Wow. I'm really sad to say that this story was supposed to be a short and quick trilogy and well it took me longer than I really expected it too. :Sigh:Well school is about to start again and now I'm facing an AP class, and all the other crap that comes along with school. But the good news is this is my newest and final update for this story so hurray for me! Sorry for the long wait, but this story caused me to go brain dead so I'm sorry if the ending sucks. But hey I tried so hope you enjoy!
Disclaimer: Sadly I don't own Yu Yu Hakusho but I would love too though
Chapter 3: Their conclusionShe blinked a couple of seconds, striving to figure out if she heard him accurately. Was she that easy to read? That the person she was presuming to conceal herself from the most was able to read her like an open book. She wondered how he could comprehend her so easily. If Shuichi, the one she tried to distance herself the most from the group, was able to interpret her so easily, than the others could do so as well. If Shuichi could read her like a book, than Keiko should be able to read her as easily as a sentence, right?
"What do you mean Kurama?" She giggled out nervously while she sat up on the bed. Her amethyst eyes were locked on the area just above of his emerald eyes.
"I mean Botan-san that I—I would really like for you to be that personal with me. Well enough so that you feel comfortable to be able to smile and joke with me rather than putting up that distant mask." He blushed when he found out what he just rambled out. He found this rather strange; he barely ever blushes nor spoke his mind when he doesn't desire too.
There was a moment of awkwardness; both teenagers had very distinctive pink faces. They both avoided eye contact with one another, which is until Botan broke the awkward silence between them.
"Um…Kurama-kun, may I ask you a question?" Her hands gripped the comforter more tightly.
"Of course Botan-san," He replied with a smile upon his face as he looks up.
"Where were you during the first match of the finals?"
A look of puzzlement appeared on his attractive face, "Whatever do you mean Botan? I fought in the first match of the finals, so where else would I be?"
A perplexed face surfaced upon her face, "No you didn't fight in the first match. I am certain of it." A melancholy look emerged on her face. "I'm most certain that it was Youko…"
"But Botan-san…"
"But even if that was impossible…he was said to have died quite sometime ago." The shimmer of light that appeared in her eyes when he said Youko's name expired when that statement was revealed.
Kurama couldn't help but noticed the sudden change in her, the wistful expressions, the dim light in her eyes dying out; it was as if she was sad over his ill-fated accident nearly sixteen years ago.
"Botan-san what are you talking about? I fought from start to finish of that match, just ask Yusuke if—"
"That's a lie Kurama!" Her eyes flashed a blaze of dark amethyst, locking the emerald orbs in a stage of shock. Emotions coursed through her as she tried to verify what she should be feeling. Should she be angry because of his lie? Or should she hold dear to what she thought of him, that Shuichi Minamino does not tell falsehood. The illogical part of her mind told her to believe what she saw, that it was her Youko in that stadium, but the rational section told her it was Shuichi and that her eyes were showing her what she wanted to see.
What she wanted to see was Youko Kurama alive and healthy.
"What am I to lie about? I fought that horrible fight, nearly lost my life because I underestimate the length of the tonic. I risked everything in that damn arena." His own eyes flashed amber, not dark emerald, as he spoke out in irritation.
"Your eyes flashed amber." She saw it; it wasn't a trick of the light or her imagination, his eyes gleamed amber. Brief as it may be but it did nonetheless.
"W-what?"
"Amber, Kurama. I said your eyes flashed amber. How is this possible?" She started by slowly bombarding him with questions, expecting to get answers. No matter what she had to do to obtained them.
"Please Kurama, tell me what is happening. Why did your eyes flash amber instead of emerald? Why is it that you remind me so much of Youko…" Slowly her questions began to stop and her voice died down.
"Please…"
He was silent, not knowing what to say to her. His eyes locked with hers that were questioning him. That was expecting an answer from him. Turning away he broke eye contact, he just didn't know how to answer these questions. He found himself utterly speechless.
"Botan-san, I don't know how to respond to your questions."
He looked back when he felt her hand on his shoulder. She gifted him with a reassuring smile, sending chills down his spine. "Please just try your best Kurama?"
A thought occurred to him when he placed his own hand over her hand that was placed on his shoulder. "Botan-san you do know than I am Youko Kurama right?"
A gasp escaped her lips, her eyes clouded over and her hand slipped from beneath Kurama's. Staring aimless forward, she barely heard Kurama's voice of concern as her own memories rushed forward.
Images of Youko coming through the cave entrance to their home, with a cocky smile upon his face as he presented her with some expensive token or a lovely trinket from his raid. Or of Youko's face wincing in pain as he pulled away from her touch and barking some remark or excuse about being fine.
Concern for Botan kept Kurama silent after he called for her mere minutes before. It kept him from shaking her out of her shock and demand why she was reacting as though it as such a new shock for her. Surly she's known right? It wasn't like he was trying to really keep it a secret, and since she was the assistant to the Reikai Tantei he naturally assumed she has already known.
She slowly got over her shock, her eyes slowly started to refocus, and she set her attention on the male before her. "You're not the type to lie, are you Kurama-kun?"
Kurama stared at her in disbelief, speechless once again from the words that were coming from Botan's mouth. He was about to open his mouth to reply to her accusation, but she held her hand up to silence him.
Smiling she shook her head, "Don't worry about that question Kurama-kun, I guess you can almost call it a rhetorical question. But I do want proof to what you're saying."
Lifting a delicately arched eyebrow, Kurama gazed at her uncertainly. "You want me to show you my Youko form? Is this the adequate proof that you require?"
"If you're able too Kurama-kun."
A deep sigh escaped Kurama's lips as he gathered his spirit energy and willed himself to transform. A light fog engulfed him as his blood red hair bleed silver, his eyes lighten from emerald to amber and his frame grew slightly wider and taller. As the fog lifted, he felt her eyes staring at him in complete astonishment.
"Youko," Her hand reached out hesitantly and stroked his cheek softly, "your actually back."
Impulsively he wanted to retort back, informing how his being back would affect her. But he bit that remark back, instinctively knowing that remark like those were what chased his Botan away. When her hand touched his cheek, the familiar feeling caught him by surprise.
She extracted her hand away, and threw herself onto his body. The unprepared gesture sent him sprawled out on the floor, with her above him. Her hands were locked around his neck, and her head rested on his broad chest. Lifting her head, amethyst eyes locked with amber, "I've missed you so much Youko and I've wanted to apologize for walking out on you nearly seventeen years ago."
"Walked out on me…" Amber eyes skimmed the unbearably familiar face, and the bodily curves outlined by the pink kimono of the girl resting atop of his body. His heart ached and he knew why, because he always unconsciously knew that those two were one of the same. There physical appearance wasn't so different, their names were the same and they both arouse the same feelings inside him. But he was a fool and tried to overlook it, because he didn't want to replace the image in his mind of the only women he ever loved.
"When I finally came back to the lair, you've already gone on another raid and I didn't know where to find you. So I volunteered myself to work for Spirit World, in return they allowed me to start anew and they gave me a charm to conceal my demonic appearance and energy." Unlinking her arms, she placed both of her hands on his face and lowered her face until she was nearly two inches away from his lips. "But my feeling for you never changed, even when I thought I was falling in love with Shuichi."
"Than why did you leave me?" He forced out, his eyes were fixated on her face. Drinking in all the emotions that were racing across her eyes, the love, remorse and the guilt.
"I felt as though you didn't need me, that I was only getting in your way. The only time I felt loved was when I was in you bed, all the other times I felt like I was just some pet." Her amethyst eyes started to get cloudy, as she gazed down at the man who captured her heart for so long. "That all I was good for was to be there to snatch bits and pieces of affection, and in return I would get expensive trinkets and tokens of appreciation from you. Than you would constantly go on raids, and I felt as though you really wanted to leave me. "
Lifting his head up, he brushed his lips against her sinfully rosy lips. Than he shifted her so he has able to sit up and reposition her on his lap. He nuzzled his head against her silky hair. "I'm sorry I made you feel that way Botan. I just didn't know how to act; I've never been in love before. My obsession about the raids was because I wanted to be able to support you, so I would be able to build a stable life with you without having to go thieving in the distant future."
"Oh Youko," She snuggled closer to him, allowing the warmth to cocoon her in a blanket of security and warmth.
"You won't leave me again will you? I don't think I'm able to loss you again right after I just found you."
Lifting her head she pulled his head down just enough so she's able to push her lips against his. Sending a moan of pleasure to escape his mouth as he returned her kiss. Opening her lips, she allowed his tongue to sweep inside. This went on for what seem like a lifetime, than slowly they both pulled away.
"Never Youko. I won't ever leave you again."
Stroking her face loving, he pulled her closer, savoring the feeling of her body pressed up against his. "Promise?"
Breathing in his scent, she sighed deeply and closed her eyes. Relishing the warmth of his body as it sent her slowly drowning into a sea of dreams. Yawning silent she opened her eyes drowsily.
"I've dealt with my feelings Kurama, and I promise to never leave you again."
Oi, the end is finally in sight! If you have any question or confusions please ask and I'll try to get back to you with the answer. Okay the chapter isn't good, but at least I'm done right? And once again sorry for the long wait, I really tried to write this chapter but I didn't know how to end it. Heck I still don't know how to end it that's why you have the ending that I wrote. Because it was the easiest one I can think of with my half shut down mind. But enough with the excuses, I would like to give thanks to all those who took the time to read Dealing with Feelings and thank you for dealing with the fact that I don't update fast enough even though I promised I would. Oh and I would like those who have any ideas for my other stories to help me. Once again "Thank you!"
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