Meredith woke up and saw Derek holding her hand and sleeping in the hospital chair. She smiled and then frowned. What had happened? She remembered waking up and being taken in for a ct and an mri. What were the results? "Derek?" She asked and gently shook him awake. "Meredith!" He smiled down at her and began checking her vitals.

"Your surgery is scheduled for tomorrow." He said, trying not to let his emotions show.

"What do I have?" She asked confused.

Derek went on to tell her about all the risk of the surgery all the while trying not to cry.

"You should get some rest." He told her and leaned down to kiss her on the head.

"Derek?"

"Yeah?" He asked flashing a smile.

"You're doing the surgery right?" She asked him fiddling with the blanket.

"Yeah I am." He told her and then walked away.

Meredith was about to lay down when Christina came barging through the room.

"Meredith! What the hell happened. I have to be told by freaking Izzie that you have a tumor! She was crying her eyes out and all I got out of her rambling was tumor and your name. What's happened?" She yelled her face turning red.

"Christina calm down. I didn't know, I would've told you! You're my person remember?" Meredith told her calmly.

"Yeah, sorry for going all exorcist on you." Christina told her trying to hide the tears in her eyes.

"You better not die though, because I don't think I will make it with bambi and the model. I might kill one of them."

Meredith chuckled and george and Izzie walked through the door. Izzie eyes were red from crying and George looked as if he might faint any moment.

They all talked for a little bit until Dr. Bailey came in and ordered them out.

"Get some rest Grey, tomorrows gonna be hard on all of us." She told her and then walked out of the room.

Meredith once again tried to go to sleep but someone came in.

"Meredith?" It was Addison.

"Addison?" Meredith asked sitting up.

"Hey, I just wanted to see how you were doing. Derek's frantic, he's worried you know." Addison smiled at the small intern.

"Addison, I didn't do this on purpose you know. I never thought that Derek would be the one doing the surgery. If I had it my way, I would have already been transferred."

"Don't be silly." Addison told her. "You need the best and that's Derek. I'm not holding a grudge on you Meredith. You didn't wake up in the morning and say to yourself, I'm gonna get a tumor so Derek will have to operate and fall in love with me all over again." Addison took a deep shaky breath. "But you know what Meredith? He never fell out of love with you. So just get better, okay?" And with that Addison walked out of the room.

"The surgery was successful Richard." Derek told him as they waited for her to get back from ICU. "Good job, Derek. I don't know what I would've done if..well if something happened." Derek nodded and started thinking about the possibilities.

If she had died, he would've blamed himself. He wouldn't be able to live. He wouldn't be able to look at her from across the hall, or smile at her, or walk to close to her, or corner her in the elevator. He wouldn't be able to see her.

His thoughts were interrupted by a nurse as she wheeled Meredith through the door. The nurse was about to lift her onto the other bed but Derek stepped over. "I'll do it." He told her. The nurse smiled and took the other bed away. Derek gently laid Meredith back in the bed. He pushed the hair from her face and examined the bandage. Richard smiled at him and walked out of the room.

Derek kissed her gently on the forehead and took her hands in his. "Meredith, I know you can't hear me but, I just want you to know, I love you. I've never stopped. I know it's not enough but I need you to understand. When I thought about losing you, I couldn't take it. I wouldn't be able to walk up by you and touch your shoulder with my arm. I wouldn't be able to see you smile. I need you Mere. So don't leave me. Don't ever leave me." Derek whispered and put his head in her lap.

Meredith woke up to someone running their hand across her face. It was Derek. "Hey, how long have you been here?" She tried to ask him but her voice was scratchy. Derek ran over and got her some water.

"All day. I got the next three days off."

"Derek you need rest. I am sure Addison is worried about you." Meredith told him sternly.

"You're the only thing that matters right now Mere." He told her and he bent down to help her sit up.

"Derek, that's not true." She started to tell him but was interrupted by Izzie, George, Christina, and Alex.

"Hey Meredith! How's the head. Did he mess it up more or did you finally get it fixed?" Alex asked. Izzie slapped him on the shoulder.

"Evil spawn. Shut up she's tired." Izzie told him and then walked over to Meredith.

"You're okay right?"

"Of course she's okay." Christina told her and George was just standing in the corner looking at the crowd sullenly.

Meredith chuckled and Derek tried to walk away but she grabbed his hand. He looked at her and a smile lit his face.

A/N: reviews would make me smile...