Ch. 9
It was 9:45 and the Morgan's still hadn't left to go for the church. Courtney was running around trying to find the diamond bracelet Matthew had given her for her birthday a few years ago while Caroline couldn't choose which dress to where. She had about 8 black dresses, but most of them were short and she knew Matt hated them for that reason. She wanted to wear something he would like. Only problem was she didn't know what that was.
Logan wore black dress pants and a black t-shirt with silver writing on it. She had trouble finding a pair of shoes, but Adella let her borrow a pair of hers and that crisis was averted. Emme had on a flowing Black skirt and a gray t-shirt while JJ wore a black suit like his father. Jason wasn't happy about wearing his suit. This time though, it wasn't because he hated getting dressed up, but because he hated what he was getting dressed up for.
Finally, at 10:15, the Morgan's drove in their limo to the church for Matthew's funeral. The car ride was silent, and when the limo got there, everyone jumped out and went to meet the rest of the family. All the people attending the funeral began to walk in, with the family greeting everyone. Something, or rather someone, caught Logan's eye though and she slid out the doors and looked around to find Ethan Alcazar standing in the bushes. "He cleans up well" Logan thought to herself.
Adella didn't miss seeing Ethan either, and she wasn't happy. Ethan always rubbed Adella the wrong way. Besides his last name being Alcazar, he wasn't exactly the nicest kid in town. She had heard stories of his partying and relationships. The relationships didn't last long, and they usually didn't end well either. Adella didn't want Logan to get burned by a creep like Ethan, but there wasn't much she could do about it. Logan was hurting because of Matthew and doing something reckless and crazy after tragedy was Logan's signature move. Yup; she could be Carly's daughter.
Logan walked over to Ethan and tapped him on the shoulder
Ethan: Hey
Logan: Hey, I didn't think you'd be here
Ethan: Yeah, well, I wanted to show you that I care. I'm really sorry about your brother.
Logan: Thanks
Ethan: You look gorgeous by the way. Even through bad times, you still shine.
Logan: You don't look too bad yourself. And thanks for coming. This does show me you care. I better be getting in though, my family will be looking for me since the service is about to start. Maybe I'll talk to you after?
Ethan: I'd like that
Logan walked in to the church with a smile on her face. The family thought that was somewhat weird, but they let it go. Eventually, everyone walked down the pews. It was a large church and the place was completely filled. All of the usual people were there, including all the Quartermaine's, Matthew's teachers, friends, and acquaintances. The first row was left empty for the Morgan's. JJ decided to walk in first, followed by Emme, Caroline, and finally Logan. Jason and Courtney began to walk in, when suddenly Courtney froze.
"Courtney, baby, what's wrong?" Jason whispered in her ear. Courtney spun around to look into the gorgeous blue eyes of her husband.
"I can't do this. I can't."
"Yes, you can. I know this is hard, but you've got to do this. I'm right here with you, I won't leave your side. Come on, let's keep walking."
"Do you know how much I love you?" Courtney asked
"Yeah, but I'll always love you more" Jason told her as he placed a sweet kiss on her forehead. Courtney found the strength within her to keep walking down the rows.
Seated in the left front row were Caroline, Logan, Emme, and JJ. In the right front row were Jason, Courtney, Carly, and Sonny. The Corinthos kids, Mike, Bobbie, and Janine filled in the second rows, while everyone else was scattered. The service began:
"We are here today to remember the life of an amazing young man. Matthew Alan Morgan was loved in this community and will stay that way forever. Matthew loved to play soccer. Not only was he on his school's varsity team, but he coached a youth team. His team members and coach's remember he came to practice everyday with a positive attitude which quickly spread throughout the team. Matthew's biggest love though was his family. His parents, Jason and Courtney, were a big influence on his life. He also very much admired his Uncle and Aunt, Sonny and Carly Corinthos, whom he considered his second parents. He always admired his older cousins, Michael and Morgan and his younger cousin, Adella Jean, was like a little sister to him. Matthew was also very close with his siblings. His older brother and sister, Jason Jr. and Emily Lynne, were role models for him and were always supporting and encouraging Matthew. His younger sisters, Caroline Lila and Logan Anne, meant the world to him. Matthew admitted to at times being over protective of them, but he was their big brother and saw it as his duty. He loved spending time with his family and thought the world of them. I've known Matthew since he was a little boy and know how great of a person he was, but I think we should hear from the people who knew him the best; his family and friends. The first person to speak today is Matthew's older brother, Jason Jr.
JJ took a deep breath, and after getting a quick hand squeeze from Emme, walked up to the podium and began
"Matthew was my little brother, my best pal, an important part of my life. I remember when my siblings and I were all little kids. All of us, me, Emme, Matthew, Caroline, and Logan, and we all had our "roles". I was more "the one in charge" if you will, since I'm the oldest. Yes, Emme, I'm the oldest… by 3 minutes and 20 seconds if anyone wanted to know. Anyways, Emme was always the princess, and Caroline was just as girly. Logan on the other hand was one of the guys, always playing sports and getting dirty… and getting into trouble. Matthew though, he was the reasonable and logical one. When Caroline and Logan would start fighting, it was Matthew who got them to stop. Matthew thought things through and was careful, but could take chances. He was an amazing little brother and I really don't know what I'm going to do without him. Matt and I decided early on that I would make sure boys stayed away from Emme, he'd make sure boys stayed away from Caroline, and we'd both watch over Logan, since we figured she'd get into the most boy trouble. But now, I've got to do it alone. And I will, for Matthew."
"Matthew, I know you're listening and watching this, and watching out for everyone. I just hope you know how much we love and miss you, and how much our lives will never be the same without you in it. I will always have a little brother, a best friend… always."
JJ took a long look at the large portrait of Matthew and walked off towards his seat.
"Thank you JJ, that was very touching. Next will be Matthew's best friend, Kyle Tanner"
Kyle walked towards the podium from his seat in the 5th row with the rest of the soccer team. It was apparent that the kid was hurting, but he began anyways
"Matthew Morgan was my best friend. We were inseparable since we met in the 7th grade. Matthew was such a good person; he had one of the biggest hearts and one of the smartest minds. He was athletically gifted too. That kid could kick a soccer ball around better than anyone I know and he loved doing it. Matthew and I had some good times, but not enough. Do you all know that it was me who was driving behind Matthew when his car crashed? Have any of you ever watched your best friend die? It was the most terrifying thing I've ever seen, and I just can't get it out of my head. Every time I close my eyes, I see the crash. I see it all. But I would see that replay in my head every day if I could see Matthew one more time. There's so much I need to tell him and do with him. We were supposed to graduate together this year. We were supposed to win the soccer championship together, and go to college together. Matthew I'm going to miss you so much, but you'll always be with me. We'll all get through this, I'm not sure how but we will. And I promise I'll look after your sisters, and make sure they're doing alright in school. And no boys for them, I promise... I know how you feel about Caroline and Logan and boys. I'm going to miss you kid. Save me a seat up there alright? Because I know we'll see each other again soon.
Kyle walked off, but not before getting a hug from Courtney. "Thank you for being such a good friend to my son" she whispered to the boy.
"Thank you for letting me" he replied back
The man running this show, so to speak, spoke again "Thank you Kyle. Next will be Matthew's youngest sister, Logan, who will say a few words before singing"
"Matthew was an amazing big brother. He was always there to listen to me and support me with what I was doing. He was the one who got me into sports. Matthew taught me how to kick a soccer ball and I will be forever grateful. But I am most grateful for my memories with my brother." Logan spoke. Then she turned to the portrait of Matthew
"Matthew, I know you're watching and listening to this. Why did you go? I just don't understand how an amazing kid like you is gone. I don't know how I'm going to get past this, or how our family will get past this. Somehow we will though, but only for you. You are the heart and soul of our family. Always and forever, Matthew. Please stay with me everyday and give me the strength to keep going because I don't think I can do anything without it. My kids will know about their Uncle Matthew, and my husband will know that he needs your approval. And I know that you will make your opinion of him known. Matthew, I will always love you and keep you with me. You are an angel now, you are my guardian angel" Logan finished as she wiped a tear from her eye
"Now, I'm going to try to sing a song for Matthew. I hope I can get through the song without breaking down, but if I can't… well let's just hope I can. The song is by Rascal Flatt's and it's called What Hurts the Most. Every word of this song is true Matt, every word."
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do
Logan finished her song, and walked towards the seat. She rested her head on Caroline's shoulder, while Caroline put a comforting arm around her little sister.
"That was beautiful Logan, thank you for speaking and singing. The final speaker for today will be Matthew's mother, Courtney Morgan"