Ok it's all revised now. Again if it isn't easy to read please say. Off we go again.
My name in there was Jasmine Mary Fellows." She takes a breath before going on, this is making me nervous but I don't interrupt "Your name was Helena Hope Fellows"……
I look at her for a moment.
"I'm thinking this isn't just a coincidence is it?" I ask and she shakes her head "Are we um some kind of sisters?" I'm hesitant because I can't remember anything but hang on, (maths work here) I would have been 2 or possibly 3 when she was taken out. Also because my new whatever type of sister she is to me doesn't seem too be all that thrilled with the idea. I however am thrilled I always wanted a sibling and one that is as cool as Trinity. I don't want her love me at this precise second I want her to talk, she's just sitting there. She finally does.
"We are real sisters inside there" she looks at me I'm trying to hide the excitement in my eyes but I can't help it. Think of it this way you don't remember any of your family you've had to learn to survive in a place where you could easily be killed most days from the age of, well I know, 9. I mean come on wouldn't you have loved even the prospect of having a bit of family, come on, I should stop saying come on now. Anyway, I'm trying to hide this from her but I think she sees through it. Seeing as she just smiles a fake smile at me. "But I don't know what we are here" she looks at me "Do you see?"
I nod thinking then say "I think we can be whatever we want to be" I sit up "Do you remember me when I was small?" she smiles.
"Yeah I was the one that had to look after you most of the time as our parents were working most of the time."
"Do I have any other siblings?" I ask, don't sound so excited Jesus.
"Yes you have three brothers" she laughs "I was quite glad when you were born to have another girl around apart from Mother she was an interesting person, odd is what I would call her." I smile.
"What were they called?" Stop being so curious.
"Ben, 1 year younger than me, Dan 5 years younger and Felix 4 years older than you. Our parents names were Kim and Thomas." I see a flicker of pain in her eyes I put a hand tentatively on her shoulder again scared she might eat me or something. "I'm ok. They tried to be good parents but they weren't they did their best they were very young and had no idea how to raise a child. They loved us, well tried to, though which was the main thing."
"Um Trinity" I say, just say it for gods sake then you might get some sleep sometime tonight "I would like us to be something like a family, sisters I mean if it is possible. I've kind of had no one and no way of making my life any better for the last…well since I can remember. I haven't been able to trust anyone for so long and I want to trust someone who would have been my sister. This is a suggestion and I don't mind if you don't want to I just thought I'd better voice an opinion" I stumble to a halt. She just looks surprised. She looks uncertain too and I didn't think I would see that on her face. I've just made a huge mistake "I'm sorry" I whisper then get up and run out not caring about anything. I slowed to a walk once I reached the and I try to find my way to the cock pit. I find it quite quickly. Morpheus' is at the controls and not really seeming to be doing much. He turns as I walk in.
"Do you like the name Runner?" he asks out of the blue.
"What?" then I thought I didn't care what I was called out there as long as they didn't hurt me "Well I didn't really care I didn't think I would live that long anyway so I took whatever name they gave me."
"You know you don't have to be called that anymore don't you?" I nod slowly "Did you have any other names?"
"Yeah she used to call me Little One and some used to call me Sprint and the other was.." what was it think "Aduro that's it".
"Aduro" he says "That's light isn't it?" he asks. I shrug. "Well I think it is. Who called you that?"
"Umm a woman I met once or twice she called me that and said I was that then she ruffled my bloody hair and walked away." I say trying to remember.
"Well, well" he says "Do you want to know your matrix name if you don't remember it?" he asks looking at me.
"I know it" I can't meet his gaze and I look out of the large window at the front.
"She-" he starts but I don't want to talk about it.
"What are we in?" I cut him off still staring out of the window.
"You have…"
"No I don't" I say still not having looked at him I can feel tears in my eyes but I can mask my emotions better than most. I let my face harden and I stare out.
"We're in the sewers of the old cities" he says finally having sensed that I didn't want to talk. I silently thank him. He starts to show me the controls of the ship and let me have a, very tentative on my part, go. He seems pleased that I don't crash into anything then he takes back control but lets me stay in there. I'm sitting in the seat with my knees up curled up and looking out of the window.
"Sleep" he says gently "You're safe here I'll take you back to your room once I finish my shift. You have training tomorrow." I nod slowly "You know you've been running as long as you can remember, you have to stop sometime" I look at him trying to make him shut up.
"Yeah I know and now isn't the time" I say coldly then turn away from him and stare out again even though there is hardly anything to see. So I close my eyes trying to stop the tears. I can feel him looking at me but I keep my eyes closed and I fall asleep.
TBC
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