A/N: Written during a particularly hard time when my nightmares came back. Just sharing it now, as the pain of it isn't as close…

Warning: Contains mature subject matter

Disclaimer: Yes, it's completely mine… Just one of my few written things I have on that doesn't really include Satan

Dedication: To those people who inspired this

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Haunted

At one time, I thought I was important

I thought that I was loved

I thought I made a difference

But it turns out I was wrong

It was like you couldn't stand the sight of me

I felt like you were never listening

Did my opinions ever matter to you?

You made a promise to me

You said you'd never leave

I guess it was my own fault...

I was never good enough

I believed that the nightmare would stop

You destroyed my trust

You said that you'd stop

One time, I believed everything

I was so innocent... so stupid

I don't understand what it was I did wrong

I looked up to you, you were my hero

You represented hatred... you were everything bad

I guess I'll never get to confront you

Why did you have to lie to me!

Sometimes, I don't know who to be angry with,

Or if I'm supposed to be angry at all

I want to blame somebody, I think

Maybe if I had done more...

Maybe if I had been stronger

To me, you were worse than Satan

I want to make you suffer

I wish I had you back

You sent me to that place, the dark one in the back of my head

The only thing that was constant was change

Trapped in a cage there was no escape from

Avoiding you was all I ever did- like the good little coward I was

Why did you make me live in Hell! Was I that horrible!

What did I do to deserve this? Can you answer me that?

And all I feel... is pain, when I think of you

I never fit in, and I think I have you to thank for that

I have dark thoughts that nobody'd ever understand

I felt like I had no personality

I felt as insignificant as a worm to you

I was always noticeably different

I was always trying to fade into the background

I could never keep up with you

I had to steal to survive

I wanted to be taken in... but nobody'd have me

I wanted to escape, but never could

I wanted to impress you, but you made it impossible

I wanted a childhood like everyone else... was that too much to ask?

I realize it's too late to reclaim lost time

What are you going to do to make up for it?

I want to feel comfortable in my own skin

I want to make you hurt and bleed

I want to show you kindness, like nobody else ever has

I want to be powerful; I want to see you, in the End

I want to be somebody new, so I won't think of you

I want to be elegant; I want to be the trash you thought I was

I want to prove them wrong... all of them, even you

I want to be happy, without the thoughts of you haunting me...