Meredith smiled at the now sleeping Derek. She wished she could be the one to fall asleep in his arms. Like it used to be. She felt her eyes water up but she shook the tears away. She looked at the way his hair fell softly around his face and she thought about what was behind those closed eyes. He always seemed to smile at her. Even when she was angry, his eyes told her he loved her. That's all it took, that one thought and Meredith had crawled over to the sleeping man.

She made sure not to wake him.

Wrapping her arms around his body she fell asleep in the crook of his neck. She knew she couldn't ignore him for long.

Derek woke to find Meredith snuggled up against him. He could feel her breath against his face and he couldn't help but shift to look at the sleeping woman.

When he did she began to wake up. He hushed her and told her to go back to sleep. She didn't. She woke up and pulled away from him blushing deeply.

"Derek, I, uh, I just was thinking, I couldn't help...I'm sorry." Meredith finished lamely not meeting Derek's eye.

"Meredith you don't realize that's the best sleep I've gotten for a long time. All thanks to you." He told her leaning in close. She knew she should pull away but it was useless to fight. His eyes were smiling at her again but this time so were his lips.

She felt herself lean into him, placing her hands on his chest and kissed him.

Derek was surprised. He didn't expect her to kiss him. He thought it would be the other way around. She was kissing him though. Even before he told her about the divorce that was finalized this afternoon. He smiled into her and ran his hands through her hair being careful not to hurt her. Maybe they could start fresh. Maybe they could be happy again. He didn't know, he just hoped.

Meredith pulled away shakily and told him, "You have to go. I can't be around you every time I'm around you something happens and Derek you're married." She got up and started to push him out the door. He was laughing. This made Meredith even more angry.

"Derek this isn't funny." Meredith told him seriously.

He just smiled.

"What?" Meredith asked.

"You're cute when you're angry." Derek told her playfully and started to play with a lock of her hair. Meredith snatched her hair away from him and sat down on the couch. She was tired. Derek saw this and picked her up.

Meredith was to tired to start fighting again so she let him carry her upstairs and lay her in bed.

"You should go, your wife is waiting."

"Meredith I have to tell you something. Don't get angry. I didn't do this just for us but for me. I had to. I mean I couldn't live a lie. So when I tell you don't blame yourself." Derek told her, his voice was shaky and there was no denying he was nervous.

"Derek?" Meredith asked and told him to continue.

"Mere, Addison and I are, we're divorced."

Meredith stared at him blankly.

He looked confused.

"Derek even though I want to and I do, so bad. I can't run back into your arms. You chose her, and I know you had to. She's your wife, but still you hurt me." Meredith was about to continue when she realized Derek was crawling into her bed.

"Derek! What do you think you are doing?" Meredith asked.

"Sleeping next to you. What you did that to me? which by the way isn't fair because I wasn't awake to enjoy it. Besides I'm not married and you did it with me even when you thought I was." Derek told her smiling.

Meredith couldn't help but laugh. He smiled and took her hands in his. He pulled her up close to him and wrapped his arms around her waist.

Giving her a lingering kiss he whispered, "Goodnight Mere, I've missed you."

When Meredith was sure he was asleep she whispered, "I've missed you too."

"Good." He told her gruffly trying to stay awake.

She smiled at him and snuggled closer to his chest.