Caught by The Window
Disclaimer: I neither own Pilate nor Gilmore Girls. I am not that lucky.
Summary: What is Rory thinking about while Logan is in London?
Author's Note: Just a warning, this is a Lit story. Not that I don't like them together, I just need some fairy tale ness. However, Logan will not be the villain. He will be some emotional support to Rory. Something I feel he has never really done before. Please give this a chance. Author's Note : Sorry about the delays, cottage time means no internet connection.
Mercy
They both stood immobile. Rory had briefly traced her lips with her fingertips. Wondering if it had actually happened, or if it was just a figment of her imagination. While Jess had smirked. A smirk that he had perfected during their brief romance years ago.
'Wow.' Rory spoke first and she wished that she was closer to something she could hold onto. Here she was. She had done what she had aimed to do. She was standing in front of Jess, and suddenly that need to make things right, seemed to be a little daring for her tastes.
'What did Logan do now?' Jess asked almost snidely but of course Rory knew that this was coming. Jess may have changed, but he would always be defensive against something that had hurt him before. At one time, Rory swore to herself that she would never hurt him.
'Nothing. I just broke up with him.' Rory says and then regrets it. Now he would think that this was all because of a break up.
'What did he do now?' Jess said and all the while even the mention of Logan was breaking his spray painted black heart. 'Nothing, I just realized that you were right.'
Jess looked at her, and waited for her to explain herself. 'Somehow, I fooled myself into thinking that Logan was the best thing to ever happen to me, but the thought of not making this right, I couldn't live with that.'
Jess is quiet and he just stares at her. 'I find this a little convenient. You break up with him and come running after me.'
Rory hangs her head and her heart beats wildly and her palms begin to sweat. She was almost twenty-two years old, she was experienced, and yet here she was, acting like a sixteen year old.
'I couldn't sleep. I would stay awake and wonder why I was miserable. I had a boyfriend who loved me, but I kinda figured out that I don't love him. I don't think I will ever love him. I've been in a tailspin ever since you left.' She paused and he looked at her.
'I have apologized Rory, I'm not goii…' Rory stepped closer and smiled. 'I know, I am not rehashing it, just explaining. Look you saved me. I was so close to self destruction, and you come in, with your tarnished suit of armour and I never thanked you properly.' Rory leans in and her lips brush Jess's mouth briefly and smiles at him.
'Why are you doing this to me?' Jess says while he chuckles and for a minute, Rory was worried. 'I don't think that this, us, will ever work?' jess said and Rory just stared at him. 'Are you sure about that?' Rory asked boldly and then moved so she could look at the filled bookshelves. She ran her fingers slowly over the spines of the books, and she smiled back at him. Of course jess was very close to losing control. But he didn't think he would survive one more close but no cigar with Rory.
She smiled as she saw a copy of an old favorite and looked at him. 'May I?' she asked him and he smiled. 'Wow, this looks pretty worn to be in a store like this.' She said and smiled at him. She opened it and looked troubled and closed it.
'Your selling it?' Rory asked, ignoring the fact that her heart may be hurting. It was one of the last things she had ever given him, before things had gone so wrong.
'No of course not, I would never sell that.' Jess said and he stepped forward and took it from me. 'I lent it to Leo, and I guess he put it back here.'
There's silence between them. It was the kind that could only happen between the two of them. It was disturbing and awkward, but it was familiar to both of them. There whole relationships was based on them.
'So you came here to what?' Jess asked finally, after struggling with the silence for a while. 'I came here to see if my instincts about us were right. We never really got our chance, and I never want to regret that.' Jess just watched Rory and he had to smile.
'Your so different from the Rory I used to know.' Jess says and smiles. Rory tries to figure out if that is a good thing or possibly a bad thing. 'but maybe since we are both so different, it will benefit us?' Jess said and he walked over to her and kissed her.
'You look tired.' Jess commented and he led Rory upstairs and he opened the door to his apartment. Leo was asleep somewhere. 'A little bit.' Rory managed to say while wondering what would happen if she was alone with Jess in a bedroom.
He opened the door and he smiled. 'I think that maybe this is one of those other times Rory. I don't think I can handle one more rash moments. Alright?' Too bad that Jess wasn't there when Rory had made the decision to come before her break up with Logan.
'But.' She began but as she looked at Jess, she realized it was futile. Jess thought that she was not taking things seriously, so she decided that maybe the best thing to do was wait for him to realize it.
TBC
I've made it my dear face it, I still kiss the darkness.
What I've wasted, I still taste it, I'm sickened and hardened I'm going to tear I'm gonna tear walls down
I'm gonna tear I'm gonna tear walls down
And I'll storm into your hideout
And I walked with you I talked with you, I still can't help thinking Your drugs bleeding, So sweet yet fleeting, My memories are sinking.
I'm gonna tear I'm gonna tear walls down I'm gonna tear I'm gonna tear walls down
I'll storm into your hideout
And it's cold there now, And everything outside the truth, Does nothing more to cut it loose, I've left the path, The road just disappears.
Gray shadows and white meadows, A bitter snow is falling. My legs fail me, The ground hails me, Distant lights are calling.
Surprise, Surprise, Surprise, Surprise, Surprise...
Into your hideout Into your hideout now Into your hideout Tearing my heart out now... Surprise, Surprise, Surprise, Surprise, Surprise... etc.
And it's there... And it's there... And I'll storm into your hideout.
Into Your Hideout by Pilate.. Pilot Speed. Since they changed there name.