Disclaimer: No. Detective Conan is not mine.

Hello!!!!!!!!!!!! This is my first DC fic and so please don't judge too harshly on it. In this fic, Ran and Shinichi do not end up together so please don't flame me if you don't like the pairing. You have been forewarned. I prefer ShihoXShinichi.

Also, because this is a Japanese show, I have put the last names in front of the first names because that's just the way it is. Thank you!

Haibara Ai – I'm not sure of her English name but has not appeared on Case Closed as of yet. She is the creator of the drug that made Conan shrink.

Shiho Miyano – Haibara's adult name.

Edogawa Conan – Edogawa Conan in Case Closed as well.

Kudou Shinichi – Jimmy Kudou

Mouri Ran – Rachel Moore

Mouri Kogoro – Richard Moore

Prof. Agasa – Dr. Agasa

Yoshida Ayumi – Amy Yoshida

Silent Life

Chapter One

The gentle washing of the water and the soft lapping at the stones… it was beautiful no doubt. Yet somehow, Haibara Ai could not find any peace… no matter how peaceful the place she was seemed.

Hopping off the large boulder she had been seated on only moments ago, she cursed inwardly as she twisted her ankle as she landed.

She thought she was already familiar with her new body. Now, she had a handicap. Great. Event through the pain she felt, her cold façade did not disappear.

Her auburn hair flowed in the wind while her clear eyes shone wonderingly at the world. and a bystander would have thought she was an angel… but they would have been wrong. True, on the outside, she was a cute seven year old. A sweet, smart, and pretty one at that. But inside she had already grown. A mature woman of…

"Seventeen already, huh?" the words flowed out of her mouth effortlessly, but the moment they escaped her lips, she bit down hard on her mouth. It was her fault. Her fault that she was eighteen but on the outside was still around seven years of age… it had hurt Conan too.

Kudou Shinichi. That was his real name. A brilliant high school detective shrunk to the size of a toddler all because of that stupid pill…. Her stupid drug. She had promised… that she would finish the antidote soon… but… almost a year had passed since she made that promise.

"Ai-chan!!" she flinched. It was her. That irritating… annoying woman. Shiho turned and pasted a smile across her face, "Yes, Ran-san?"

Ran walked over, frowning slightly, "Mou… How many times do I have to ask you to call me nee-chan?"

She bit her lip. Never. Never in a million years would this… girl be her nee-chan… Akemi was so much better… so much…

"Hello? Daijoubu, Ai-chan?" Shiho resisted the urge to scream. Ai-chan… that had to be the most… grating nickname she had ever been given. She could tolerate it when Yoshida-san (Ayumi) said it, but when it came from this woman… "Hai. Daijoubu."

True, she is a little better than that LOUD friend of hers, but it didn't matter… she would always dislike Ran.

"Come on then! Ai-chan, let's go inside! The party is starting!"

"…party?"

"Yes! Conan-kun planned it!"

Kudou… could he… could he actually have remembered…? Made a party for… did he even care?

He body went on autopilot as her mind swam around all these thoughts, and she did her best to suppress any feelings of slight hope… it just couldn't be…

"Isn't he so considerate?" Ran bent over and smiled at her small 'friend' as they walked towards Professor Agasa's house.

Shiho felt herself nod, then wince in pain as she put too much pressure on her hurt leg.

"He made me a going away party! He insisted that you be there too! I think he said something about speaking to you before the party though…"

Her heart stopped. Her blood stopped. She stopped. Biting her lip, Shiho tore away from Ran's grip and stood there, bangs shadowing her face.

"I knew it… he… he couldn't have… possibly…"

"Ai-chan?"

She shouldn't have raised her hopes. Shiho turned to look at the woman who was the object of Shinichi's affection. Mouri Ran. "N-Nothing's wrong. I…"

"Let's go then!" Shiho was once again being led away by an overly exuberant seventeen-year-old girl. Resisting the urge to rip Ran to pieces, she took deep breaths and kept her head down as she walked into Prof. Agasa's living room.

Finally the annoying brown-haired girl had let go of her hand, but Shiho was still… upset. The light tap on her shoulder didn't help. She knew who it was, "Kudou-kun?"

It was just them in the corner of the room, everyone else was inside having a great time… congratulating Ran…

Again. Her hand became a fist. Again Mouri Ran stole something that was precious to her. First it was…

"Do you mind if I take a pill?" her head shot around in surprise and she stared at the boy behind her.

"W-what did you say?"

He sighed and ran a hand through his hair nervously, "I was wondering… if I could take one of the temporary antidotes that you made… just for today… to say goodbye to Ran, you know…?"

She stopped him with a wave of her hand, "You do know it's dangerous to take the antidote more than once a week… you had to use it just a few days ago!"

"But… I have to speak with Ran as Shinichi. Conan can't make her stay behind…"

"Stay?" Shiho was sure she had become deaf. "You can't seriously mean you want her not to go abroad to study. She's smart! She made it that far! Are you going to be that selfish?"

He was nervous. Taking off his glasses and wiping them clean with the end of his jacket he spoke, "I didn't mean like that. I meant leave her heart here you know… for me…"

"You just needed to say goodbye."

"… er… basically yes… You know I feel weird asking you and stuff but…"

Shiho waved him off again, "It's dangerous, but it's your choice. Come with me."

"Thanks!" he hugged her happily. When he noticed how she froze when he made contact with her, he immediately let go. "S-Sorry…"

A curt nod excused his behavior and she led him up the stairs to her room, "You brought a change of clothes right?"

"They're in the cupboard on the bathroom."

She pressed a hidden button on the bottom of the table ledge and a quiet 'click' could be heard. Pulling out the top drawer of her desk, she again pressed a hidden button on the underside of the drawer and a wooden panel popped out. Reaching through all the files inside, she found a small plastic container.

"Wow. You've made a lot of them," she liked that there was respect in his voice.

Doing her best to maintain the cold expression on her face, Shiho determinedly kept back the tears that were threatening to fall, "Well you seem to need them a lot. Here."

She took a small white capsule from the container and handed it to him.

"Thanks!" he grinned boyishly at her before dashing out the room in the direction of the bathroom.

Shiho put her head down. She would not cry. It didn't matter that no one noticed that she was hurt… inside and out. It did not matter that no one remembered… didn't matter that he loved Ran… She would not cry. Who cares if no one remembered her birthday… it's not like the Black Organization celebrated her sweet sixteen either…

Walking over to the door of the bathroom, she knocked. "Are you done? Give me Conan's clothes. I'll be you for today. Mouri-san will definitely notice if you're not there… Haibara Ai is never noticed anyway."

Her bangs fell forward and a shadow crept over her eyes. It did not matter. She would not cry. It didn't matter that he loved Ran. It didn't matter that Shiho loved Shinichi. It did not matter. She would not cry. She would not cry.

To be continued…

So… what do you think? PLEASE REVIEW!!!!! This is my first Conan fic so I know it's not exactly first rate.

REVIEW PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

daijoubu? – are you ok?

Nee-chan – older sister