I had the urged to write tonight, so for the last three hours I typed away. A lot of this story will be based on events from my life. Silly I know but there are motives behind this I assure you. I'm just to tried right now to explain, after all it is 3:20 am right now hehe. Anyways please review and let me know what you think of this story!

There's a lot more to write about so want more then let me know!

I don't own Inuyasha blahblah

Spiral stricken lives

Where do I begin? I guess the start would be a good place. But thinking back to where everything started, everything seems, so, surreal. It seems like everything happened just yesterday and even though this chapter in my life should be closed, something from the past always finds a way to raise its ugly head.

What am I talking about? Or rather whom am I talking about. Sesshoumaru Taisho. The name that strikes fear into so many hearts, envy in others and lust in any female that has a set of eyes. What does this name mean to me? Well, I don't think I could ever narrow it down to just one thing. How some times I wish I could just forget that name all together.

So many mixed feelings arise within me just at the mere thought of him. Love, anger, passion, fear, lust and even dare I say hate. He has been part of my life since I was 12, from the moment we met there was a connection of some sort between us, an understanding if you will.

He is what I would consider my best friend, someone I can turn too when I have a problem, well unless my problem is him. How do you tell your best friend that you are head over heels for them? Its simple, you don't. Unless you want to end up where I am now, which leads me to the start of this whole mess… where it all began 9 years ago.

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"Kagome, KAGOME, wake up darling! We have far to much to do today for you to lie in bed any longer!" Mrs. Higurashi scurried around her daughters' room trying to pick up all the dirty clothes which were lying about.

"Just five more minutes mom!" Kagome grumbled as she pulled her comforter over her head.

Shio simply shook her head, she had no time for this today. Walking over to her child's bed, she yanked the covers off and dropped them in a heap. "Get up now Kagome Higurashi! And make up your bed!"

After searching around for something to cover her up, Kagome sighed to herself. She knew today would be busy and she should help her mother get ready for tonight, but she just wasn't in the mood to get up yet.

Looking over on her desk her eyes widened upon seeing the time 7:30. 'ARGH! Its not even a school day and she wants me up this early!'

Grumbling the whole way down the hall she decided it was in her best interest to help her mom out before she sent in reinforcements, aka, her seven year old brother, Souta. Sometimes the age gap really bothered her. She was five when her little brother was born, he was what their parents called a 'miracle baby'. After they had Kagome, Shio was told that she would never carry another child.

Her birth to Kagome had been a trying one, she went into labor a month early, had to have a c-section because of her blood pressure being ridiculously high. Shio almost lost her life along with Kagome due to the fact that she had toxemia during her pregnancy.

Between Kagome and Souta she had lost a baby and all hopes of ever having another little one. Even though Kagome was more than any mother could ever ask for, the longing was still there. The discovery of Souta almost sent poor Shio into shock.

Looking at herself in the mirror Kagome frowned. 'Some of the other girls my age are already getting theirs, I'm tried of looking like a stick.' Sighing to herself Kagome hopped into the shower. 'Mom keeps telling me not to worry about it, You're only twelve she says. Blah, some times I feel so much older than I am…'

She had every right to feel the way she did. Kagomes parents had divorced when she was only 9, this one act basically ended her childhood. Looking from the outside anyone who didn't really know Kagome wouldn't see the pain that she hid from the world. She never really talked about the divorce, not even with her mother.

Her mother had found someone else, Kagome really couldn't blame her, even at 9 she knew her father worked more than he should and always put his family last. But why did she pick him? Sure from a sideways glace he looked like such a family man, a stand up husband and a loving step father. HA! Kagome always had to bite her bottom lip to keep herself from laughing at that thought.

He was a well known doctor, as was his father, so naturally he could provide for them, he truly did love her mother this she knew. He just drank so much, at this point Kagome would place her bet on the fact that you could do a breathalyzer test on him at anytime of the day and he wouldn't pass. She's seen him put away 40+ beers in one day.

Her step grandmother was the only one she was grateful for, she didn't treat her nor Souta like they weren't her own full blooded grandchildren. In a way Kagome idealized her, a strong business woman in the working world who never let anyone hold her down, oh how she would play a part in Kagomes life, even if she didn't know it yet.

Her father? He stopped in every now and then, if only to drop of gifts, basically trying to buy their love. It didn't bother Kagome anymore, she as come to except it. Too understanding for a child at the ripe age of 12.

Shutting off the water Kagome got dressed and made her way down stairs where she found her mother running around dusting, hell, she even had Souta dressed up in an apron right along side her.

The sight made Kagome giggle. "Where's a camera when you need one?"

Blushing Souta glared at his older sister. "Moooom tell Kagome not to take pictures of me!"

Shio merely rolled her eyes "Get to work! We just have a few hours before I need to start preparing the food for tonight!"

"Who are these people again mother?" Kagome asked, every time she did she was only half paying attention.

"Well dear, do you remember Inuyasha from your school?" Receiving a nod Shio continued. "Well his father along with his mother, step brother and little sister will be joining us for dinner tonight. It would seem as if your granny Keade and Mr. Taisho are business associates, it would seem they got on the topic of kids and well, they decide to get the two families together for sort of a play date if you will between you kids."

"Uhm, Inuyasha always comes over mom!" Kagome wasn't upset that he was coming over but he did get on her nerves and as of right now she was still mad at him for the stunt he pulled at school yesterday. Nothing major, just the usual stuff, pulling her hair, knocking the books out of her hands, placing stuff on the top hook of her locker.

Yes, how she hated being short at times and curse who ever gave her a top locker! She was all of maybe 4'6'' and anytime someone could make her life miserable they would by placing things out of her reach.

"Yes I know dear but I have yet to meet his father or his siblings, I think it would be nice to finally meet them!" Kagome shrugged her shoulders. She had already met his father and little sister, but only heard talk about his brother. Apparently he was a hard ass, cold and thought he was better than everyone. From what she understood he mainly lived with his mother on the other side of town.

The day seemed to tick by slow, at least in Kagomes mind it did. Her granny, or rather her step grandmother showed up around 5 o'clock to help her mother with dinner. Her step father showed up shortly after, surprisingly he didn't reek of booze.

Finally 6:30 rolled around, being announced by a firm knock on the front door. Racing to the door Kagome was almost knocked over by her little brother. "I'LL GET IT!"

"Why you little…" Kagome straighten her dress that she was forced to wear before joining her brother at the door. Only to be attacked with a hug from what could have been mistaken as a younger her.

"Kagome! Rin is so happy to be here!" Unable to hold back a giggle Kagome agreed with the younger female. The sound of a throat clearing forced Kagomes attention back to the task at hand: Greet the guests.

"Ah, uhm, my apologies Mr. Taisho! Please come in! Mother is in the kitchen along with the other adults." Bowing she pointed in the direction of said room.

"Heh, no needs for the apology" Mr. Taisho stated before walking inside the house. "Its good to see you again my dear. I'm sure you already know my younger son Inuyasha, so let me introduce you to my oldest, Sesshoumaru."

Her light blue eyes locked with a pair of golden ones, suddenly she couldn't move or even blink. "Sesshoumaru…" his named rolled off her tongue before she could even stop herself from saying it out loud, causing her to blush. It was only a whisper but his demonic hearing picked it up. The way she said it though, it was if no one had ever said his name before.

Smirking the older son took her hand and kissed the top before bowing before her, which only deepened her red colored cheeks. "Feh! Would you knock it off, if you give her any more attention fluffy then she'll turn into a tomato!"

"Inuyasha!"

"What wench!"

"Sit boy!" Oh how she loved the fact that she had this power over him. How does one send someone else's person plummeting to the earth? Well for Kagome it was quiet simple, an enchanted necklace was the force behind this.. amusing act. She had placed it on him about a year before when he wouldn't stop chasing her around her own house.

Trying to think of ways to make him leave her alone she found herself in her grandfathers' old shrine storage room where she happened upon the sacred beads. Being a miko herself she quickly figured out what they were for and put them to….good use.

This earned another smirk from the older Taisho son. 'This girl… she is no mere ningen, that much is clear to this Sesshoumaru.'

Walking over to the now normal colored girl, he leaned close to her ear "Get use to saying my name, but next time, I'm positive it will be a bit louder."

He continued to walk away from her as if nothing had happened. He just left her standing there, mouth agape and Inuyasha pealing himself off of the floor.

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The next few years seemed to fly by. Sure enough after that night two years ago, Kagome had kept in touch with Sesshoumaru, even thought most of her friends and not to mention his brother disapproved of it.

Kagome just shrugged it off though, she knew a different side of Sesshoumaru than everyone else. Lately thought it seemed that their friendship was slowly heading in the direction of a relationship. Neither one of them fully understood it, they just simply dismissed it for now.

"So pumpkin, are you coming over for my birthday?" Kagome couldn't help but laugh every time he called her that. 'Pumpkin.' It sounded so ridiculous for him to say, but he had started calling her that about a year ago when she went through this whole orange faze, anything she bought had to be orange.

"Of course silly! My mom will drop me off a little later on after she runs some errands." Kagome said as she hung her head upside down off of her bed.

"Good. You better be there or I will be, dare I say it, sad."

"HA! Sad? More like heart broken fluffy! You can't go a day without seeing me and you know it!" There was silence on the other end which caused Kagome to laugh once more.

"Perhaps you are right, just make sure you are here before everyone else so you can keep those other bitches off my person." He hated the fact that he had to invite some of the people who would be arriving shortly. But much to his dismay his father insisted on some of them being invited just to show respected to other higher up families.

"Hehe, anything for you love! K see ya soon, love ya toddles!" With that she clicked the end button without even waiting for him to reply.

How he hated it when she got the last word in their conversations, he quickly sent her cell phone a text message

Love ya too brat

Suddenly he thought about what he had just sent her. Saying things like that to her just came naturally now. He wouldn't dare say such a thing to anyone else, he rarely even said it to his parents. Some how this human, this girl, tore down his icy walls and now had her own special place in his heart.

Their relationship was strange and at times a bit aggravating but he loved every minute of it. She was his best friend, his Kagome and he wanted it to stay that way.

A vibration pulled him out of his thoughts as he flipped open his cell phone only to smile at what he saw

I know, but who wouldn't?

Heh, true. Who couldn't love her? But that's the question he found himself asking over and over lately. Could he let anyone love her the way that he did? No, not really. The thought of someone else sharing a relationship with her the way he did pissed him off to no end.

As long as you have me that's all that matters. TTYL

Clicking his phone closed he began getting ready for the party. 'Something tells me this will prove to be an interesting night indeed.'

True to her word Kagome arrived a good hour before anyone else. She considered this, her second home in a way. There was hardly a day that she wasn't over her, instead of knocking she just simply walked in. Finding Sesshoumaru wasn't hard, all you had to do was listen for Inuyasha yelling.

'Those two will be the death of me.' Walking past the dining room Kagome noticed Izayoi along with Rin hanging balloons every where. Deciding she should say hi before heading up to stop the two from killing each others, she slowly crept up behind Rin and yelled Boo!

"KAGOME!" Rin shouted seeming to be unfazed by the older girl trying to scare her.

"Hehe, Hiya Rin! Mrs. Taisho, the room looks great!" Smiling at the young girl Izayoi nodded her thanks.

"I do believe the boys are upstairs. I went ahead and prepared your room I do believe you still have some clothes over here." Over the last two years Izayoi stopped asking Kagome if she was going to be staying the night or not.

Inutaisho was just over joyed about his oldest actually allowing someone to be as close to him as Kagome was. She spent so much time over at their house he went ahead and gave her, her own room. Yes, the girl was definitely good for the young lord.

Dashing up the stairs Kagome made her way toward the sounds of Inuyashas yelling. Ironically she didn't expect it to be coming from Sesshoumarus bedroom, but nothing really surprised her with those two.

Not bothering to knock she pushed open the door only to be pushed back outside by an airborne Inuyasha. If it wasn't for the fact that he had landed on top of Kagome Sesshoumaru would have continued his assault on his younger brother.

"Inuyasha. Get. Off. Me." Kagome tried her best to push him off her.

"Keh, as if I like being there! Lord high and mighty did this why aren't you yelling at him?" Inuyasha jumped up pulling her along with him.

"Oh I'll deal with him don't worry about it." Kagome said with an evil smirk.

"Yeah, I bet you will Kags, just make sure he doesn't knock ya up!"

Sesshoumaru merely smirked at his obviously idiotic brother. Reality hit Inuyasha, just not soon enough.

"INUYASHA! SIT BOY!"

"WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT FOR WENCH!"

Before he could recover Kagome ran into Sesshoumarus bedroom and slammed the door shut.

"So are ya ready for tonight? Turning the big 16, ooo, almost makes me want to cry. My little Fluffster is growing up." Kagome pretended to wipe a tear from her eye.

Contemplating on replying to her sarcastic remarks Sesshoumaru decided to just tackle her instead. Kagome should have expected as much, most of the times she picked on him ended with her being pinned down and him tickling her until she surrendered.

Grabbing both her wrists with his left hand he pinned them over her head as he smiled wickedly down at her. "Have anything to say before I start torturing you?"

"As if I would give in to you this early! The battle hasn't even begun FLUFFY!"

"Have it your way then…" With his right hand he began tickling her sides, he knew after a few minutes she would give in. Truth be told, he just loved the physical contact.

Between her trying not to laugh and fighting him back Kagome noticed something was different about him all of a sudden. "Hey, you ok?"

Snapping him out of his thought Sesshoumaru released her. "Yeah brat, just noticed the time that's all. Perhaps we should head down stairs now."

There was a slight harshness in his voice that made Kagome wince slightly, something was up but she didn't know what it was.

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'God he looks bored, poor thing.' Kagome giggled as she saw the look on Sesshoumarus face. "You know he should be loving all that attention he's getting from those dames."

Turning around to face the mystery voice, Kagome soon wished she hadn't. "Who? Sesshoumaru? Obviously you don't know him very well Naraku. Sessho doesn't like being in the lime light, nor does he like being looked at like a piece of meat, by anyone." She said matter of factly.

"Anyone, but you that is." He gave her a smug look before walking away.

Feeling eyes on her Kagome spun back around only to met by a pleading look from Sesshoumaru, giving him a knowing nod she made her way over to him.

"Hey, Sessho, uhm, your father is looking for you, he said you had a phone call. You can take it up in his study."

"Thank you, now if you will excuse me." He said pushing past the now very disappointed females.

"You should really work on your acting Kagome." Kagura spat out all to knowingly.

Crossing her arms Kagome glared at her. "No idea what you're talking about. But maybe you should get a clue, he's not interested in you or anyone else."

This causes Kagura to raise an eyebrow. "Oh? Then why does he put up with a ningen bitch like you? What makes you so special!"

"Simple. He actually likes me, now go annoy someone else for awhile." Kagome walked past the wind demoness into the entry way intending on going to where she could feel Sesshoumarus aura pulling her.

When rounding the first hall corner though, she came ran into a firm chest which knocked her back on her rear.

"Heh, sorry about that."

"Its alright my dear." Helping her up Inutaisho raised an eyebrow "What are you doing away from the party? You aren't tired this early are you?"

"Oh no! Nothing like that, its just that well, I'm looking for Sessho, he is somewhere out here hiding from all those floozies in there." Just thinking about what Kagura had said made her aura flash red.

This caused the demon lord to chuckle. She's so very possessive of him, even if she doesn't realize it.

"Ah well, about the party, I'm calling it off early. I have an unexpected business meeting earlier than I would like in the morning so who ever aren't staying the night need to return home."

"Oh please tell me those girls aren't staying!"

"Heh, of course not. Only a few of the boys will be staying over besides you my dear. How about you go inform my oldest of the news and I shall go inform the others?" Smiling she nodded her head and scurried off to find the birthday boy.

After bidding everyone goodnight and making sure Kagome was by his side so none of the other females dared get the idea of actually trying to hug him, Sesshoumaru sighed in relief.

"Kagome! Will you come read Rin a story before Rin goes to bed?" How could she resist those big brown eyes? Or better yet those adorable black ears on the top of her head. Just like Inuyasha, that was her soft spot with Rin. All either of them had to do is twitch their ears to get Kagome to do something for them.

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Mouthing that she'd be back later to him Sesshoumaru nodded before heading outside where he could smell the rest of his friends. He really didn't really like swimming this late at night, so he just plopped down in a lounge chair beside Naraku.

Naraku merely smirked at his friend before turned back to the beer he had in his hand. "Are you just going to stare off into space or are you going to join me in drinking?"

"Hn." Rolling his eyes Naraku tossed him a beer. After everyone else had left Inutaisho informed Naraku where the rest of Sesshoumarus 'gifts' were. Being the friend he is, he took it upon himself to bring all the liquor outside.

The two males set in silence while watching remaining males do cannon balls on top of each other or any other immature act that teenage boys do.

Suddenly Sesshoumaru caught a familiar scent in the air. 'Kagome' As if on cue Kagome appeared out of the corner of his eye and much to his dismay in a bikini.

"Hey you! Miss me? EWW, are you drinking beer?" Kagome walked over snatching the can out of his hand which earned her a growl as he yanked it back.

"And if I am? What's it to you." God he loved teasing her.

"Well, then you should be nice and share with me of course!" Kagome grabbed it back and walked off with it.

"Where do you think you are going?" Not being able to stop her smile Kagome decided not to answer him or he would know something was up.

Before he could reach her though she chugged the rest of his beer down and tossed the can at him. Growling at her again he grabbed for her wrist but to his surprise he missed which threw him off balance.

Inwardly Kagome was cheering, this was all she needed, she would just simply give him a push and fluffster would be soaked! But for a moment she forgot who she was dealing with, once her hand made contact with him he grabbed a hold of her wrist and pulled her in the pool along with him.

Kagome seemed to be the only one laughing when the two emerged from the water.

"Aww, I'm sorry Sessho, it was just so, tempting." She smiled sweetly at him, she knew he would get her back later.

Pulling her close to him he leaned close to her ear "Just wait until I get you alone." With a nip to her ear he dunked her under water and made his exit.

"And here I thought you didn't like anyone touching 'your person'. Naraku said mockingly.

"Kagome isn't just anyone, or have you not noticed?"

"Oh I've noticed my dear friend. She is a very hard person not to notice."

This simple statement causes Sesshoumaru to glare "What is that supposed to mean exactly?"

"I think you should stop being so selfish and share her. I wouldn't mind her getting wet with me in the pool."

In a blink of an eye Sesshoumaru had Naraku held up by his neck. Hearing the commotion Kagome along with the others raced out of the pool but not before Sesshoumaru let Naraku have a piece of his mind.

"Do not ever speak of MyKagome like you just did in my presence again. If you do, it will surely be the last thing you do." Feeling a hand on his upper arm Sesshoumaru dropped the male to his feet.

Before she even said anything Sesshoumaru had grabbed her and slung her over his shoulder before making his way into the mansion. Naraku gave out a chuckle, his friend was falling hard and the funniest thing about it was he didn't even know he was. If he had he would have realized he had referred to the ningen as 'My Kagome.'

Pathetic fool, she will be his down fall surely.

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Once reaching his bedroom he gently set Kagome down on his bed before walking over to his own personal bar to pour himself a shot of vodka. 'I have never understood how he could drink that stuff straight.'

"Ahem. Aren't you forgetting something mister?"

Acting innocent he played dumb "Oh sorry, miss, would you like something to drink as well?" Not even for her response he poured her a shot of jager.

Making her way over to him she gladly accepted the shot and slammed it down as he poured her another she waited for him to tell her what had just happened.

5 shots later for her and 6 for him she still had yet to get an answer out of him. 'Ohh why must he be so hard headed!'

Stumbling over to his bed Kagome collapsed on top of the enormous bed. "You aren't going to tell me are you?" To her surprise she managed to get everything out with one shot. Her brain knew she was drunk, as well as Sesshoumaru.

Feeling the effects of the alcohol Sesshoumaru made his way over to Kagome, only instead of laying beside her he climbed on top of her. Kagome didn't seem to mind it at all she was trying to ready herself for the tickling she was sure she was about to receive.

Instead she received a pair of lips crashing down on her own, the kiss was rough and very demanding. Sesshoumaru couldn't help himself once he looked down at her, he was still very upset at what Naraku had said. 'Share her. Yeah like that will ever happen.' He mentally scoffed the idiot for saying such a thing.

Kagome laid there under him in a state of shock 'Oh my god! What is he doing! He's, he's kissing me!'

When she didn't respond back Sesshoumaru bit her bottom lip demanding she allow his tongue entrance to her mouth. Moaning a bit she complied with his demand allowing his tongue to roam her mouth freely.

As quickly as it had begun it had ended, Sesshoumaru traded her lips for her neck and slowly started licking his way up to her ear. Kagome shivered as he lightly blew on her ear lob. "That fool actually had the nerve to suggest I, Sesshoumaru, share your attention with him. I'm tell you this now that will not happen. You are MY Kagome and no one else's."

Kagomes eyes opened 'His Kagome? When did this happen?'

"You are mine Kagome, do you understand?" When she didn't respond Sesshoumaru bit down on her ear to get her attention. Jerking her head away from the source of pain, Kagome merely nodded her head. Not really knowing what else to do, partly because she was confused and partly because the alcohol was taking over her body.

"Good, after tonight there should be no more disputes of this fact. No one else will ever question it." Kagome was trying to ask him what he was talking about but was cut off when his mouth clamped over hers once more.

Kagome was too caught up in the feeling of his mouth on hers to even notice him pulling off her bikini top and cutting through her bottoms with his claws. Even if she had, she wouldn't have cared, deep down she craved any form of attention he was willing to give her.

Kagome's body started to react to his touches. As if it took on a life of its own, she started arching her back under him as he started to rub across her flatly toned stomach, which in return earned him a moan which was music to his ears.

Somewhere in his drunken state Sesshoumaru knew what was about to happen and felt the need to get her approval before hand.

"Tell me, my little pumpkin, what is it you wish for me to do?" Already anticipating what her answer would be he positioned himself at her virgin entrance.

Licking her now dry lips Kagome mustered out an answer " Make me yours Sessho."

Smirking against her ear "Forgive me for the pain you are about to feel koi, it will only hurt for a moment." Before any of what he just said could register she felt a burning sensation between her legs.

Looking into her eyes looking for any signs of her backing out, he thrust into her hot tight hole. She cried out against the feeling, and he let out a low groan of pleasure. She was so tight, so hot, it was amazing! This was unlike anything he had ever experienced. He didn't stop until he'd buried every inch of his cock in her tight pussy, then forced himself to pause for a moment to let her body adjust.

Once he felt she was ready he then braced himself above her before starting to thrust in and out of her. He looked down at her trying to captured the sight before him in his mind forever. Her head was arched back completely, eyes closed tightly, her tits bouncing back and forth as he pounded into her.

Leaning down he latched his mouth on her right breast, suckling it then biting it before doing the same to the other. The feeling of her being clamped around him, the sounds of her moaning were almost too much for him. He could feel something growing in him, becoming stronger and stronger. He picked up his pace, fucking her hard and faster, loving the way she was crying, moaning, almost pleading for him to give her a release.

He suddenly had a warm feeling wash over him as he felt himself getting ready to cum, Kagome beat him to the punch. Digging her nails into the young lords back she screamed out in pleasure as a orgasm hit her, this sent Sesshoumaru over the edge, howling out as his own orgasm hit, he did the one thing that would be their down fall as much as their uprising.

He claimed her. He bit down where her neck met her collarbone, marking her his in this life time and the next. He continued to pump in and out of her until his inner beast was satisfied.

Rolling off of her body, still not realizing what he had just done, Sesshoumaru pulled Kagomes now sweaty body to his.

"Mmm, Sessho…" Kagome said half awake.

"Yes koi?" Sesshoumaru responded while pulling a blanket over their naked bodies.

"I love you." With out hearing his reaction she fell into a deep slumber.

The words stung him but he did not understand why. Perhaps it was because this time she had actually said 'you' instead of the normal 'ya'.

"I-I love you too, my Kagome." Soon sleep too claimed the young lord, only tomorrow would they realize the full extent of what just took place, and start the whirlwind which would send their whole world which the two now knew into chaos.