Disclaimer: I do not own anything here, and this is just for fun.
Note: this is an alternative season 5...It's pretty much the same about season 4; the differences will come here, in Joey's memories....
Thanks: to Lali, who always reads them and asks for more
Joey's first thought was run away. The second was to kill Jen, Audrey and Jack, who certainly was involved in this trap too...She headed back and was almost reaching the door when she heard his voice... "Jo, wait!" She turned around to find a very surprised and hurt Pacey right near her... "Jo, I don't like the way the guys set this up... but I kind of agree with them that's time for us to talk. We can't keep on this pretending that we don't even know each other ...would you mind?"
"Oh, sure, Pacey...I am the one who is pretending not even knowing you...I'm the one who locks myself in my room whenever I visit Jen and Jackers..." She couldn't help the angry words...
"Jo, stop! Ok. You don't wanna talk, I got the point...You know what? Forget about it!" Pacey had almost forgotten how beautiful she could be...but something surprised him even more... He was surprised by the way she looked...thinner than never, dark circles under her eyes...definitely she wasn't doing fine...She was hurt; actually, both of them were...
Joey decided not let him go this time...He was almost out of the café when she grabbed his arm... "Pacey, I'm sorry....I just got upset with all this..." He turned around...her movement brought painful memories...a long time a go..."
"If you felt even one shred of what I feel for you...then we wouldn't be here having this conversation...Pace...Joey grabbing his hand and her mouth coming down on his..."
They went back to the table...The awkward feeling of not knowing exactly what to do...They sat in silence, just staring each other for some uncomfortable moments...
"So, Pace, what are we gonna talk about? The weather, how was your summer, although we're in fall already or how we broke each others hearts?" Jo asked with sarcasm, tired of all that silence.
Pacey couldn't help a weak smile...the Potter sarcasm. It was a part of her personality, as the air she breathed...
"Jo...I really don't know what to say.... You must be really upset, pissed off with me...and I don't know how to start this conversation..."
"And why should I be upset? For my boyfriend dumping me at our senior prom, and not talking to me for the next 3 months, and then coming to college and avoiding me any possible way?" She knew she didn't have the right to say all that...but she couldn't help throwing all her pain at him...
"Josephine Potter, could you please calm down? Everybody is staring at us..."
"Now you know how I felt at prom!"
"This is useless...Why can't we act like civilized people?"
"Ok, Pacey, I'll try to keep my mouth closed while you say whatever you wanna say"
"Jo, I know the way I broke up with you was the worst way I could have done it...but it was to painful to see you kissing Dawson...after all.."
"I wasn't kissing him...He was kissing me!!!"
"Jo, could you just let me finish this? It was like a bad dream...but that was just a drop in the ocean of mistakes we both made...I pretended that I didn't notice all your lies, and it became a snowball that I couldn't stop anymore...The pain I felt was overwhelming, and by then I knew that you even had lied to Dawson about us having sex, Jo...when you promised me you would tell him the truth...I couldn't bear be near you or him anymore....you have no idea how it was to deal with our break up, all by myself and realize that maybe you were out of my league, that maybe you never really had chosen me...That you were with me, 'cause Dawson told you so...But I had to do that, to think far from you, 'cause with you near me I always get too confused to think right..."
"Pacey, I was with you for my own decision...couldn't you see that? I just wanted things to be like before, but I really didn't want to loose you..." Tears were running on her face now.
"That's the trouble, Jo...you didn't realize that things are never going to be the same... Dawson loves you...and in your way, you have this confuse feelings over him...and I just don't wanna be a part of this anymore...I thought I could, that my love for you was stronger than anything...but the pain you caused it's even stronger" At this point, he was crying too
"Pacey, I don' t know what to say...but I know one thing: we can't pretend that we never met or something like that...and besides being my boyfriend you were my friend and I miss you in my life... as both. I know I love you, even you don't believe it now, and maybe I will never be able to make up things with you...but I need you back in my life, at least as my friend..."
"I miss you too, Potter...but let's take it step by step, ok? My wounds are far from healing when it comes to you"
"Ok, Pace...so, what do we do now?"
"What about eating something? I'm starving after all this emotional release..."
"Why do you always eat on crucial moments in our relationship?" Joey smiled through her tears.
"I don't do that, Joey...I'm just hungry, just that" It was good to see her smile again even if it was a sad one.
"Hey, PJ! I was starting to think that you were going to ditch me..."
Joey turned her head to see who was calling, stunned to see a short green eyed brunette, wrapping her arms around Pacey's neck with intimacy.
"Jo, I want you to meet some one...Joey, this is my girlfriend, Erin Flanagan... Er, this is Josephine Potter, Joey as everybody calls her"
"Nice to meet you, Josie", replied Erin coldly...and then turning to Pacey "I'm going home, Pace. If you need anything, call me ok?"
"You don't have to leave...I was leaving...bye, Pacey, Erin, nice to meet you" Joey almost ran off the café....it was starting to rain, but she thanked God that so no one notice that her face was wet from her tears and not from the raindrops falling from the sky..."