I'LL REMEMBER-Spinner

Mmm, mmm...
Say goodbye to not knowing when
The truth in my whole life began
Say good-bye to not knowing how to cry
You taught me that

I watched her cross the stage. Somehow everything always came back to her. Paige Michalchuk. Of course everyone else was up there too. Everyone but Jimmy that is. And you would think that I'd be sad that I wasn't up there, which don't get me wrong, I was, but I was more sad because I was losing her.

And I'll remember the strength that you gave me
Now that I'm standing on my own
I'll remember the way that you saved me
I'll remember

Paige was-is, my everything. And now she's going away. I'm not up there, crossing that stage with her like I was supposed to be. Like we had talked about so many times.

Inside, I was a child
That could not mend a broken wing
Outside, I looked for a way
To teach my heart to sing

Before Paige, I was so immature. Not as bad as JT, but still pretty bad. Then Paige and me got together. And I grew up. She somehow always brought out the best in me. But we broke up. It was my fault too. I started treating her like shit. And I made the mistake of flirting with Manny, then fighting over Manny with Craig, right in front of her. I started dating Manny, but that didn't last long. I knew it wouldn't but we were both just heartbroken, we were looking for comfort in each other. I didn't have Paige, and at that time she didn't have Craig. But Manny and I break up. I started hanging out with Jay more. Going to more parties at the ravine. It was really all I had being as I was expelled from school, had no girl friend, and lost all my friends. I was allowed to come back to Degrassi in the fall. All I wanted was to make everything right. But no one would take the time of day to listen, let alone talk to me. But Darcy did. And she didn't judge me based on my past. She forgave me. Darcy and I started dating. I liked her. She was cute, sweet, and fun. But our relationship wasn't anything close to what I had with Paige. But Darcy ended up dumping me two, twice in three days. Because she found out that I wasn't a virgin. And as fate should have it, Paige and Alex broke up too.

And I'll remember the love that you gave me
Now that I'm standing on my own
I'll remember the way that you changed me
I'll remember

Paige and I kissed the day we both just got out of relationships. And it didn't just feel like a kiss, it felt like everything. With Darcy, it was just kiss, to me it didn't really mean a whole lot. But the day after me & Paige kiss, Darcy decides to take me back. And I'm a dumb ass so I did. I went to Paige's that night to let her know Darcy and I were back. Even though it was one conversation that I didn't want. I'll never forget that night.

"Oh my god Spin, you have to come look at this old yearbook right this second."
"Sure but uhm, I was hoping we could talk."
"Sure hon. just indulge me first, and feast your eyes on this."
I remember feeling really excited when I saw our picture.

I learned to let go of the illusion that we can possess
I learned to let go, I travel in stillness
And I'll remember... happiness
I'll remember (I'll remember)

A smile spread across my face.

"Check it out, we were couple of the year."
"Uhm, how could we not be? We were unbelievably super adorable."
"There we are, the old gang."
"We ran that school, remember?"
"You ever wish you had a time machine? I just wanna go you know, before it all, all went to crap." I said moving my focus from the yearbook to the girl that was sitting beside me.

Mm... (I'll remember)
Mm...
And I'll remember the love that you gave me
Now that I'm standing on my own
I'll remember the way that you changed me
I'll remember
(I'll remember)

She looked up and her eyes met mine.

"Spin, just so you know. I never blamed you for what happened, with Jimmy."
"You mean that?" I asked her, ever though I already knew the answer. She nodded and looked at me. She started leaning in, and as much as I wanted to kiss her, I had just gotten back with Darcy.
"Paige…" She cut me off by cupping my face and pulling me back on the bed.

No, I've never been afraid to cry
Now I finally have a reason why
I'll remember (I'll remember)

After last night, I was sure that Paige and I were back. But before I dumped Darcy, I had to make sure.

"Paige! There you are, I've been looking all over for you."
"Me too. I just wanted to say 'merci'."
"For what?"
"For last night, dorkus. It felt like the right way to end school. Just don't forget about me,okay?"
"I wasn't planning on it, I was…"
"Woah hon, you can't be serious. We're both moving on, but I will always have the bestest memories of my first real boyfriend, you." She gave me a kiss and walked away. I felt like I was gonna cry.

No, I've never been afraid to cry
And I finally have a reason why
I'll remember (I'll remember)

Well, it turns out I didn't even have Darcy anymore. She found out about me and Paige having sex, and she dumped me. Leaving me girlfriend-less. So now I had no girlfriend, Marco was my only friend, and Jimmy wouldn't even talk to me.

I stood at the gym doors watching the ceremony and Jimmy wheels himself over to me.

"There they go, our class, on to a brighter future."
"You should've been up there man."
"It'll be our turn next year, right?"
"I'm sorry, are we actually having a conversation?"
"I spent a lot of time this year, blaming people, you espicaly, and it wasn't fair."
I had just gotten my best friend back. For whatever reason, I guess it was because Jimmy forgave me, I ran out after Darcy.

No, I've never been afraid to cry
And I finally have a reason why
I'll remember (I'll remember)

But she rejected me, looked back at me once, got on the bus that goes to bible camp, and never looked back.

No, I've never been afraid to cry
And I finally have a reason why
I'll remember (I'll remember)

I got back to school just as everyone was about to throw their caps and I started crying. It's as if, watching the kids that were my best friends graduating, struck something in me. Like this is really goodbye. I talked with Marco and Jimmy, and I waved to Paige, who gave me a smile and a wave back. And while she might not see it right now, somewhere down the line, I know we'll be together.

A/N: I know I said that this chapter would be Jimmy, but I decided to do Spinner because I don't know how I'm gonna set up Jimmy's yet. R&R.

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