She woke up and she felt more tired then the previous evening, the bad throbbing headache that afflicted her present again. That was an era of peace, no enemy was on the stage, so the Gate was open 24/7. Once or twice an hour time travellers knocked at the door and she had to get up and check wheter it was all right with them entering the Crystal Moon Kingdom. She couldn't even remember an entire night of sleep, and she wasn't allowed to rest during the day. Moreover, she has almost stopped eating since her birthday. She hardly tried, she knew that eating was necessary to survive, but she couldn't force heself, a simple look at any kind of food made her sick. This was not, however, the worst thing, the wall was. In the previous few months she felt as if an impervious wall had grown up and imprisoned her, and no exit was available to run away.
A kaleidoscope of different feelings was flying in her mind. Her duty was to guard and observe, her role to look after the other scouts. She should have stopped considering her friends, she had to protect them and that was all. In no way she could ask them for help.
Actually, there was something else. Setsuna was absolutely sure that, if she had called her friends, they wouldn't have come.
-They have their occupations to go on with, I don't deserve their attention because I'm not part of their lives anymore. There is nothing else I can do, just staying here and waiting for nothing.-
For the first time in her everlasting life, Setsuna lost herself.