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Luke is standing in front of the miror in his apartment, pulling at his tie.

I hate ties, and dressing up, but I do it every time. I really don't know why, it's not like she can't see me everyday, in everthing else. I guess it is for respect or something like that. Maybe tradition, I do it evertime. I wear the same suit, same shoes, and the same old stupid tie. Mainly because I don't want to buy a new suit or tie.

He walks over and sits on his bed, elbows on his knees, and head in hands. The clock says 4:30. Lorelai left around noon, after Lorelai's welcoming of Luke home. He had gotten home around 7, and they fell asleep around midnight. They had some fun last night.

I can't think about her while I'm going to see my mom, it is inappropriate. I am so glad Lorelai is going with me though. I know I put up a fight, but I want her to go. I just can't let my emotions get a hold of me this time. Not this time. I can not cry, like I normally do. Nobody sees me cry, but I miss them so much. I wish I would have knew her for longer than I did. I was only eleven at the time, just a stupid boy.

Lorelai said she would be there by 4:50, they would be at the cematery by 4:55-5. The Stars Hollow Cemetery was 4 miles outside of town, they would be a good distance away from the prying eyes of the townies.

That is the last thing I need, is the town watching me. I know that they know where I go on this day. But most of them have been smart enough to stay away fromme entirely on this day, Father's Day, both ofmy parents' birthdays,my Dark Day, that is the daymy Dad died, and the daymy mom died.I have6 hostile days, that no one messed with me.

KNOCK KNOCK!

Lorelai was at the door. She was dressed in a nice sundress, not too dressy, but enough to go along with his suit. And carrying a bouchet of wild flowers from Dooses.

Man does she look beautiful. I love her so much, I don't know what I would do without her. She is the best thing inmy life.

Lorelai found him on the bed, still sitting with his head in his hands. I hate this, he must be feeling aweful.I can't imagine what he is going through. My heart his pouring out to his, and his is feeling pain and loss, a loss no one should feel, exspecially for such a long time. He lost her so long ago.

"Are you ready?"

Luke didn't answer. He just got up, and stood beside her, his head dropped. She grabbed his hand, and they walked out the door, and to his truck.

I feel like a jackass, but I can't speak to her. If I open my mouth to speak, my voice will be shakey, and then they will just start flowing, that can't happen right now, not this time.

The drive was quiet, but a sadden quiet. Lorelai would take a glance at him every once in a while. Finally she took his hand.

"I'm here, you don't have to be tough in front of me. I've used your shoulder to cry on all the time, now it's my turn to repay the favor. I'm here for you, no need for a mask."

He looks at her, and she sees saddness, fear, neediness, want, and love. Lorelai's heart is breaking to see the man she loves in so much pain. It's hurting her to see him like this.

They pull into the cemetery, Luke grabs the flowers Lorelai picked out for him, well his mom. They walk hand in hand until they reached it. Graces Danes, A wonderful mother, wife and friend to all. She live until she was 34.

34, that is a very young age to die, I'm 36, I don't think I could handle dying at 34, so much more life to live.

They stood there for at least an hour, fingers intertwined, before Luke finally said something.

"I never told her good-bye." His voice was quiet, and shakey. Lorelai could tell that he was holding back tears.

"I'm sure she knew." Oh my, he must feel terrible.

"But I never told her, I was in denial." I miss her so much, and I never told her good-bye, I was such an idiot.

"You were 11." Damn he was young.

"I thought that some how, if I told her good-bye, it was giving her permission to leave, I didn't want her to leave." Stupid logic. His voice was getting worse, he was on the edge of breaking down. No Luke, hold them in, you can do it, no tears from those eyes. She will think you are weak, no tears.

"It makes sense, Luke, you were only a child."

"I wish I would have told her good-bye, and that I loved her." There it was, a single tear, fell from his eyes, rolled down his cheek, and fell down onto their joined hands. Damn it man, you let it break through. He couldn't hold them back any longer.

"Let it out Luke, I'm here, or I can leave if you want." I really don't want to see this man break down, but I will if he needs me.

"Stay." It was barely audible. She wasn't sure she even heard it, but then she felt his grip tighten.

Lorelai moved around, so she was in front of him, and hugged him. She held him tight, let him ground himself with her. She felt tears on her shoulder, soaking through her dress. He stayed like that for about 15 minutes.

I don't know what I would do if she wasn't here. Probably what I do every year, come here, cry, then go back to my apartment, and drowned myself in beer. But not this year, and I am so thankful.

"Lorelai, can I have a minute alone?" He was still really quiet.

"Yeah, I will be just right over there." She pointed to a bench about 50 feet away, he nodded, and she walked over to the bench and sat down.

Luke was still standing there, looking at the headstone. He took a step forward, and laid the flowers on her grave, and stood back.

"Mom, I wish you were here, you could help me in so many ways. Just being here, would be great. I'm sorry I didn't say good-bye, I just didn't want you to leave. I love you mom. I wanted to tell you that I'm finally with Lorelai, and I'm not gonna ruin it. Thanks for watching over me. Happy Mother's Day. I love you, and I will see you again."

He looked so solemn walking back over to Lorelai, Luke glanced at her, and walked to the truck, Lorelai trailed behind. The drive back, was just as silent as the drive there.

I never knew Luke could be so emotional. We got back around 6:45-7, disrobed and got in to bed. We are lying here, skin to skin, just holding on to each other. He needs me. It is just like when he found out about Liz and TJ, he needs to be connected. I can tell, his hands are starting to roam.

Lorelai was right, his hands were starting to move, rub her, and caress her.

"Luke, baby."

"Lorelai, please."

I know he needs it, but for some reason I feel reluctent. I want him to know that I'm here, that he doesn't have to be the strong one. He doesn't have to do it all. And I'm gonna show him.

Lorelai rolls him on his back, and kneels beside him, massaging his muscles. He's tense, all the depression of this day, taking it's toll on him. He looks a little older, and a little more rugged. She rubs his whole body, making sure that he knows, she wants to do this for him.

Tonight it is about him.

Yes I know, it was a little depressing, and not a lot of dialoge, but it is a sad subject, and the next update will be happier. Sorry no smutt, I know some of you enjoy that, I enjoy that, but it really didn't fit too much in the story.

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