I seem to lose the power of speech,
She ran through the forbidden forest, ignoring the bleeding scratches from the trees, ignoring the sour smell of death that seemed to be following her. She had to get out she had to run away. After all he taught her, after all she promised. It wasn't her that killed him, no, it was Voldemort. He was inside her, he forced her. But she held the wand, she spoke those words. And she ran..
She knew Severus would find her, she knew she couldn't fool him. She scrambled over a dead log and through the clearing. Voldemort had put a portkey within the clearing, she looked around for it and found it slightly tucked back behind a bush. She ran to it but someone stepped into her way. She looked up to see the murderous stare of Snape.
"Severus you…." She stumbled backwards over the log and began to crawl away all the while mumbling her apologies. " It- it wasn't my choice, I tried to fight it Severus I tried!" She turned to see him still standing in his spot, never having moved an inch. "Severus, He was inside me. I could feel him… moving around. You have to understa-"
"What I understand is, " He took one step toward her and stopped. " You murdered a man who took you in, who clothed you, who treated you as if you were his own blood. " She began to cry at his words, drawing her legs up to her chin and sobbing into her robes. " All I ask is that you leave me, you leave me to do my mission by myself." She looked up at him drying her eyes slightly.
" He was in you once, don't you remember!" He turned back around and began to walk away. She stood shakily to her feet and shook her head. She wasn't about to let him walk all over her, without giving her a chance to explain herself. She knew she would make him listen even if it meant bringing up the very distant past. " HE MADE YOU KILLED INNOCENT PEOPLE! ALL THOSE MUGGLES DEAD BECAUSE OF YOU! AND YOU TRY TO BLAME ME WHEN YOU KNOW!" she was screaming at the top of her lungs now she didn't care who heard her. It was time to make him see, make him feel what she had been holding in her all those days. She looked at him breathing heavily and trying not to back down.
" DO NOT RAISE YOUR VOICE TO ME!" He ran to her and wrapped his hand around her throat. He was going to strangle her, not only for what she had said but for what she had made him feel. Emotions that he knew to be dead to him. " WHAT I DID HAS NO CONSIQUENCE TO WHAT YOU HAVE DONE NOW. THOSE PEOPLE…" He choked on the last words and pushed her to the ground, leaving her to cough and stutter shocked protests. He tried to push away the images of begging muggles, the muggles that he was told to slaughter. He remembered going home afterward feeling drained, feeling absent from his own mind. All there was, was a voice telling him he had done good. What he did was just and true. " I have torn away at my soul for those people long enough. Yes I know how it feels. To be distant in your own body, to have no control over how you feel, what you do. But why on earth, would you leave your wand at the scene?"
He threw it at her feet and looked at her drained and pale face, it was cruel. It was cruel to make such a person do something so evil that it would tear him in two to bear another moment. She stared at it, it was taunting her, laughing at her. " He wants his wand…" she said quietly pulling Dumbledores wand from her robes. "He wants it and I don't know what for. He wouldn't tell me anything." She began to cry again but this time she walked up to Snape. "You take it, you bring it to him. I can no longer bear to see the path I chose." Snape took the wand without a word and looked at her.
"Hide." He said after a moment. "Go back to my chambers and hide. I will deal with him."
"No… no Severus. I have to keep to my end of the deal."
"There's more? She looked to him and smiled weakly. She wrapped her arms around him and hugged him, not bothering to care that he wasn't returning it. She pulled away and looked him in the eyes.
"I made a vow to myself, that if I wasn't to die at the Dark Lords hand. It would be at yours." He gaped at her. After all she had done, after all Voldemort had made her do, she put the burden on him to decide whether or not she lived. " Severus I cannot ignore the path I have chosen, but I do know where I can make it stop. All I am asking is that you help me." She sat on the log and waited to hear his response, when none came she continued. "You do it tomorrow, you kill him tomorrow. After what I did, it is only right that…"
"You are going to kill him." He declared. "After what he made you do, you are going to go to him with Dumbledores wand, and kill him."