Chapter 3
It had been five hours. Five hours since she first started crying. Yes, Kagome was finally beginning to realize that her family was gone that they were never coming back. That she would never see them again. She'd never be able to give them hugs or cry on their shoulders.
I miss them so much. She thought to herself. She looked out her window, seeing the sunshine beating in, suddenly, she felt very angry.
Why is the sun shinning when I feel so miserable? She got up and furiously shut the curtains, allowing herself to sit in mostly darkness.
She laid down on her bed, no longer sobbing, but thinking.
Why do I live? Why couldn't I have died with my family? She laid down on her stomach and put her face into the pillow so that she could barely breathe.
It would be a lot easier just to end it all. She thought. Why should I have to feel this pain. Why shouldn't I just die? I have no family. Who do I have to look out for me? She closed her eyes and sunk her face deeper into the pillow.
I have InuYasha to look out for me. And Sango. And Miroku. Even Shippou and Kaede. They would all look out for me. They all love me like family. She lifted her face out of the pillow and laid on her back. But should I burden them with that. All InuYasha does is save my ass. He doesn't need me. Kikyo could help him look for jewel shards probably better than I can. And she's so much stronger than me. Sango needed me for a time, but she's got new friends now. She doesn't need me either. All Miroku really needs is Sango even if he doesn't realize it yet. And Shipou, he has a whole new family to look after him, he doesn't need me either. Tears started to form in her eyes again, but she held them back.
"No, I will not feel like this!" She got off her bed and sat on her floor in a meditative position.
"Kaede said that meditation helps to clear the mind, that it can help a person to think clearer by sorting through their emotion." She began breathing deeply, becoming more relaxed and letting go of reality. I just don't want to feel right now. She let go of every bit of emotion she could. Every thread of anger, every wall of guilt, every pound of grief. Finally satisfied, she returned to an awakened state, feeling physically numb to her emotion.
I don't have to deal with it now. She laid down on her bed and fell asleep.
AN I understand there must be a bunch of questions right now. I assure you they will be answered as the story progresses. Please review. Constructive criticism is welcomed.
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