Disclaimer: Any characters mentioned or even talked about in J.K. Rowling's books are not mine. I only own my characters, which obviously are not in her books. And if I did own those characters, I would not be writing online, I would be publishing my book!

A/N - I am not the craziest HP fan, therefore I do not memorize and know endless amounts of facts on HP. So, if you see a mistake, just tell me. However, I am writing this story using some of the characters as well as settings from Harry Potter. Hope you like it!

Chapter 1- Persistent Past

"Dirt! Get downstairs! Mum and dad want to talk yo you!" Petunia said. Back when Lily was eleven, and she got into Hogwarts, her parents were so happy that she was a witch. It made Petunia sick. So, as sort of a daily insult, Petunia called Lily, Dirt, because Lilies come from out of the dirt.

"Errrrrr! What do they want now! They've already told me the hour long lecture about boys!" Lily muttered. "'Don't do anything Lily! If you like someone enough to do something with them, you'll see them after school. So don't do anything at school! And don't get yourself into any situations!'", Lily said mocking her mother's voice perfectly. "I've never been with any guys, well, at least not like that; well, at least not on purpose...So why do they think I'm gonna start now?"

"Dirt!" Petunia yelled once more.

"Coming!" Lily screamed back.

Once Lily got downstairs she saw her parents sitting in two armchairs.

"Lily," Her mother said, "We need to talk to you."

"About what?" Lily asked quizzically.

"Well, we know that this is your last year at school..."

"So?" Lily said.

"Well, after what happened last year...we want you to start taking these." Lily's mother said handing her a bottle of pills.

"Are you talking about-" Lily said trailing off as she recalled the events of last year.

FLASH BACK

"Lily," Fredrick said.

"Yes Fredrick?" Lily said looking up at his great grey eyes. They always seemed so peaceful and calming, however, right now they seemed to have something pleading about them.

They were in the Room of Requirement, but Fredrick did not know that. He was an official's son who was visiting from Romania, but he picked up on new ways and routines very easily. His father was doing some work with Dumbledore, and so he was temporarily enrolled in the school.

"You know how I feel about you." He said stepping closer to her. "And I know that you feel the same way. So, lets show ourselves, who we really are." He said placing his hand on her waist.

"Are you saying what I think you are?" Lily asked baffled and bewildered.

"Yes Lily, I am." Fredrick said while moving his hand up Lily's shirt.

"Stop." Lily commanded.

"Why? You know you want to." He said in reply.

"Fredrick, stop." Lily said removing his hand and stepping away.

"Common' Lily. I know you love me." Fredrick said stepping closer to her.

"Fredrick, I like you a lot, but I don't love you. I barely know you! Even if I was madly in love with you, I'm not ready, nor willing!" Lily said once again stepping further back.

"Lily-" Fredrick began before he was cut off by Lily.

"Look Fredrick, I just can't ok! I need to go!" Lily stated turning for the door, but was stopped by a firm grip on her arm. "Let go." Lily said sternly.

"No. I know you want me. You won't go." Fredrick said.

"Fredrick, let me go! NOW!" Lily yelled getting impatient. She tried to get loose, but his grip was too strong. Just then, she tried to make a mad dash for the door, but was quickly jerked back because of the grip he had on her. His expressions had changed. He wasn't the same calm intriguing young man Lily knew. Instead, he seemed to have a glint of happiness in his eye because Lily could not escape. Just then Lily let out a cry for help, while Fredrick began to take her clothes off. "NO, NO, NO! Stop Fredrick! Leave me ALONE!" She screamed fighting to get out of his grip. As she opened her eyes she noticed the room had changed. What used to be a couch had changed into a bed, but what once was a dresser changed into a wall with all sorts of bats and clubs. (A/N : The italics are what the characters are thinking.) Of course! The room must have changed because of what we wanted! There! A baseball bat! The room must have sensed that I am a muggleborn. Just then Fredrick told Lily to turn around.

"No!" Lily replied. So, he turned her over himself, but he was not able to balance her and keep a hold on her. As she made a dash for the wall, she grabbed the bat as he reached for her leg.

"Ha!" He said as a grin spread across his face.

"Get off!" Lily screamed as she hit his hand as hard as she could.

"Ahhhhh!" Fredrick screamed in pain. But he still would not let her escape. As she tried to hit him one more time, he was able to grab the bat with his other hand. He then snatched it away from her and threw it across the room. He slowly began to pull her closer and closer to him and farther away from the wall while she screamed and cried for help. Why can't anyone hear me!

"Someone please! Help me!" Lily cried.

Just then as is by some sort of answer, Professor McGonagall burst through the door.

"Finite Incantatem!" McGaonagall commanded. Just then, Fredrick was paused, almost as if she had frozen him. He couldn't move or do anything. She then quickly rushed to Lily with a blanket in her hand.

"Are you alright, my dear?" She asked imperatively.

"Now I am." She said in relief.

"Good. The Headmaster is outside waiting for you in the corridor. I will deal with him!" McGonagall spat in a disgusted tone as she glanced at the paralyzed Fredrick.

END FLASHBACK

That night seemed so confusing. She talked to Dumbledore and he informed her parents. Fredrick, on the other hand, was immediately expelled and sent to Azkaban. However, the hardest thing wasn't even that he had done that to her. It was that she somehow got herself into the situation. She felt guilty for it. So, her parents and the Headmaster decided that she should go to counseling. It was hard enough to go to counseling. What was even harder was when she had to get tested for STD's and whether or not she was pregnant. She never could forget the relief when the doctor told her that her tests came back negative.

"Lily? Lily?" Her mother asked concerned.

"What?" Lily said suddenly jerking back to reality.

"Here." Her mother said handing her the pills.

"Don't forget this other one." Her father said handing her a small box.

"Go put those in your trunk. Then come back downstairs for dinner." Her mother instructed.

"But mom-" Lily said before being cut off.

"Go put them up! The instructions are on the labels and we will send you refills when you need them."Her mother said sternly. She seemed to have some issues with this.

"Fine." Lily said reluctant to oblige.

As she walked up the steps, she saw Petunia give her an evil grin. She had heard the whole thing.

"Be careful Dirt." Petunia menacingly said. "Don't want to become addicted! That's about the only other bad thing left for you to do!" She loved every minute of this. However, Lily didn't say anything. She just walked upstairs with tears streaming down her face.

Once in her room, she put the two items inside of her trunk and looked for a tissue. What had she ever done to her sister? Petunia never seemed to leave her alone.

"Lily!" Her father called. "Dinner's ready!"

"Ok dad! Coming!" Lily yelled back.

After dinner, her mother gave her a few more minutes to watch TV. Then she went to take her bath and get in bed. She had to wake up early the next day for her train ride to Hogwarts. But Lily had trouble sleeping. She kept waking up from nightmares of that night in the Room of Requirement. After awhile she finally drifted away once more to be captivated by her nightmares.

A/N - Hope you all liked it! I'm still trying to figure out some more plot twists and stuff but if you have any suggestions or ideas, please tell me! Please review! The more reviews the happier I am and the more I'll wanna write! Thanks!