A/N: Well Here is Chapter Eight…. At last! Um… Yeah I've gotten some… interesting reviews lately…. And on that note…. Reviews are appreciated but not required and they do seriously sometimes inspire me to write faster….. That's not bribery or begging just the honest to God truth…. Anyway I like this story and I want know what happens ( ha ha ha ) so on with the story.
Chapter Eight: To be or not to be... In love that is
Charlotte went back to her bed room as the sun began to rise, but she knew she wouldn't sleep not while Erik occupied her thoughts.
Erik paced back and forth in front of his organ. He felt as though he was being disloyal to Christine.
But she left you….
But I love her….
Ah…. But what about Charlotte?
The Ó hEachthairn girl is nothing, only a student
Really
Yes. Really
But she is a pretty student
Not as pretty as Christine
With a pretty voice
Not as pretty as Christine
Then stop comparing every woman you meet to Christine
But she was perfection it's self, my Christine
But she left you and now Charlotte has come and could be your redemption and you won't let her in
"I don't want her to be my redemption! I want Christine!" The angry words sounded hollow and empty to Erik, could he be so shallow? The inner voice he had argued with only moments ago fell silent once more. Erik sat down at his organ and played a few notes.
"Wishing you were somehow here again
Wishing you were somehow near
Sometimes it seemed if I just Dreamed
Somehow you would be here"
Erik put his head down on the keys and began to sob. Christine would not come back and if Charlotte saw his face neither would she. Erik visualized the two girls side by side. Christine was the elder and truly the more beautiful with her glowing milk white skin, angelic blue eyes, and soft mahogany curls. Charlotte was shorter, but she had elegance and grace. Charlotte could be more feisty than Christine at times, but was often just as childish and weak.
Erik smiled remembering the time Charlotte had challenged him. Christine would never have done that, but the girl had learned quickly and hadn't done it again, nor had she so much as asked what was hidden behind his mask.
That's because she trusts you
I don't deserve her trust
You have had an advantage over her since the day you met her and yet you have not taken advantage of her
But I am a monster no woman could love
And yet you've seen it in her eyes
"No! She can't love me! I Cannot love her! I will not betray Christine!"
But you've thought about Charlotte, dreamed of her and loved her
"I have not! I will not!"
Admit it Erik you could love Charlotte if you let go of Christine, she's not coming back, but Charlotte will, she love's you Erik
"Charlotte deserves better than me, better than the life I could provide," Erik whispered. "Oh, god" he sobbed, "I do love her. Oh Christine…."