housing a healthy baby. Remember that when you go to your appointment today."
"I'll try, I really wish you'd go with me though."
"Randa, as much as I love you I can't. I need a break from weddings, and today is Gordos only day off in a long time. You have our cell numbers for an emergency, and I know that you'll be fine. You just have to believe in yourself, and if not you, then me. Alright."
"Okay" she weakly replied when she realized that she wasn't going to get her way.
"Now, we'll see you tonight, and Larry will be here when you get back."
"Alright." She said with a smile. "I'll see you guys tonight!" Then she walked out of the door.
Okay, now it was time to let Gordo know about our day.
"Gordy? Gordy... Are you up yet? Can Gordy come out to play?" I playfully whispered shutting our bedroom door behind me and tiptoeing to the bed.
"I don't know, can Lizzie come out and play?" He whispered back.
"Yes she can, depending on the playmate."
"Is she playing with Miranda again today?" He fake pouted.
"Nope, Miranda had to go to the doctor, and Lizzie called it quits for the day."
"So that means she can play with Gordo?" He happily whispered
"If Gordy can play with her."
"I think Gordo can arrange for her to play with him. He doesn't know no Gordy."
"Oh hush." I said.
"So you really told Miranda that it was me and you today."
"Yes, and I told her not to call unless it was an emergency."
"Bad idea Liz."
"Why do you say that?"
"Because, the last time you said that, she called because there wasn't any tamales left when we were just in our room with the door locked."
"Gordo, shes pregnant."
"No, shes lost her mind."
"Gordo that isn't very nice. Is that how your going to be when I'm pregnant?"
"No, cause when your pregnant, I'm never going to leave your side. When you go to work, I'll be there. When you go to the bathroom, I'll be there. When you go to bed, I'll be there. When your resting, I'll be there. And if I'm still in school, you'll be attending my classes with me."
"Funny, very funny. How about you get ready for a shower and I'll join you. Then we'll go out and just be Lizzie and David Gordon out having fun?"
"Sounds like a plan to me."
"Good."
You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you
Somehow, we couldn't escape the wedding universe. While we were window shopping, we noticed some gifts that we wanted to register for, and thats how the afternoon went. Although, it was good to dream about all the things we could decorate our home with. After getting our fill of gift registeries we decided to have a late lunch.
"So, you gonna get pregnant before our wedding?" Gordo asked trying to be serious.
"Not if these pills keep working. Besides, quit making fun of Miranda, or I'll make you spend an afternoon with. Just like old times."
"I wasn't making fun of her Liz, I was just wanting to know that way I could register for baby things."
"Are you trying to tell me someting Gordo?"
"Yeah, I know our lives are full and hectic right now, but whenever you feel the time is right, I'd be open to having a baby. I mean look how happy Randa and Larry are when shes not balling her eyes out, or eating his head off."
"Your right, and as much love as I know we could give a baby, nows not the time for it. What with my job and you being in film school, it wouldn't be fair for any of us. The baby wouldn't get the love and attention he/she would deserve, and neither one of us are in a position to quit or even take time off for the sacrifice it takes."
"Your right, but when things aren't as crazy, we'll continue this conversation."
"You can count on it."
"Good. Have you picked a place for the wedding?"
"I have some ideas, but you get to put your input in. Since we decided on a fall wedding, I want it to be somewhere outside where you can see all the beauty of the leaves turning colors and some on the ground to form the walkway. I even want the flower girl to be throwing down some colorful leaves instead of flower petals, and if not throwing down the leaves of flower petal, then a bouquet of sticks with pretty leaves."
"You have a gift to make the best out of every situation don't you?"
"I don't really think so."
"Your so optimistic"
"Only because I have you."
"I love you so much Liz."
"I love you very much too Gordo." I replied kissing him.
We had really come a long way since we had gotten married. From realizing how we felt to discussing the possibility of children in our future. I made a bunch of do or die decisions to get here, and I'm greatful for each and every thing that had happened to get us here.
After lunch we went for a walk arm in arm through the park.
"New York sure is alot different than home." I said breaking the silence
"Yeah, but I like it just as much." Gordo said smiling at the new parents pushing their tiny new born down the path.
"I do too, but I wouldn't want to raise our children here."
"Me neither really."
"Where would you want it to be?"
"Not home, but something just like it."
"Why not home?"
"I don't know really."
"I guess it would be nice, but I really don't know why."
"We had alot of good times there, I bet our child would too."
"Liz," Gordo said sitting us both down on a bench. "Do you want to move back home when I get done with film school?"
"I don't know, but its an option that we can discuss when the time gets closer than 3 years away. Right now, all I want to discuss is how I'm so glad that we are married and that you are the one I will spend the rest of my life with, and how I can't stop thinking about us spending the rest of this day cuddling and watching home movies that you've filmed, and the ones of us when we were little."
"Sounds like a plan to me." Gordo said walking in the direction of home.
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
"Aww, look at baby Gordo." I said cuddled up on the couch with him in the dark living room watching our home movies.
"Look at baby Lizzie kissing baby Gordo."
"Yeah, I guess I knew we were supposed to be together even then."
"Then why did it take so long for it to happen?"
"I don't really know," I said rolling over to face him. "I guess I was just scared."
"Are you still scared now?"
"No, now I don't even know what I was scared of. Now all I'm scared of is losing you."
"Liz, the only thing that will separate us is death, and even then I'll still be with you."
"I hope the rest of the world feels like we do just once in their lives. I can't imagine living life without being this happy or even not knowing what it feels like to be loved completely and fully by another person that can't see the bad, but only the good."
"Lizzie, there isn't anything bad about you to overlook. Your perfect. Your my perfect, and I won't ever let you go. Your stuck with me."
"Is that a bad thing?"
"Only if you want it to be."
"I don't." I said kissing him.
You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you
Apparently we had fallen asleep n the couch, because we were woke up by Larry in a panic.
"Lizzie! Have you heard from Miranda?"
"No, when we came home we thought you must have taken her out." I said now fully awake.
"No, I was running late again. I knew I should have left at lunch."
"Calm down Lar, shes probably just shopping for the wedding or the baby."
"You don't think that I hadn't thought of that? I've tried calling her, she won't answer."
"She's probably just mad at you. Let me try." I said walking into my room so Gordo could calm Larry down.
'Come on Randa, answer the ringing object.'
"Alright, the odds of her being mad at me too isn't good. I knew I should have went with her this morning."
"No Lizzie, it isn't your place to be doing all of those things with her. I was too wrapped up in being apreciated at the things I can do to help her and let you take my role in this. I'm sorry about that. But can you please just help me find her?"
"Let us get our coats." I said
"No Liz, I'm going to stay here if she comes home." Gordo said sitting up.
"Alright, Larry, let's go."
We had been driving for hours. Gordo called to see if we found her and promised he'd call if she came home. I was really beginning to get worried. Why would Miranda disappear? Sure she was moody, but she never just wanted to run away. Then Gordo called again.
"Liz, Dr. Lein called, she said Miranda never made it to her appointment."
"What, she was way to excited to just not go. She wanted to get an affirmation on how far along she was, and hear the baby's heart-beat if she was far enough to."
"I'll call you if I hear more. I love you Liz. Call me if you find out anything else."
"I will, I love you Gordo."
"Miranda didn't make it to her appointment. Theres no way she'd miss it, mad at me or not she wouldn't have missed it."
"I know Lar, I know. You want me to drive now?"
"Yeah, I don't think I need to be anymore." Larry said pulling over.
I looked around as I got out to walk over to the drivers side.
"Lar, isn't that Mirandas car over there in that impound lot?"
"I think your right." he said looking out the window. "Let me turn off the car and lock the doors."
"Excuse me sir, What happened to that car over there?" I asked getting worried when I realized Mirandas car was real smashed up.
"Oh, that one, there was a wreck this morning and the driver wound up in the hospital. The sad thing is, the couldn't find any contact information for her family, she was unconcious at the scene. Real pretty girl." The hefty mechanic explained.
"OH MY GOD. Theres no doubt thats Mirandas car." Larry said freaking out.
"So you two know her huh."
"Yeah, she's my best friend and his fiance. Their supposed to be getting married in three weeks. Do you know where they took her?" I said getted scared.
"Yeah, Mid Midland General Hospital."
"Thanks!" I yelled pulling Larry to the car, and getting in.
"Lar call Gordo and tell him where we're going and to meet us there."
"I will. Just let her be okay."
Since Gordo and I weren't considered family, we had to stay out in the waiting room. I had called Mirandas parents and they were on a red eye flight to get here as fast as they could. I just wished I could see Miranda and confirm for myself if she was going to be okay or not.
"Gordo, I'm so worried about her."
"I am too Liz." He said putting an arm around me. "I hate to say this, but I'm glad that you weren't with her this morning. I don't know what I'd do if you were laying in that bed. I can't even imagine how Larry feels."
"Me neither, but I do wish it were me instead of her."
"I don't wish it were you, I wouldn't wish that on anyone."
"GORDO, LIZZIE! Wheres my baby?" Mrs. Sanchez said running into the waiting room.
"They wouldn't tell us, because we weren't family." I said giving her a big hug.
"Mi espousa, she is this way." Mr. Sanchez called out to her.
"Come on you two." Mrs. Sanchez said pulling us along behind her husband.
"Excuse me Mrs. They can't go in there, family only." A nurse said stopping her.
"They are family, can't you see that this is her sister and brother?" Mr. Sanchez said pushing us into her room.
"Whatever." The nurse replied annoyed.
It was horrible to see Miranda hooked up to all those machines. Larry was sitting next to her with tears falling down his face. He obviously blamed himself.
"She lost the baby." He said his voice a horse whisper.
"Oh Lar." I said hugging him.
"What baby?" The Sanchezes asked confused.
"We were going to call you and tell you about it tonight when we found out for far along she was and the estimated due date." He said looking at Mirandas face. "I've lost a child I'll never get to know, I can't lose her too. No doctor has been by to talk to me yet."
"You won't lose me Lar." Miranda whispered.
"Randa? Your awake! Liz, get a nurse." Larry said.
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
We got kicked back into the waiting room and only Mirandas parents could stay in there while the doctor was examining her vitals. I didn't know wat to say. Gordo and I decided that once we could see Miranda again, we'd go home.
Mrs. Sanchez came out and told us we could come back. Miranda looked alot better this time. She had her bed sitting up a little bit, and most of the tubes had been removed.
"Liz, you better not be slacking off on my wedding plans while I'm stuck here." She joked.
"Randa, I'm sorry I didn't go with you this morning." I said hugging her.
"I'm glad you didn't. I don't think we'd get anything accomplished with us both vacationing in the hospital."
"Yeah, your probably right." I joked back.
We spent an hour with Miranda then said our goodbyes and headed home. The doctor said if she kept improving the way she was, she'd be home by the end of the week. He also said that the wedding could still happen as long as Miranda didn't get alot of the stress on her. I didn't care about any of that. I was just glad that she was still alive, and able to joke about it.
I hope this will do you for a bit. I'm am going to go to sleep now, because when you think your seeing rats everywhere when there isn't any means you need some sleep or your on some real good dope, and since I don't do that shtuff, I know I ish schleepy.