Oscar switched his gaze to Sorrow. "Sorrow, ya can't breathe a word about dis ta anyone. Ya wont, will ya?" he asked, hoping he'd get the right response.
Sorrow looked over at him and sighed. "About what?" She asked.
Oscar nodded. "Dat's me goil," he said. He opened his mouth to say something else, then shut it realizing he didn't know what he should say.
Sorrow sighed again sitting next to him. "No I really meant what...I mean there's a lot of things." she said.
"Everything. Just, everything," he said with a sigh. "Ya can't tell about Blade or me bein wit him or anythin like dat."
Sorrow gulped. "I wont." She said. "I wont." She was trying not to cry.
Oscar put his arms around her best he could. "What exactly didja do for him? I nevah did get da whole story," he asked her softly.
Sorrow felt a little bit safe in his arms, the fact that just weeks before he had murdered a girl slipping out of her mind. She sighed. "Don't tell...please..."
"Now of course I'd nevah tell. I know how dose things woik," he said reassuringly.
Sorrow nodded. 'Okay...um it's kind of long and stuff...I don't want you getting mad at me neitha!"
"I wont get mad at ya, I promise," Oscar said, rubbing her back softly.
Sorrow sighed. "Okay back when I was younger and it was basically just me, Ani and Mountie, dere were uddahs but we really nevah associated much wid dem. Well we weren't making much money selling papes and stuff, we had to run da lH by ourselves more or less. Well someone I can't even remembah who it was set us up wid dis guy who was lookin' for some I guess you'ld say "boids"...."
"None of us knew what we to expect, we just well thought it was a pretty good idea. I mean we grew up wid dat stuff why should it be any different now?" Her bottom lip started to tremble a bit.
Oscar nodded. "It's alright," he said softly as he continued rubbing her back.
"Well um we started to do stuff for him and stuff well den aftah a while he wanted us to do something there was no way we could do, I mean it was so not right, it was killing children for God's sake! Sorry...but um so...um." She sighed.
"What? What happened?" Oscar asked.
Sorrow sighed again. "Dis guy who owned dis orphanage owed Giovanni money from a gambling debt and he wanted us ta boin da place down." She shook her head. "Yeah I know part of the job." She said bitterly.
"Ya, part of da job," he repeated. "Well, maybe you just weren't made out ta be doin stuff like dat," he suggested, feeling two things at the same time. If it were him he would have done it, no arguments, but he could understand that she wasn't that way.
Sorrow sighed, she had vainly hoped he didn't feel like that, but he did. "Well," she continued. "First off what was there for us to do? I mean... and I mean I'se kept t'inking what if one of dose children had been me? Or da ones I grew up with?! What if they had parents dat put dem dere only cause dey couldn't afford dem. What if someone did it to my child! well I guess dey felt da same way sorta I dunno. But we told him we couldn't. Not something like that."
Oscar sighed. "I guess I can kinda understand your point. Ya still should've known dat it's not good ta say no to Blade," he said.
Sorrow rolled her eyes. "Yeah I know. But I didn't...we didn't...no one really knew how he worked! Not back den!"
Oscar nodded again. "So what happened aftah dat? Why'd he do away wit Mountie?" he asked.
"Because he told him no. That we couldn't kill innocent children. That we could do nearly anything but that. NO he didn't plead about it, like Blade will tell you. One of his dead employees told us. Of course he wasn't dead when he told us. He said dat Mountie came in told him we couldn't do dat. That we wouldn't do dat. Blade didn't give him a.." She tried not to swear cause when she did it only made her more angry. "chance to explain...or to say anything else! he just slit his throat and tossed him in a dark alley far away form Little Italy!"
"What's da deal dough? I mean, I can imagine bein a little upset, but why are ya dis upset?" Oscar asked.
Sorrow stared at him. "Why?! He was my first love! That's why!" She said moving away from him on the couch.
Oscar's mouth dropped. "So dat's why you're always talkin about him!" he said, the sound of a little bit of jealousy in his voice. "Why do ya think Blade didn't give him a chance ta explain?" he asked her.
Sorrow shook her head. "I don't know! I mean I've been trying ta figuah dat out for years!" She gulped. "Da questions been plaguing me for yeahs.." She said.
Oscar wanted to hold her, seeing her so distraught, but he also felt a bit uncomfortable. After all, she was talking about someone who was her first love, and the thought that he still might've had her if he was alive wouldn't leave him alone.
Sorrow slowly looked up at him. "Did you want to know anymore?' She asked quietly.
Oscar studied her a bit, and then nodded. She took a deep breath. "Well um I guess first did you know you knew Ani, um is or was his sister right?"
Oscar's eyebrows raised. "Mozzoli? Dat's his sistah? I guess I aint nevah caught his last name," he said.
Sorrow slowly nodded. "Yeah...he never really let it out, neither did she until aftah his death." She sighed.
"So is dat how you and her got so close?" Oscar asked. "Cuz ya were goin out wit her bruddah? Or didja know her before him?"
Sorrow sighed. "Um dat's how we go close. He sorta brought me to LI. I used to live in any place I could hid from da bulls aftah I ran from da orphanage."
Oscar looked up at her. It was all becoming a little clearer now.
"Well da guy came to us about 6 months latah and we had been suspecting Giovanni had something to do wid it cause it was sorta in his style though he really didn't have one den but he confirmed our suspicions." She took a deep breath. "We told some people and it got back to da bulls. He caught wind of it and conveniently let them know not that we had been INVOLVED with some of the stuff but had done it on our own. Well let's just say Ani and a couple of uddahs escaped dem but I didn't..."
Oscar nodded "What happened when you were in da refuge?"
Sorrow sighed. "Yeah dis was my foist time in da refuge. I was really scared and stuff...." her voice trailed off.
"What happened dere?" he asked softly.
Sorrow closed her eyes and took another deep breath. "Well while I was dere Snyder's nephew was woiking for him and I had hoid rumahs about him doing things to da uddah goils. He always seemed really nice to me, unlike his uncle. But one day, he had me bring him his lunch..." she shuddered at the thought of what followed.
Oscar closed his eyes for a moment, then reopened them. "What happened?" he asked.
Sorrow looked back up at him. "He stood up from his chair, walking over he took da tray from me hands setting it on the desk. I didn't know what was going on so I didn't move.' She gulped. "He suddenly pushed me against the wall, really hard, and started to kiss me.." She closed her eyes tightly, putting her head in her hands.
"Den what happened aftah dat?" Oscar asked, not really wanting to know but needing to.
She pulled her head up and squeezed her eyes shut. "He started to feel around on me, grabbing my chest, putting his....I'm sorry I'm gonna be sick." She said quickly standing up. Oscar could feel fury building inside him. He watched her as she stood up.
Sorrow quickly wiped her eyes and sat back down. "He didn't get all da way, I kneed him, pulling out from under him. I grabbed his keys from the waist of his pants and got out of there as fast as I could. It was more easy den you'ld think, dey didn't watch ya too much sometimes. When I...got out I... tossed the keys by the gate once I was completely out."
Oscar looked at Sorrow with concern in his eyes. "I'se sorry ya had ta experience dat," he said.
Sorrow sighed and nodded. "Yeah...but." She sighed. "did you want to hear more is dat enough?"
Oscar looked into her eyes. "I wanna know da whole story," he said, keeping his gaze on her.
Sorrow nodded." Okay. Well um I was on da streets for about 3 days or so and den da bulls finally caught me taking me back in. I was in solitary for about 3 weeks and den dat's when I met you..." She smiled.
Oscar smiled also. "Yeah, I remembah dat. Who would've known dat Uncle Wease draggin me wit him dat day would be such a good thing? I knew I liked ya from da start," Oscar added.
Sorrow blushed a bit and looked up. "Yeah it was a wonderful thing. The most wonderful thing that's evah happened to me." She giggled. "So you really did?"
Oscar nodded. "Of coise! From da moment I laid eyes on ya! I knew you were special," he said.
Sorrow gently put her arms around him. "And I you. Even though they were saying all dat stuff about you to each other while you were dere."
Oscar shrugged. "What can I say? I'se got meself a little reputation."
Sorrow nodded."yeah well I didn't care either. You were just too...hmmm." She sighed
"Too what?" he asked.
Sorrow smiled at him. "You were so beautiful, I know that sounds nuts but you were, I don't' know how explain how I felt."
Oscar stroked her hair. "I think I can understand whatcha felt. I feel da same about you," he said softly.
Sorrow grinned and leaned closer to him. "Wow..." She said softly kissing him on the lips.
Oscar smiled to himself as he kissed her back. He looked lovingly into her eyes again. "I love you so much," he said.
Sorrow stared back into his eyes. "I love you too!" She said scooting closer to him.
Oscar sighed, forgetting about any pain he felt from the previous day. He was just glad to have Sorrow with him like this.
Sorrow put her head softly against this shoulder, grabbing a hold of his hand, gently caressing it. she looked up and smiled at him.
Oscar returned the smile. "Feel good ta get dat off ya chest?" he asked, nuzzling her head a little.
Sorrow nodded. "Yeah it does. It shoah does."
Sorrow looked over at him and sighed. "About what?" She asked.
Oscar nodded. "Dat's me goil," he said. He opened his mouth to say something else, then shut it realizing he didn't know what he should say.
Sorrow sighed again sitting next to him. "No I really meant what...I mean there's a lot of things." she said.
"Everything. Just, everything," he said with a sigh. "Ya can't tell about Blade or me bein wit him or anythin like dat."
Sorrow gulped. "I wont." She said. "I wont." She was trying not to cry.
Oscar put his arms around her best he could. "What exactly didja do for him? I nevah did get da whole story," he asked her softly.
Sorrow felt a little bit safe in his arms, the fact that just weeks before he had murdered a girl slipping out of her mind. She sighed. "Don't tell...please..."
"Now of course I'd nevah tell. I know how dose things woik," he said reassuringly.
Sorrow nodded. 'Okay...um it's kind of long and stuff...I don't want you getting mad at me neitha!"
"I wont get mad at ya, I promise," Oscar said, rubbing her back softly.
Sorrow sighed. "Okay back when I was younger and it was basically just me, Ani and Mountie, dere were uddahs but we really nevah associated much wid dem. Well we weren't making much money selling papes and stuff, we had to run da lH by ourselves more or less. Well someone I can't even remembah who it was set us up wid dis guy who was lookin' for some I guess you'ld say "boids"...."
"None of us knew what we to expect, we just well thought it was a pretty good idea. I mean we grew up wid dat stuff why should it be any different now?" Her bottom lip started to tremble a bit.
Oscar nodded. "It's alright," he said softly as he continued rubbing her back.
"Well um we started to do stuff for him and stuff well den aftah a while he wanted us to do something there was no way we could do, I mean it was so not right, it was killing children for God's sake! Sorry...but um so...um." She sighed.
"What? What happened?" Oscar asked.
Sorrow sighed again. "Dis guy who owned dis orphanage owed Giovanni money from a gambling debt and he wanted us ta boin da place down." She shook her head. "Yeah I know part of the job." She said bitterly.
"Ya, part of da job," he repeated. "Well, maybe you just weren't made out ta be doin stuff like dat," he suggested, feeling two things at the same time. If it were him he would have done it, no arguments, but he could understand that she wasn't that way.
Sorrow sighed, she had vainly hoped he didn't feel like that, but he did. "Well," she continued. "First off what was there for us to do? I mean... and I mean I'se kept t'inking what if one of dose children had been me? Or da ones I grew up with?! What if they had parents dat put dem dere only cause dey couldn't afford dem. What if someone did it to my child! well I guess dey felt da same way sorta I dunno. But we told him we couldn't. Not something like that."
Oscar sighed. "I guess I can kinda understand your point. Ya still should've known dat it's not good ta say no to Blade," he said.
Sorrow rolled her eyes. "Yeah I know. But I didn't...we didn't...no one really knew how he worked! Not back den!"
Oscar nodded again. "So what happened aftah dat? Why'd he do away wit Mountie?" he asked.
"Because he told him no. That we couldn't kill innocent children. That we could do nearly anything but that. NO he didn't plead about it, like Blade will tell you. One of his dead employees told us. Of course he wasn't dead when he told us. He said dat Mountie came in told him we couldn't do dat. That we wouldn't do dat. Blade didn't give him a.." She tried not to swear cause when she did it only made her more angry. "chance to explain...or to say anything else! he just slit his throat and tossed him in a dark alley far away form Little Italy!"
"What's da deal dough? I mean, I can imagine bein a little upset, but why are ya dis upset?" Oscar asked.
Sorrow stared at him. "Why?! He was my first love! That's why!" She said moving away from him on the couch.
Oscar's mouth dropped. "So dat's why you're always talkin about him!" he said, the sound of a little bit of jealousy in his voice. "Why do ya think Blade didn't give him a chance ta explain?" he asked her.
Sorrow shook her head. "I don't know! I mean I've been trying ta figuah dat out for years!" She gulped. "Da questions been plaguing me for yeahs.." She said.
Oscar wanted to hold her, seeing her so distraught, but he also felt a bit uncomfortable. After all, she was talking about someone who was her first love, and the thought that he still might've had her if he was alive wouldn't leave him alone.
Sorrow slowly looked up at him. "Did you want to know anymore?' She asked quietly.
Oscar studied her a bit, and then nodded. She took a deep breath. "Well um I guess first did you know you knew Ani, um is or was his sister right?"
Oscar's eyebrows raised. "Mozzoli? Dat's his sistah? I guess I aint nevah caught his last name," he said.
Sorrow slowly nodded. "Yeah...he never really let it out, neither did she until aftah his death." She sighed.
"So is dat how you and her got so close?" Oscar asked. "Cuz ya were goin out wit her bruddah? Or didja know her before him?"
Sorrow sighed. "Um dat's how we go close. He sorta brought me to LI. I used to live in any place I could hid from da bulls aftah I ran from da orphanage."
Oscar looked up at her. It was all becoming a little clearer now.
"Well da guy came to us about 6 months latah and we had been suspecting Giovanni had something to do wid it cause it was sorta in his style though he really didn't have one den but he confirmed our suspicions." She took a deep breath. "We told some people and it got back to da bulls. He caught wind of it and conveniently let them know not that we had been INVOLVED with some of the stuff but had done it on our own. Well let's just say Ani and a couple of uddahs escaped dem but I didn't..."
Oscar nodded "What happened when you were in da refuge?"
Sorrow sighed. "Yeah dis was my foist time in da refuge. I was really scared and stuff...." her voice trailed off.
"What happened dere?" he asked softly.
Sorrow closed her eyes and took another deep breath. "Well while I was dere Snyder's nephew was woiking for him and I had hoid rumahs about him doing things to da uddah goils. He always seemed really nice to me, unlike his uncle. But one day, he had me bring him his lunch..." she shuddered at the thought of what followed.
Oscar closed his eyes for a moment, then reopened them. "What happened?" he asked.
Sorrow looked back up at him. "He stood up from his chair, walking over he took da tray from me hands setting it on the desk. I didn't know what was going on so I didn't move.' She gulped. "He suddenly pushed me against the wall, really hard, and started to kiss me.." She closed her eyes tightly, putting her head in her hands.
"Den what happened aftah dat?" Oscar asked, not really wanting to know but needing to.
She pulled her head up and squeezed her eyes shut. "He started to feel around on me, grabbing my chest, putting his....I'm sorry I'm gonna be sick." She said quickly standing up. Oscar could feel fury building inside him. He watched her as she stood up.
Sorrow quickly wiped her eyes and sat back down. "He didn't get all da way, I kneed him, pulling out from under him. I grabbed his keys from the waist of his pants and got out of there as fast as I could. It was more easy den you'ld think, dey didn't watch ya too much sometimes. When I...got out I... tossed the keys by the gate once I was completely out."
Oscar looked at Sorrow with concern in his eyes. "I'se sorry ya had ta experience dat," he said.
Sorrow sighed and nodded. "Yeah...but." She sighed. "did you want to hear more is dat enough?"
Oscar looked into her eyes. "I wanna know da whole story," he said, keeping his gaze on her.
Sorrow nodded." Okay. Well um I was on da streets for about 3 days or so and den da bulls finally caught me taking me back in. I was in solitary for about 3 weeks and den dat's when I met you..." She smiled.
Oscar smiled also. "Yeah, I remembah dat. Who would've known dat Uncle Wease draggin me wit him dat day would be such a good thing? I knew I liked ya from da start," Oscar added.
Sorrow blushed a bit and looked up. "Yeah it was a wonderful thing. The most wonderful thing that's evah happened to me." She giggled. "So you really did?"
Oscar nodded. "Of coise! From da moment I laid eyes on ya! I knew you were special," he said.
Sorrow gently put her arms around him. "And I you. Even though they were saying all dat stuff about you to each other while you were dere."
Oscar shrugged. "What can I say? I'se got meself a little reputation."
Sorrow nodded."yeah well I didn't care either. You were just too...hmmm." She sighed
"Too what?" he asked.
Sorrow smiled at him. "You were so beautiful, I know that sounds nuts but you were, I don't' know how explain how I felt."
Oscar stroked her hair. "I think I can understand whatcha felt. I feel da same about you," he said softly.
Sorrow grinned and leaned closer to him. "Wow..." She said softly kissing him on the lips.
Oscar smiled to himself as he kissed her back. He looked lovingly into her eyes again. "I love you so much," he said.
Sorrow stared back into his eyes. "I love you too!" She said scooting closer to him.
Oscar sighed, forgetting about any pain he felt from the previous day. He was just glad to have Sorrow with him like this.
Sorrow put her head softly against this shoulder, grabbing a hold of his hand, gently caressing it. she looked up and smiled at him.
Oscar returned the smile. "Feel good ta get dat off ya chest?" he asked, nuzzling her head a little.
Sorrow nodded. "Yeah it does. It shoah does."