Woopti-do another chapter. Yah, I'm sorry it took me so long to update. Mum got a new dog, and Doberman pinscher, and I've had to look after it. This dog is REALLY annoying and attacks my kitties! Poor kitties! Romeo and Juliet do NOT like the new dog at ALL (that's my kitty's names. They're ADORABLE!)
Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha or any of the characters and I never will. I don't own the rights to the songs "Made of Glass" by Trapt or "Cold Cold Heart" by Norah Jones. Dum dad um dum dum! Oh, and I don't own the title "Maybe Memories" which is a song title from The Used. On to the story!
Maybe Memories
Close Confessions
"As soon as we find the help of another priestess, maybe one a little more experienced than me…" She laughed nervously and rubbed the back of her head.
A week went by as Emiko taught Kagome all she knew about priestess powers, which was surprisingly a lot. When Kagome learned and mastered all the powers she was more than ready to head back home.
Emiko gave a half smile as she watched Inuyasha hoist the still injured Kagome onto his back. She waved lightly "Well… Farewell my friends… Safe journeys to you." Her head dropped a bit as she realized that the two people that had accepted her openly were now leaving. She would be alone again soon.
Kagome turned and seemed to miss the cheerless expression on Emiko's face. She waved to the healer "Goodbye! Hope to meet you again soon! Thanks for everything you've done for us!"
Emiko nodded and continued to pat Mai on her head "No trouble at all. Drop by if you ever pass through here." She looked down and away and whispered "I'll miss you guys… My only friends... Of course except for you Mai…"
Inuyasha noticed that look on the girls face. It was the same he had whenever Kagome left him. He walked forward to Emiko and Mai, and leaned down to press something to the panther's forehead "It's something my Dad taught me before he died." He mumbled out.
The panther started transforming and soon became a tall teenage guy, with black hair that tumbled down a little past his ear lobes. His eyes were golden with hints of green in them and he had small Black Panther ears perched on top of his head.
Kagome gulped and looked the man-panther that had just showed up before them. He was very handsome, with lightly tan skin covering his muscles. "Inuyasha… How did you do that?"
"Dad taught me. He said something about familiars being humans trapped in beasts bodies. He also said something about female familiars turning out to be male humans… And visa versa…" He shrugged and glared at the man standing before them. He was probably the same age as Inuyasha.
He didn't like how Kagome was eying the guy so he growled lightly. He was surprised at how jealous he was getting, just because Kagome was looking over the guy.
He was stunned when Kagome seemed to nuzzle his neck and whisper in his ears "Don't be jealous. You're better looking." He smirked a little and puffed out his chest, proud that Kagome found him more attractive.
Mai seemed to stumble forward a bit, not used to the concept of using two feet anymore. He stumbled straight into Emiko's arms and said shyly, his voice thick with an odd growling accent that was barely understandable "I-I'm sorry Emiko. I mean, didn't want to, fall on you."
Emiko had been completely silent the whole time, stunned beyond belief until now as she helped Mai stand on his own two feet again "It-It's fine Mai." She looked over to Inuyasha and Kagome and smiled brightly "Thank you Inuyasha!"
"Feh, whatever." He mumbled out, blushing a bit. He rarely heard anybody thanking him and it made him feel honored when somebody did. He readjusted Kagome on his back and waved again as he leaped off.
Kagome watched as Mai took Emiko into his arms and kissed her. She was slightly jealous and turned away, knowing the couple would soon be out of her sight. How she wished Inuyasha would do something like that.
But she knew he wouldn't, because he loved Kikyo. She sighed and leaned her chin on his shoulder, quietly singing to herself
"I don't know anything at all and I'm somebody else. It could take years to find you; it could take years to find myself. And I don't need to hear your answer I just need you to see, that I think it's time to break down these walls that we throw.
Am I still breathing have I lost that feeling? Am I made of glass? 'Cause you see right through me. I don't know who I am and you're the only one who sees that I can't ask these questions that cannot be answered today. And even if everything goes wrong and we start to fall apart, I will understand where you are, I will understand this by myself. And I don't need to hear your answer I just need you to feel, like there are no boundaries at all.
And how far have we come, too far to throw away the past. Will you be there waiting for me? I have to ask what we are, if I ask today it just won't last. So I'll be here waiting for you. Will we ever feel this good again - Not today. Will we ever feel this real again - Not today. Will you ever be mine again - Not today. Will we ever feel this real again - Not today."
Dog ears twitched back and forth to catch the words floating out of her mouth and the noises of anything that could endanger them. The words of the song confused him slightly and brought a slight stirring of some odd feeling he couldn't quite place.
Even if the words bothered him the sound of her melodic voice soothed his nerves slightly. Ever since he'd scented the fire from the village he had been anxiety-ridden, always worrying about this and that.
"Ka-Kagome?" He called out to her when she stopped singing.
"Yes? I'm sorry, is my singing bothering you? I can stop if you like." She owed him so much. She owed him her life, ten times over.
"No, you're singing isn't bothering me at all. I…" He was blushing and embarrassed by now and ducked his head, mumbling the next part "like it. Could you keep singing?"
Slightly taken aback, Kagome paused for a few moments before she picked up another song
"I've tried so hard my dear to show, that you're my every dream. Yet you're afraid each thing I do is just some evil scheme. A memory from your lonesome past, keeps us so far apart. Why can't I free your doubtful mind, and melt your cold cold heart? Another love before my time, made your heart sad an' blue. And so my heart is paying now for things I didn't do. In anger unkind words are said, that make the teardrops start. Why can't I free your doubtful mind, and melt your cold cold heart? There was a time when I believed, that you belonged to me. But now I know your heart is shackled to a memory. The more I learn to care for you the more we drift apart. Why can't I free your doubtful mind and melt your cold cold heart?"
Frowns formed both their mouths as if they both felt this song was true, but wrong at the same time. He had gotten the message. Loud, and painfully clear. Surely Kagome couldn't hold him against his vow to Kikyo.
'It isn't fair… I know he must feel something for me, but he can't get over Kikyo! He just can't get over her!' Kagome thought angrily as she scrunched her nose. The movements made the wound on her cheek reopen and the blood began to drip down again.
Try as she might to hide the scent from Inuyasha, he smelt the blood. Even if they were close to Kaede's, probably five minutes, he set her down anyways and crept up to her face to examine it.
"How did you do this, wench? You were on my friggin back for cryin out loud!" Wrong thing to say! Inuyasha watched regretfully as tears began to well and pool in Kagome's eyes. "Come Kagome, don't cry!"
Standing up and squeezing her fists by her side, she became a little light headed and screamed out "You're SO inconsiderate of people's feelings Inuyasha! You're about as oblivious as a pup when it comes to feelings!"
"Come on Kagome. Stop yellin' you're gonna get some demons attention on ya." That wasn't his real reason, but it was as good of a cover up as he could manage at the time. He hated it when she yelled at him, even if she was beautiful when she was angry.
Swaying a little, she glared at him with fiery eyes "You're an IDIOT! You can't see what's right in front of your eyes! Instead you've got to go digging in some grave for it!" She paused and fumed for a minute or two, letting her anger simmer and boil "See if I care anymore! See if I care!"
With that she stormed off, no idea where she was going or how she was going to make it. "Kagome! Don't leave, you're gonna get killed by something out there!"
She looked over her shoulder, tears of fury and frustration spilling over her cheeks as she said calmly "As if you care. I'm done being you're shard detector, aren't I?"
"Kagome! Gimme a fuckin chance to explain myself, woman!" He was about to explain himself when he saw her beginning to form the deadly word. He gulped. If she was going to sit him as much as he thought, then he knew he wasn't going to be able to protect her.
Dark grey eyes flashed with anger as she yelled out "SIT, SIT, SIT, SIT, SIT, SIT, SIT, SIT, SIT, SIT, SIT, SIT, SIT, SIT, SIT, SIT, SIT, SIT, SIT, SIT, SIT, SIT, SIT, SIT, SIT, SIT, SIT! SIT BOY!"
Without taking a second glance back at him she continued to stomp off, her fists at her sides. Her anger fueled her for a while as she trudged through the unfamiliar forest (she went the wrong way), but soon started to ware off.
Dragging her feet, hanging her head, she continued to tread on, even if her numerous wounds began to reopen. She took off the pendant that Inuyasha had given to her to make her feel better, and shoved it in the red harato she was wearing.
Eventually she grew too tired to continue and she sat down beneath a tree and buried her nose in the red harato. Even her weak human senses could smell his scent. It had been such a big part of her for 2 years now.
Breathing in deeply, she took in more of the familiar wild and musky scent. She felt herself drifting into unconsciousness but didn't try to battle it off. The bliss of dreamless sleep seemed exactly what she needed, even if she had no hanyou to sit in a tree above her and protect her from certain demons that were already slinking up on her.
- Inuyasha pushed himself up off the ground; a while after the spells had worn off. He felt horrible and the anxiety was nagging at him once again. He couldn't waste anymore time! He dashed off in pursuit of her scent.
As he grew closer to her scent, he caught on other demon's scents as well. 'Shit… Male demons… Shit… Forgot she was in heat.' He thought, and hurried on.
When he reached her he found that she was unconscious beneath a tree with a male ferret demon leaning over her, eyeing her lustfully. No other thoughts crossed his mind but one, the one screaming to kill all these demons and take Kagome as his, right then and there.
Of course his demon blood was conjuring many of these thoughts. He dove forward and easily slaughtered all of the demons, but before he had the chance to try and take Kagome as his own mate, her eyes opened up slightly as she groaned.
They widened when she spotted Inuyasha standing over her, covered in blood and eyeing her lustfully. She tilted her head "I-Inuyasha? Why are you here? Why did you follow me after I said those mean things?"
Snapping back to reality he picked her up and just mumbled "Feh. Tell you later. I don't like this part of the forest." He watched her nod weakly and cringed a bit to himself. She hadn't made any new wounds to his knowledge, but many of the old wounds had reopened.
It was then that he noticed she wasn't wearing the pendant he had given her. He acted as if he didn't care, even if he did. Was she really that disgusted with anything that involved him?
'What if telling her my feelings isn't a good idea? What happens if it just makes her more angry at me?' he paused in his thought to pull her closer to him, even if they were close to Kaede's 'I guess I'll just have to see.'
When they got close enough to Kaede's that Inuyasha was comfortable with telling her what he had to say, he set her down on the large root of one of the god tree.
Trusting eyes looked up towards him, as if she had already forgotten their previous fight. He started pacing, clasping his hands behind his back as he dug his claws into his hands. Finally he rushed forward to take her face in between his hands.
"Kagome, you wanted to know why I came for you. I'm going to tell you, but please promise you won't run away and never come back." A single nod from her was all he needed as he gulped and began to let spill, those three treacherous words "It's because I lo….."
He was caught off by a scream of glee and he backed off of Kagome, looking at her wistfully before crossing his arms and putting the usual scowl across his face. He glared as Shippou threw himself at Kagome and hugged her "Kagome! You're alright!"
She plastered a fake smile across her face. She was disappointed that Inuyasha hadn't gotten the chance to tell her what he wanted to say, but happy she got to see Shippou. As she predicted, the rest of the group was close behind.
"Kagome! You've returned! We were all so worried about you! But you look a TON better then when we last saw you!" voiced an eager Sango as she rushed forward to hug her friend lightly so she didn't injure her more. Kirara bounded up and licked at one of Kagome's wounds and meowed.
"Yah, thanks. Glad you guys care 'bout me so much." Grouched a frustrated Inuyasha.
A hand pounded on his back in what was meant to be a "friendly" pat on the back from a certain monk "Don't worry Inuyasha. We care about you. We just don't like you as much as we like Kagome." He said jokingly, but received a hard hit on the head "I was only kidding! Kidding! We like you just as much, it's just Kagome was in such a critical condition that we were more worried about her… We thought she was going to-"
He was cut off by a hand covering his mouth. Inuyasha didn't know if it would upset Kagome if she knew she had been about to die, and he didn't want to figure it out quite yet.
A giggle escaped Kagome's lips as she tried to stand up "Well, I don't know about you, but I'm drained! Let's go back and rest!"
Inuyasha was by her side and helping her up, "Take it easy Kagome. I'll carry you there." He had finally sort of gotten over the fact that he had been interrupted in what he was trying to tell her earlier.
The rest of the group just watched in awe at the rare show of affection from Inuyasha. Usually he would only show his feelings in private, but now he was almost openly presenting them.
Kagome blushed a bit and nodded, allowing Inuyasha to pick her up bridal style and carry her towards the village, with the rest of the group. She sighed and leaned her head into his chest 'I'll get some rest, and maybe he'll tell me what was on his mind later.'
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Ok, here are the lyrics to Maybe Memories! Ta DAA!
And we trudge along through the mud, and we tried to call it home, but we weren't alright, not at all, not for one second.
Never have been one to write it down, Now I think I can, I know I'm stronger now, who is looking south? Not me I'm not looking back, I'm done denying the truth to anyone, cause I'm alive.
You showed me how, you seemed to find a hole, but I just laughed and smiled, begged and rolled my eyes, even cried and denied the truth to you, just like the truth to me, mostly lied.
I'm not going to look back
Write it out like glittering butterflies.
Ya. Forgot to mention. If any of you have any suggestions for song lyrics you'd like in this story, go ahead and shoot 'em at me. I might put them in a chapter. But, note that I won't put in anything too obscene, pop, rap, or country. Maybe some pop. But nothing like B.S. (haha it goes for bull shit and Britney spears), or Christina, or w/e haha! Weo! Thanks!