This Fallen World
"Let this pain... let this pain go..." Relena sighed, "There is nothing left so just let me go..."
She stared up at the night sky, looking for stars. Instead, the cheeky moon caught her eye. It seemed to laugh at her. At her mistakes, and at her worries. It reminded her of That Girl.
That Girl seemed happy. She probably didn't have a care in the world. Mentally, she was a child. Unlike Relena, who was old with secrets and maturity. That girl who had caused her so much emotional suffering! She was happy. She was a cold and... and evil person! She only lived to ruin lives and break hearts.
It was her fault Relena was so... lost.
"I hope you're happy with That Girl, Hiiro..." she murmured.
Oh, what was her name? That Girl... with her despicable charms and alluring quirks. She made you feel as if you were the most popular person in the world. As if there was no way you could be happier. But really, she was the popular one. One meeting and you were hooked. Like a drug. Her smile was full of lies and deception. Her eyes were two bleeding sapphires that seered into your mind.
She was... she was also very beautiful.
Relena tore her gaze away from the moon and focused on her hands. That Girl... her hands were as soft as the skin on a peach. Relena smirked, That Girl bit her nails. A disgusting habit that led to ugly cuticles.
Sighing, Relena turned away from the sky and headed back into her bedroom. Grabbing her brush she pulled the small braids the wrapped around her head out and stroked the long wheat-blonde strands. Relena paused, That Girl's hair was much longer. Almost touched the floor. She would pull it up into pig-tails - like a little girl would.
Relena set her brush down and changed into her pajamas. She lifted her shirt up to show her white stomach in the mirror. Pinching some of the 'fat' she cringed. That Girl was so small and skinny. Relena, she wasn't fat at all either! She wasn't! She just had a lot of baby fat left!
'Baby fat? You're 21 you sap!' she argued, getting into bed and reaching for the lamp.
She yearned to be more like That Girl. Was it out of jealousy or spite that at the same time she wanted to make That Girl feel the pain she felt because she, Relena, wasn't as perfect as...
...as Usagi?
"Usagi..." she muttered. The name rolling off her tongue like a venomous poison. Relena lay in bed, pondering what had happened the past year. It was almost Christmas. Peace wove in and out of the months since Mariemaia's reign. Hiiro still stuck around in the shadows. She had took that as a sign that he at least cared for her. But no, he didn't.
How come Hiiro loved Usagi, and not her? She was so sure... that he did. But that was before Usagi came along. Before she dashed Relena's dreams of Hiiro verbally expressing his feelings for her.
Relena used to love Usagi too. Usagi could make Relena laugh and smile as if they lived in a land of happy, prancing ponies and flowers and... and never-ending sunshine. She had been so... naïve.
Relena stared up at the canopy. She glared at the hideous shade of pink. She hated pink. But only because Usagi loved it.
How come Usagi could make everyone love her? She sneered at the thin cloth hanging over the cherry wood. Relena almost laughed out loud at a single thought. Duo loved Usagi too. He had loved her so much and she ripped his heart out too. Just like Relena's. She had laughed when he bought her flowers. She made him weak, made him cry.
In the morning, the maids would come and rip up the pink satin sheets and pink bedcover. They would be replaced with cold, gray colors. Pink was too feeling. Too happy and welcoming. Gray suited her much better. At least, it did now.
Usagi was mean. She hurt people. People like Relena. Those who were unsuspecting. Relena shut her eyes tight, blocking out the images of Usagi's eerie smile. So bright and beautiful it scared her.
Sleep conquered her body and she dreamt of life the way she used to think it would be. Before her world had fallen. Before That Girl, Usagi.
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Notes:
I don't own Gundamwing or Sailormoon.
I - as well as many others - have noticed the growing hatred towards Relena. Why is that? I mean, why do you hate her so much? Is she really so evil and terrible that you must display her as Usagi's rival? That you must make her an obssesive stalker? I know, she stole your Hiiro from you, right? I suppose we should consider the fact that Hiiro does not really exist and that no matter how much you think you love him, your relationship will only be real in your dreams.
Here I show you, that while you're pairing Hiiro and Usagi - or any other senshi - she suffers. And yet you still make her evil and a person easy to hate. I used to hate her too, you know. It was today I realized that it is unfair to rip her true love from her grasp and throw it into someone elses. Sure this is fanfiction, but the true genius in writing is making it realistic and truer to it's original state.
Okay, I'm a hypocrite, I know! I almost always pair Usagi with Hiiro and leave Relena out in the rain. But its better to at least acknowledge the latter and not keep making her the evil villain out to kill Usagi. Unless she's been possessed, of course.
This one's dedicated to Relena Darlian, because she is a true figure of grace and beauty, someone who is smart and does in-fact love Hiiro so much that she would do anything to keep him alive and breathing.
Also, I would love to hear your opinions on this! Really, I love getting reviews that are constructive - and the occasional flame! What do you think of Relena? I hope that most of you agree with me though. And no, I don't think I'll make any more chapters of this. Its just a little one-time thing that I thought I'd let out of my system before continuing my other works.