Listen, Romance for me sucks. I tried once doing a big fat stupidly obvious romance in one of my stories. And looking back on it was cheesy. Thats why I'm going to revamp the whole thing. So if anyone is sad that there has been a low amount of romance in this story I'm sorry. However I do have a way around it. From now on I never have the characters kiss. I wait for a long dragged out amount of time to build the relationship and then I eventually let it spring forth. Thats why you shouldn't expect a makeout scene at the end. I'm sorry to dissapoint but that the way it is.

Also Red X makes his appearance, and I think I did a pretty good job with him

Disclaimer: Titans and Red X don't belong to me. The Raptors and Mutants do. Thats it I'm copying and pastin g from now on.

Chapter 13: Memory Sharing and Red VS Red

The roof of Titans tower is NOT a parking space, but the Raptors had made due with what they had. The roof was large enough to hold several transport choppers. Although most were alterating with the carrier and the tower for supplies and troops it still made a decent landing zone. And even with its newest residents being a tools of war, the tower's view from the roof was still rather peaceful, if somewhat a little clogged when view from the wrong angle. Ever since the titans had gotten back Robin, Cyborg and Recon were all busy searching for any nearby Xinothium cores. So far they had gotten nothing and had pretty much given up for the night, except Robin of course who knew he'd find it sooner or later. Starfire had been treating the Turaguts to more of her alien deliquecies and recipies to her Raptorian friends the Turaguts. In all the Raptors that had moved onto the island had grown a taste for Starfire's foods. Obviously Starfire was rather pleased that more people, well lizards actually, had taken a liking to her particualr taste in food. Perhaps it was because Raptors have different tastes then humans. Still it didn't stop Starfire from conversing with her new friends about their lives in Raptoria, their adventures and vice versa for Starfire. Perhaps some of the Raptors had a crush on Starfire, it was only natural since most of them were young adults. When they weren't talking with Starfire the Raptors were playing games with Cyborg, Beastboy or each other. The Gamestaion was really starting to get some real use out of it. To be fair though the tower was rather crowded at the moment and it was hard trying to work with all the new residents inside. Robin was beginning to think that if he ever wanted to start a more exclusive groupo of Teen superheroes he would need a bigger tower or perhaps more towers. He was unsure. As for Raven she had spent most of her time in the one room that was off limits to Raptors, hers. Although she may have had to share it when they need a place to sleep as long as she was awake they weren't getting in. She still had privacy standards. Her and Beastboy hadn't had much time to talk about Ryan's condition since they got home. Beastboy did tell her however to be careful for Aleksander and his ever growing desire to drink her blood. However, she doubted that the vampiric Colonel still had enough Gray Matter left to think up a plan of actually getting his drink from her. That didn't mean Raven wasn't afraid of him, she was, but she wasn't to afraid of getting caught by him. For now she decided to do a little Star-gazing on the roof, see if she get some meditation done. However she was kinda hoping something would come along to help her break that part of her routine. Eventually something like that did. A familar voice echoed through the evening air and enetered Raven's ears.

"Hey Raven." Beastboy's voice said from behind her.

Sure enough there he was walking up to sit beside her. She didn't say much until he sat down.

"How'd you figure I was up here?" She asked

"Well it is your second favourite spot," Beastboy explained "nest to you room of course. That and its easy to find you when you can sorta locate each others brainwaves." Beastboy said this while knocking his noggin. Raven sorta chuckled at this.

"So why'd you want to see me?" She asked

"I never really told you what Ryan talked to me about with me in the theatre." Beastboy explained

"Ah yes, sorry I never gave you a chance." Raven said "But I was still trying to deal with all that happened today. Especially the fact that theres a loony Russian dinosaur General out there trying to make a bomb and another even loonier dino-bat trying to suck me dry."

"Yeah, sorry about that." Beastboy apologized rubbing the back of his neck

"Its okay," Raven assured "things like this always seem to happen to us. I've gotten use to it."

"Sure does." Beastboy acknowledged "Still somethings you don;t get used to. Like goo-monsters that spew their junk on you."

Raven chuckled lightly at this

"Good point."

"So," Beastboy said clapping his hands together "lets get down to bussiness." Would you like me to tell you the whole thing or would it better if I showed? You said we could share memories with this mind bridge."

"I'd like to see Ryan's face when he's talking." said Raven "Otherwise I can't make a good guess as to what he's talking about. So showing me a memory would be a good idea."

"Okay then." Beastboy said breathing in deeply and closing his eyes. He held this pose for several seconds and then opened on of his eyes "Um, how do I do that?"

Raven rolled her eyes.

"You're the same as ever." She told him "Okay just focus on the memory you want me to see and I'll be able to focus on tha precise moment in time. You can do that right?"

"Simple, I can be focused when I want to."

"Do you always have to 'want' to be something before you can do it?" Raven asked him with a rasied eyebrow

"You can read my mind Rae you tell me." Beastboy said back

Raven stared at him for a few second with a blank expression on her face. Obviously reading his mind for an answer. It took her awhile to get the full gist of what Beastboy was thinking. Not because he had a slow brain, but because he had an interesting answer regarding why he did things when he wanted them. The short answer of it all was, "If I do too many things that aren't normal for me at once, I don't really know who I am anymore." Raven finally broke her silence.

"You're a very complicated person under there aren't you?"

Beastboy smirked

"Well maybe if you ever want to you can come into my brain and find out."

"Very funny." Raven said sarcastically "Can we get back to Ryan's little speech please?"

"Fine," Beastboy smiled "bussiness before pleasure."

"Way before." Raven emphasized

So Beastboy concentrated on his conversation with Ryan in the theatre. It was easy, because when you heard the way the Raptor talked about it was something you never forget. Not even in your darkest nightmares. And soon Raven would know this as well. The memory sharing process felt rather pleasant, between the two heroes minds, as it began even. Like a nice cool breeze on eachother's faces. Though in truth it really wasn't going to be a plesant memory. The memory slowly came into focus in Raven's mind. Out of what seemed to be thick layer of white fog came Ryan's face and his voice...and his speech about death.

The Jump City Museum holds several valuable artifacts inside its walls. Including one extremely priceless Japanese Jade Sword. After many centuries this peice of Japanese warfare was considered worth 10 thousand dollars. And this made it the perfect target for one very determined theif who was having a major shopping spree since Jump City got invaded by the Mutants. Red X had already broken his way in through a sky light and was now working on the lock to the display case where sword and its holster were kept. Without either the sword or its holster the weapon was rather incomplete. So Red X would need them both. He had already stacked his hideout with a lot veneralbe loot since this crisis began. Too many people fighting each other to notice a few missing Stereos and TVs, and some Gold Records, and some money from the blown out armoured car, and some priceless jewels, etc. etc etc. Its easy to say Red X had been having a field day. And as soon as thei whole crisis was over he was going to hit paydirt. His only obstacle before he called it a night was a god forsaken five peice custom made lock. Which wasn't entirely impossible to crack. Soon the familar click sound of the final lock was heard and finally Red X had his prize. The Jade Sword was his. A quick stuff into its holster and it securely fastened to his back, Red X made his way out the way he came. No Alarms, no guards, no problems. Everything had gone according to plan. Except, nothing ever does. As soon as the Red X set foot on the the museum's roof he heard several cocking guns behind him. He turned to see a three whole squad of those invading gas mask wearing mutants aiming straight at them.

"Darn, if isn't those Superhero kids it something else." Red X muttered to himself.

Appearing from between the three squad of mutants, 12 in all, were two figures. One a Lizard with a half gas mask on his face, six limbs and anttena sticking out of his head, the other a more bulkier reptile with a club tail, a broad head, a two legs that looked like they came off a two legged meat eater and a General's hat and uniform.

"Mr. Red X, I presume." The one in the General's hat said to the thief

"Sorry, you caught in the middle of my job." Red X informed "Who are you exactly?"

"My name is General Karvisko of the Mutentican's People Army." He said "Or I would be if the Mutentican's army was Socialist still."

"Well that too bad for you sir." said Red X "To tell you the truth though I don't understand why such a big high-ranking fellow like you would want to talk to me a low life theif."

"I require your assitance in little plan I have in store." Karvisko told him

Red X just puffed at the assumed offer.

"Sorry, I don't do jobs for people who invade my hometown. Even if the money is good. You guys attacked my favourite movie theatre. You know how long it gonna take to ge tthe bullet smoke smell out of Superplex's popcorn? Months!"

"Typical selfish American," Karvisko frowned "never considering to help others. Always only thinking about yourselves and gain more pocket cash. Then again aren't all theives like you capitalists in your own right."

X just continued to nod at the mutant

"Yeah, yeah, listen is this gonna turn into some stupid Socialist preaching class, cause if I wanted that I'd have stayed in College. Left after a few years, had some wild parties though."

Karvisko just sighed deeply

"Very well, I'll get to the chase then. you have something I want."

X clutched at his jade sword on his back

"No way pal, this my sword now. you should have got here earlier you practically had two days already!"

"Not that useless triquite on your back you fool!" Karvisko shouted

"Useless? Don't you know anything about priceless artifacts?" Red X asked in amazement "Well, neither do I but I only really cared about how much they worth anyway, so I guess that shouldn't matter."

"Just shut up!" Karvisko yelled "I want your belt you idiot!"

Red X's eyes in his mask widened

"My belt?"

"More specifically it Xinothium based power core." Karvisko told him

Red X was even more surprised at this statement

"Whoa, whoa, hold on dino-breath. You do know what Xinothium is right?" Red X asked

"Its a highly unstable element used in extremely dangerous weapons and is pretty much outlawed for any destructive use." Karvisko informned X

"So you know how extremely volatile this core is don't you?" Red X asked

"Yes that's why I want it." Karvisko explained

Red X looked at his belt and then back at the General

"You thinking about making a weapon with it huh?" Red X asked "Some kinda super grand scheme? Put Communism back on the map?"

"Why do you care?" Karvisko asked "You're a theif, you only care about how much you gain for yourself. Have you ever done anything someone else?"

"Okay," Red X explained holding out one finger "first off. I don't really have anybody I would like to share my spoils with and second of at least I don't have plans about using belt to blow stuff up for crazy causes. I'm pretty much content with just making an easy cash living."

Karvisko's men pointed their guns straight at Red X once more

"I don't care what you think of my cause capitalist," Karvisko told X "I need that belt."

"Sorry," X replied "but I don't help nut job rogue armies, that and I need this thing for my job."

"Either hand me the belt or I will rip it off of your corpse." Karvisko said as his soldiers armed their weapons at X. Then Karvisko's frown turned into a smile "On second thought, I'll just do latter anyway. Kill him!"

The Mutants opened fire on Red X, but the thief dodged their bullet as he swung across the rooftop of the museum. The Mutants charged, but Red X was ready for them. He lauched several X shurikens at the mutants, knocking their guns out of their hands. Two other that hand avoided the intial attack recieved a double roundhouse kick to both their faces. One mutant rushed X with a machete but the theif fired a sticky X net and caught the mutant moments before they collided. The mutant thrived on the ground trying to escape his prison

"So much for boot camp training huh guys?" X mocked

Another mutant rushed with a bayonet from behind but X fliped up on his arms and caught the mutant with his legs. Then he completed the flip and pushed himself off the back of the mutant. The dinosaur hybrid careened acrosds the rooftop and slammed right into an air vent. More Mutants attacked but X threw an explosive X--bomb at them and jump away. The charging mutants retreated and X started to jump away from them on the rooftops. Karvisko however wasn't detered. He simply turned to his insectoid companion.

"Cockroach." He ordered "Bring me the belt, by any means nessecary."

Cockroach opened up his buzzing little wings and began to hop across the rooftops after X. Karvisko smiled, the belt would be his, one way or another.

The memory soon ended and Raven was left in awe of it all. She suspected Ryan had problem but she never expected that!

"That was creepy." Raven said rubbing her head

"How creepy?" Beastboy asked

"On a scale of 1 to 10," Raven started "creepier then any of my books."

"So an 11?" Beastboy asked hesitantly

"Pretty much." Raven acknowledged trying not to laugh an dget her question out "Anyway what did you think of it first time you heard it?"

Beastboy scratched his head

"I kinda thought about what Recon said," Beastboy explained "he was probably having a mood swing. One minute he's all serious, the next he starts acting like his little speech is a funny fishing story."

"I noticed that too." Raven acknowledged "He has a very complex view of the world, especially when it comes to justice. You heard what he said to Robin."

"Judge, jury, executioner." Beastboy said counting off the titles on his fingers "He likes to solve problems his way and no one elses."

"Basically killing off the problem." Raven added

"He also didn't sound like he was afraid of death at all." Beastboy continued "Almost like he was ready for it."

"He did didn't he?" Raven complied "I suppose it would have something to do with his insanity since he explained why it made him a better soldier. He does things others would never want to do. He takes jobs where no one expects him to survive."

"But he does." Beastboy told her "He rode a crashing blimp for the love of god."

"How can someone whose judgement is impaired enough that he names his chainsaw be good enough to avoid getting killed?" Raven asked

"You think it has something to do with the fact he likes his job a lot more then he should?" Beastboy wondered

Raven suddenly had a lightbulb go off

"Beastboy you're a genius."

"I am?" The changling wondered in astonishment

"Ryan loves war." Raven told him "Thats the reason he became a soldier he loves war. He like fighting, he likes killing and the army is pretty much the only place where he is allowed to do it."

"Otherwise he'd already have gotten the chair." Beastboy added

"Exactly." Raven acknowledged "Except he kills those he obviously concives as evil people, corrupt people, ones he doesn't think should live. And he uses war as a way of accomplishing that. Beastboy, he's addicted to stopping bad guys, really bad guys. He already said he killed dictators and Vicious Jungle guerrillas. War brings out the worst in people and that means he gets to kill the worst in people."

"But war killed his parents didn't it?" Beastboy asked

"Not the way Ryan sees it." Raven explained "He sees it as an evil person killed his parents. And he now wants to destroy that evil, most likely so it never happens to somebody else ever again."

"But losing your parents wouldn't make you go insane so quickly." Beastboy told her

"Remember the memories we saw in his mind?" Raven reminded him "Those were all the things that compressed and built themselves up into Ryan's mind. He hid them away and tried to forget them because he knew he couldn't change them. He must of snapped, I don't know how, I don't know why, I don't know when, but there must of been some point where Ryan just couldn't hold those memories in anymore."

Beastboy scratched his chin a little, trying to think. Then it hit him.

"Los Angeles," Beastboy exclaimed "it must of been in Los Angeles! He must of taken out his anger on everyone in the city he saw as a bad guy and went ballistic."

"See you are a genius." Raven complimented

"Now I wouldn't say that." Beastboy said attempting to be modest

"All we have to do is get Ryan to reveal what happen in Los Angeles." Raven explained "Question is how?"

"Well all those dead pople on the streets wouldn't be easy for anyone to keep out of the news," Beastboy suggested "so maybe that's our answer."

"I could do some research about any mass murders that happened in Los Angeles." said Raven

"Great."

Beastboy was feeling pretty proud of himself for the moment, he had almost forgotten that he had anything else to talk about.

"So, is there anything else we have left to discuss?" Raven asked

Well, almost.

"Actually," Beastboy admitted "yeah there is."

Raven listened intently

"When the chopper had crashed and the Mutants were storming the Superplex I was kinda thinking about how I might not make it out alive." Beastboy began, trying to sound as serious as he could. He still came across as childlike however. "I've never really thought about stuff like that when I go out on missions."

"You usually don't have mentaly psychotic dinosaurs talking to you about death often." Raven told him, trying to make things easier for him.

"Yeah, good point." Beastboy replied "Anyway, after we got out of that theatre I couldn't help but think about how I would have felt about it all if I knew I was going to die and there was nothing I could really do about it. Kinda like my parents."

"What?" Raven asked

"I want to show you something that I've never told anyone, at least no one in Titans Tower and Jump City. But it isn't very good."

"Go ahead." Raven said as she waited for Beastboy to concentrate on the memory.

The same feeling of a calm cool breeze fell over the two. Pretty soon the fog that appeared in each other's minds eyes dissapeared. Raven was now looking at what appeared to be a small river boat in the middle of the jungle. Kinda like the ride at that Amusemant park in Orlando. On the boat were two people, a man and a woman. The man was piloting the boat while the woman was apparently sitting next to Raven, or more apporiately Beastboy because this was of course his memory being seen through his eyes. Raven saw beastboy look over the side of the boat a long with the woman he was with. But Raven saw through Beastboy's eyes was a different reflection in the water. Beastboy looked like he was now except somewhat younger, like at the age of seven. Obviously this was after he had gotten his powers. If Beastboy wasn't even a teenager yet then these two people must of been his parents. Raven remembered something Beastboy said in her mind about a boat and a waterfall...and then he blurted out suddenly that he figured out Ryan's parents were dead. Raven didn't like what her mind had come up with. Suddenly the boat began to sputter. The motor had apparently gone out. The man went back to check on what exactly was happening, but in his haste he accidently spun the boat into a rock's direction. The boat collided with the rock suddenly and knocked itself sideways. It began to skid across the hard surface of the rock and there was nothing the man could do to stop it. He tried to steer away off the rock but as he did there a large snapping sound. He ran back to other end of the boat, called out that 'The Rudder was out' and pointed up ahead. Beastboy's, and Raven's eyes turned to the general direction of his finger and saw a waterfall approaching quickly. The motor suddenly came back to life and propelled the ship at full speed towards the waterfall. The crushing wall of water would demolish the tiny ship and everyone on it. There was nothing the two adults could to stop the boat. The woman faced straight into Beastboy's eyes and told him to 'Fly away' Beastboy's head shook somewhat but the mother told him once again even louder this time to fly away and leave her behind. She added 'Please listen to mommy, fly away.' Finally Beastboy did as he was told and the next thing Raven knew they were flying into the air. Beastboy looked back at the ship just in time to see it envelopped by the wall of water. That's when the memory ended and Raven suddenly came out of it. She was now back on Titans Tower looking at Beastboy.

"I told you it wasn't good." Beastboy said solemnly looking down at the floor

Raven now understood why Beastboy didn't want to tell her exactly what he was talking about with the boat and the waterfall. Like Ryan, he had also lost both of his parents.

"I didn't know Beastboy," she said "I'm sorry for bringing it up."

"No its okay." Beastboy assured "I guess I needed to share it with someone here."

"Well, why did it take you so long?" Raven asked

"What? And make everyone feel sorry for me?" Beastboy retorted "It would only bring people down. Thats not me Rae. The fact I lost my parents is sad and I've never really gotten over it. I mean how could you? At first I tried to blame myself for not trying to save them, then I blamed the rock, the engine, the waterfall. I was angry at myself everyone else. Eventually I realized that no one was to blame. It happened, it was an accident. There was no reason to feel sorry for myself or get angry at anyone." Beastboy turned to face the water in the bay of the city. "Do you ever wonder why I tell jokes Raven?"

She shook her head

"Cause a lot of bad things have happened over the years, I've lost friends and family and felt alienated and alone a lot of times. Mostly it was because of the green skin. Eventually though, like five seconds after I realized I could change into animals, I came to love my powers. Who wouldn't like to change into an animal whenever they wanted? It never stopped being cool and never seemed mundane to me at all. I love being a superhero Rae, I love helping people and especially like to make them laugh. I figure that if I make them laugh they'll be happy and if they're happy then there no reason for me to be sad so it makes me happy. Think of it as a way of dealing with mine and everyone elses everyday problems, especially with being a kid with green skin."

Raven smiled, there really was a lot more to Beastboy then met the eye. Even with the fact that his parents had died he didn't want it to bring him down for the rest of his life. And he didn't tell anyone about it because he didn't want to make them feel sorry for him because he didn't see why they should. He had cool powers, he loved being a superhero and he just wanted others to feel happy. What did have to feel ashamed about? As long as his friends were happy, he was happy and thats all he ever asked for.

"You really are a good friend Beastboy." said Raven

"Yeah, I try." Beastboy replied

There was a long silence for the two as they just pretty much enjoyed the moment looking out into the bay. Then Beastboy just had to ruin it all.

"So do you have little memories you'd like to share?" Beastboy asked

"That depends," Raven answered "what do you want to know?"

Red X was 12 whole Blocks away from the Museum. He had to have lost those Mutants by now. All he had to do was make his way back to his motorcycle on 3rd street and head on back home. Shouldn't have been a problem at all. at least thats what he thought before a strange buzzing sound came from behind him and he recieved a foot to his very face. Red X skitted across the rooftop and landed in a heap a fw feet away he turned to see his attacker and found that same insectoid-like dinosaur looking back.

"Oh just great," Red X sighed "listen bug boy can you just let me get back home before you try to take the belt?"

"Sorry," The mutant told him "the General has a schedule. Each day we spend here more of our recruits die. We need to leave soon and were taking the belt with us."

"Over my dead body Cockroach boy." Red X said pulling out his X blades

"This can be arranged. And for the record its just Cockroach."

Cockroach charged at Red X and the theif defended himself. He tried to slice the mutant in two with his blades but the creature just kept dodging.

"Slippery little gnat."

"Cockroach!"

"Whatever!"

Red X kept swiping at him until he finally landed a hit. Square across the mutant's belly. However the mutant just stopped and looked at it, unflinching and not appearing to be in any pain.

"You can't squash me that easily." Cockroach mocked back

Red X became enraged and continued his charge against Cockroach. Every swipe was ducked and dodged away from and Cockroach didn't even lift a finger. Then in the middle of another attack Cockroach grabbed Red X by his arms with two of his hands, then using his free pair of hands he delivered a punch straight to X's face. It sent him flying across the rooftop.

"Had enough?" Cockroach asked

Red X stood himself up

"Not just yet."

X fired a barrage of X shurikens at Cockroach. But the bug just buzzed out of their way and straight upto Red X's face. He then delivered a kick to the theif's gut sending him flying across the roof once more.

"Your not winning this match are you?" Cockroach mocking asked

Red X stood himself up once more and rubbed his chin.

"I'm just warming up."

Red X threw down a gas bomb in front of them. The preceeding battle was fought out in zero visibility. No one could see the other. But when it was over Cockroach went flying backwards straight out of the cloud into mid air. Red X jumped out after him proclaiming himself the apparent victor.

"Uppercuts hurt huh?" Red X asked his defeated opponent. Then X noticed the mutant was laughing. "What's so funny?"

Cockroach continued to chuckle and then held out something in his hand...Red X's belt.

"Thank you so much Red X. Now I must be going." Cockroach pulled out a small grenade as he continued to fly in place. He unhooked the pin and dropped the grenade. "Das Verdanya"

Red X had only seconds to move as the grenade fell perilousy close to his feet. With a quick dodge away from the explosive, X ducked his head down. The grenade went off and Red X was still in one piece. However Cockroach was gone.

"Crap!" X yelled "This just ruins my perfect day doesn't it? Now what am I going to do?" Red X paced as he began to ask himself questions "I can't go to the police and say 'Hi I'd like to report a stolen belt that by the way I stole from one of the Titans. Can you help me find it and put me in a nice warm jail cell?' Just great, without my belt I'm just some guy in a suit. I have to get it back, before that lunatic and his dino buddies get out of the country with it." The problem was Red X didn't know who to turn to. He didn't have any supervillian friends ever since his little betrayal to the Brotherhood of Evil. He couldn't go to the police or they'd just lock him up. The only people left who could help him were the Titans and they hated him. Of course there was the fact that this General Karvisko was gonna use his belt to blow up something. The Titans couldn't let that happen. "Besides" Red X thought "Robin owes me one."

Beastboy thought over a possible question he could ask. There wasn't really much he could ask about Raven. She had already revealed her biggest secret, evil prophecy, Demon father, her powers were governed by emotions. He already knew all that. The only things he could think were recent and some of those were a little personal to her. He didn't really want to intrude. Raven wasn't reading his mind at the moment but she knew one thing...he was stalling.

"Beastboy I know you have a question in your head already?" Raven told him

"You may not like this question." Beastboy told her

"Just say it." She flat out told him

"I can't say it."

"Fine," Raven said rather frustrated "then just think of it."

The next few words poured into Raven's mind

'Why did you hate Terra?'

Raven was taken a back by the question

"I thought you said you were over her." She said rather monotone

"I am," Beastboy explained "I just need to know what made you hate her so much."

Raven sighed

"I'll admit something," Raven began "I always did feel like a loner, but she made feel like a bigger one. The minute she walked in the door everyone gathered around her while I hid off in the shadows. It was somewhat my fault really, but in truth no one, not even Starfire showed up to do anything with me. Terra was more popular then I ever could be, everyone seemed to like her more." Raven fixed her gaze on Beastboy "Especially you."

Beastboy cringed at that

"I didn't realize." Beastboy began "I was in that crushing stage. I did have a crush on her and I thought she liked me back. So I spent more time with her then anyone else. Even Cyborg. I don't know why but I did. I'm sorry for that."

"You were in love with her what could you do but hang around her all the time." Raven told him "I just wish someone loved me like that. The closest I ever got to was a guy in a book who turned out to be a dragon. At least Terra and you had an actual relationship, no matter how short it lasted."

"It was never meant to be in the first place I guess." Beastboy said "Why else would she so easily turn on me. Terra was just really confused and shes happier now so I really shouldn't dwell on it all." Beastboy put his head down "So was that why you hated Terra?"

"No theres more." Raven explained "When I was fighting her in the research facility she-" Raven stopped suddenly.

"Show me." Beastboy asked

"You may not like what you see." Raven explained

"The Terra I knew is dead now Raven, she doesn't exist anymore."

"It may change your view about her." Raven told him

"I already have changed my view." Beastboy retorted

Raven sighed

"You can be so stubborn sometimes." said Raven turning to Beastboy again "I didn't really give anybody, not even Robin the full details about what happened. All I told him was that lost control in there and Terra was the cause. I didn't tell him how she did it. I told him it was for security reasons. The real reason, was because I didn't want him to coddle me like some child over it all."

"It can't be as bad as a prophecy for ending the world." said Beastboy

"No, but this reminded me of why I hated myself all those years back in Azarath. Watch and listen."

A cool breeze once again entered both of their minds. A fog entered Beastboy's eyes and two voices he could reconize

"Terra"

"Raven"

"Traitor"

"Witch"

Beastboy soon found the fog parted by a scene of a half destroyed research lab and both Terra and Raven fighting each other in the mud.

"You know Raven," Terra began "I never liked you."

Raven stood herself up, covered in mud

"I never even wanted to know you." Raven answered back "Everyone else believed you, but I always knew you were a liar."

Terra just smiled

"Oh, really?" She mocked "Is that why you let me live in your house, and steal all your secrets and-"

Raven cut her off

"SHUT UP!"

Their battle conitnued with Raven getting more and more angry at Terra, she seemed to have the upper hand until Terra had knocked her to the ground.

"Better be careful, Raven." Terra said as she made a mock mud portrait of Raven that was horribly disfigured "Beast Boy told me all about your little temper tantrums."

"Anger is pointless." Raven told her "My emotions are in control."

"Naagh, naagh, naagh," Terra mocked "anger is pointless. And you're calling me a liar?"

Raven attacked once and just like before Terra trapped her once again, this time half way up to her neck in dirt.

"What sucks the most Raven?" Terra asked "That I tricked you? That I nearly destroyed your little team? That everyone liked me better then you?"

"Stop it!" Raven hissed

Terra bent down to her eye level

"Or was it that deep down you really thought I was your friend?"

Raven suddenly grew another a pair of eyes and became eight feet tall with tentacle forms spewing from everywhere.

"I trusted you!" Raven shouted in a voice that didn't seem her own "We trusted you! We gave you everything and you treated us like dirt!"

Raven threw everything her powers could grab at Terra but nothing worked she somehow managed to avoided Raven's wrath and beat her by forcing her into the ground. Raven began to sink into the mud. And Terra couldn't seem any less happy about it.

"Whose in control now?" Terra asked. But before she went under Terra said one more thing to Raven "Face it Raven, no one in their right mind would want to be friends with you."

Raven dissapeared below the surface and then suddenly phased through the ground. Weak and exhausted she fell through the earth. Knocking rock after rock until she finally rested on the ground in a heap. The memory was fading away but Beastboy heard one last sound from Raven before she slipped into unconciousness.

"No one likes me." she said "No one makes friends with Demons. No one likes me. No one."

The memory trailed off and Beastboy found himself back on the roof. Raven was off to the side apparently try to hold in her tears.

"When I was little in Azarath everyone knew who my father was." Raven sniffed "Everyone knew what I was. There, I wasn't just creepy, I was a freak. I was ridiculed by everyone. I always felt so alone. When I came here I thought I had friends. When Terra showed up everyone seemed to abandon me. When Terra told me she had never liked me and that I could never have real friends it brought all those memories back. I might have been happy to have just died in that cave." Raven turned back to Beastboy "Then you guys found me there. Starfire was happy to see me alive and Cyborg felt relived to see I was unharmed. You even cracked a smile when you saw me. Robin was happy to see us all in one piece. I realized you guys really were my friends, nothing could change that. I hate Terra for making me think that way. For making me think that I had no friends. And thats why Beastboy I can't completely forgive Terra."

"I never knew that was how you felt." Beastboy said sadly "How come you didn't kill her back there."

"I was barely holding on to my control." Raven explained "Had I truly snapped Terra may have died then and there. The only reason she didn't was because if I did kill her, no matter how much I hate her, I could never live with myself after that."

Beastboy decided to try and help her feel better by telling her about Terra herself

"I always thought I knew everything about Terra," Beastboy began "I guess there was a lot of things I never knew. Even if they were a little obvious I just ignored them. Its like she said when she refused to come back to the Titans. The girl I knew was just a memory, she probably never even existed." Beastboy sighed "I'm sorry about what happened in there Raven. I never knew Terra could say such things to people. I don't know a lot of things huh?"

Raven nodded her head somewhat

"Well I do know this," Beastboy told her, turning her around to face him "Your one of my best friends and trust me I'd never say anything like that to you. I'd never ever hurt you like that."

"Never?" Raven asked

"Never," Beastboy said holding out his pinky "I promise."

Raven sniffed a little more still trying to hold back tears

"Thanks Beastboy." She said

She didn't know why she did what she did next but she didn't really care. Raven hugged Beastboy. Probably for the first time since the Malchior Incident. Beastboy was shocked at first but he eventually returned the hug.

"I think thats enough memory sharing for now." Raven said after they released each other

"Yeah," Beastboy chuckled "anymore and this might become some stupid soap opera show."

"How true." Raven smiled getting up "We better get to bed. Goodnight."

Raven exited the rooftop and Beastboy called back a cheerful 'Goodnight' to her as well. He then laid back and looked up at the sky.

"Making people feel happy." Beastboy said smiling to himself "I really am good at that."

Robin was barely awake as he continued typing on his small computer screen. It was getting tiresome that he had not found a single lead on any Xinothium power cores. How hard could this one item be to find? He knew he didn't have much time, Karvisko and his men could have already located and aquired one by now. He couldn't let that happen, not on his watch. But he wasn't going to find it tonight. He was going to pack it in when something came on the screen

'You Got Mail'

Robin was surprised, he never got E-mail. He clicked on the small envelope and watched as a small video screen popped up in front of him. Cockroach was looking back at him.

"I've heard of Early Birds, but its almost midnight." Cockroach laughed "How long are you going to stay awake?"

"Cockroach." Robin sneered "What are doing? How'd you get this frequency?"

"I just thought I'd send you this live feed before you computer went dark."

"What are you talking about?" Robin asked

Cockroach exited the camera view and showed him where he was, it appeared to be a large computer room.

"I'm in Jump City's computer mainframe." Cockroach explained "Everything from electricity to communication is governed from here. Rather impressive huh?"

"And you're there why?" Robin asked

"Because all humans are rather subborn sad little creatures." Cockroach explained "Take away their toys and they start taking it out on each other. Eventually they devolve into the senseless animals that they truly are."

"That doesn't answer my question." Robin told him

Cockroach pfted at Robin

"Karvisko is almost ready to leave. However he has a few more things to take care of and some minor problems with these American Soldiers that have joined the battle." Cockroach held up a small device in his hand and walked over to the computer mainframe "To solve this were giving America a special little gift for all its citizens across the country. Just a little something from Mother Mutentica to her." Cockroach plugged the small device into the mainframe computer and the screen began to fade out "Enjoy the show."

Cockroach's face dissapeared...seconds later so did the computer screen.

Uh Oh. Looks like they got a BUG in their system. Bad Joke I know. Some of that dialogue was lifted from the last episode of Smallville, I don't really care. Anyway find out what the full effect of the virus Cockroach stuck in the mainframe are when we return. Oh yes and please review if your reading. I accept all reviews you know, anoymous or not.