Prologue:

"I'm leaving..."

My heart was shattered. It felt as if my life was starting to become a blur. I don't know if I'll be able to love again the same way as I loved him. I find it hard to let go of the things and move on. I wanted to stop him, but I know I have no right to do so.

"What? Where are you going?"

I wanted to make sure of this. Maybe… this is just a dream. A nightmare. Maybe he'll suddenly wake me up, hold me in his arms and tell me everything's going to be alright.

"I need to get out of this place. I have no future here."

No. I had no choice. It wasn't a dream… it never will be. I know I had to let him go sooner or later. Somehow, I tried to prepare myself for this but, even though I knew this would eventually happen, it still pained me. It pained me so much.

"I understand."

I know he's just doing what's best. It's hard, but I have to be strong. I have to...I have to...and I will...let go...

"Come with me…"

His voice was so gentle, so caring. But…As much as I wanted to say yes, I couldn't. I can't leave this fucked up place behind. I can't leave my family, they depend on me the most. I just…

"I…can't…"

"If that's your decision then…" He said in a blank, low tone. He was somewhat disappointed. I'm afraid I couldn't avoid making him feel like that. An awkward silence suddenly engulfed us.

"I… have to go now."

"Yeah..."

I said as I bowed my head. Tears were threatening to fall. I had to be strong that's why I'm not going to cry. I never cry. I'll eventually move on...

He turns his back then walks away...I feel so weak. I don't want him to go. But I just don't have any right to stop him.

"Wait..."

Oh shit. He looked back. Then I guess he has every right to know what I feel...I might as well get this over with and just tell him…tell him that…that…

"I love you…"

He was a bit stunned at what I had just said, and so was I. He looked at me, his crystal blue orbs filled with surprise.

"Ah…I mean…umm…" I started to stutter. "Be happy with your life, okay? That would be really nice. Right?"

"Yeah. I get you. Goodbye now."

"…yeah. Bye."