A/N This is just a very short little ficlet that I wrote, because I really love Little House. I wrote it several months ago and finally decided to post it.This takes place right after the episode Sylvia.

It's Albert's POV.

I could just couldn't believe it when she died, I... I just never thought something like that would happen.

At first, I blamed pa, and Sylvia's pa too, because if they had justlet us be together none of this would have happened. But then, I realised that it was more my fault then their's, because i'm the one who left Sylvia there... alone in that barn.

But... that wasn't my biggest mistake, for my biggest mistake was asking my boss for help... and telling him where Sylvia was. I just had no idea that he was the one who hurt Sylvia. I sure never thought that i'd be putting her in danger by telling him. But God, was I ever wrong.

I still remember when I got back to the barn, and I saw him after Sylvia. Things just... they all happened so fast after that. I... I just can't get the memory of her falling off of that ladder out of my mind, it was my fault... if only I hadn't left her there... none of it would have happened.

When Sylvia fell, I... I thought she was dead... I... I was so scared. When I found out that she was still alive... I was so relieved. I just thought that she'd be all right.

When we were at Doc Baker's... and he let me go in with Sylvia, I wasn't so sure if she was going to be all right anymore. When I asked the doc, he just told me that she wanted to see me.

God, I was scared when I entered that room... but I tried my best not to let Sylvia know that.

Being there with Sylvia those last couple minutes was one of the hardest things i've ever done. I... I was so scared... my heart... it felt like it was going to jump out of my chest.

And then... she... she died.

I can't even begin to explain how I felt at that very moment. It was like my heart had broke into a million pieces and fell to the floor. It was like it shattered.

So, now here I am. It's only been 2 weeks since she's been gone, and I already miss her so. I don't know how i'm going to get through this right now, but I guess it's like pa says, I just having to take things day by day.

Pa says that things will get better in time, he says that although i'll always miss Sylvia, and although the hurt will probably never totally go away, things will get easier in time. Pa says that, in time i'll be able to think of Sylvia and remember the good times we had, instead of just feeling this horrible pain that i'm feeling now.

I sure hope pa's right, because right now, I just don't know how i'm going to live without her.

I'll love you forever, Sylvia.

As I said before, this is short, and I don't feel that it's very good. Tell me what you think anyway. Like it, hate it?

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