Disclaimer: Nope not mine… what form of suicide do you think is appropriate for this type of situation?
Thank you SO MUCH to everyone that reviewed! Let me clarify one thing though, this is not my first fanfic this is my first Detective Conan Fanfic. Thanks!!!!
I'm surprised there are so many ShihoxShinichi supporters! I'm happy! I haven't been able to find that many of them and I actually was surprised when there was no serious bashing when I posted this.
BTW, in response to one of my reviews, actually I do think Shinichi might hug a girl is he's happy, I mean, remember the episode when he was going to propose to Ran? He hugged a girl during the case and it was not Ran. - Thanks for reviewing though!
Silent Life
Chapter Two
Shinichi's POV
No one ever notices? Shiho…
"What do you mean?" Shinichi grinned at Haibara as he opened the door. "Of course people notice! Would Prof. Agasa take you in if he didn't notice you? Geez. Your logic is kind of off today…"
"Don't think anything of it," Haibara waved him off quickly. Her bangs were shadowing her face so that he couldn't see her eyes.
Shiho…
She turned so that her back was facing him and began walking away, but a hand on her shoulder stopped all movement., "Oi… Haibara… Daijoubu?"
"Hm? Yes of course, why wouldn't I be?" her blue eyes had a trace of pink… but maybe it was just his imagination. "Oh, by the way. Give me Conan's clothes. I have to be him for today… and maybe a little bit of tomorrow too… Mouri-san is going to notice if her beloved Conan isn't there."
… What's wrong with her? First she seems slightly worried about me… which isn't really possible… probably just a trick my mind is playing on me… and now she seems sad.
Wordlessly, he handed the clothes to her and she began walking to her room. His eyes followed her the entire lengthy of the hallway until the door quietly shut, but even then he couldn't her the image of her walking… slowly… away… out of his mind.
Why is it that she seems so lonely these days? Anniversary of her sister's death? No… that's not it… that was a little while ago.
His breath caught as his memories flashed a picture of a crying girl sitting in front of a grave not leaving, even though the rain was pouring. She hadn't left all day and night and hadn't said a word to him for the rest of the week… even the Detective Boys had understood that they shouldn't bother their slightly… different friend.
"Well… I better try and not speak for a while… I can't fake sick so soon, everyone would suspect something," Shinichi's head shot up and he stared at… Conan… no… Haibara.
"You know, you should just stay Conan, you wear him well!" Shinichi laughed patted "Conan" on the back. It was true, it was hard to tell that this new Conan was none other than Haibara Ai, the cold, quiet girl who ignored most of the world.
For some reason, a flush ran onto her cheeks and her head dropped low and she stared at the ground for a few moments before saying, "You probably shouldn't show up until later… it's too dangerous to be out in the sun and they might want you to go play "games" with them outside."
With that, she left, walking silently down the stairs.
What… what was that? I had just joked about her staying Conan… for fun… to make her feel better… but…
Shinichi's hand rose and clutched his heart and he knelt on the ground suddenly very pained. Why… did it feel like she was leaving me forever? Closing off from me… why does it bother me?
"Che. I really shouldn't get so emotional… probably side effects from the pill," he got up and slipped into Prof. Agasa's room. "Besides… I shouldn't think so much…"
His hand turned over and revealed in his palm was a small, black, velvet box. Eyes shadowing his face, a hesitant smile appeared, "I still have to give Ran this…"
Haibara's POV
Naze…
Why did he have to go and say that? Do I….
Her small fingers brushed the wig that she was wearing.
Do I really look that much like a… boy? Like Conan? I bet… he doesn't even really think of me as a woman… especially with this body… and my past. I'm merely the… the… the scientist who hurt him… but is atoning for her sins by making an antidote.
Yes… all that matters is that I make an antidote and then after that… after… that…
Edogawa Conan… no Haibara Ai stood in the doorway, staring out at all her friends… no acquaintances. She didn't have the right to call them friends, she was a murderer after all.
After that… I will disappear from their lives forever. It's safer that way. There's no need for me to stay… nothing for me to hold on to.
With that in mind, Haibara mustered all her courage and stepped into the room.
"Conan-kun!!" she nearly didn't realize that it was her who Yoshida was calling. "Yoshida- I mean, Ayumi-chan! Nani?"
There was a small device in her mouth that projected Conan's voice instead of hers. But still, she had to keep talking to a minimum. If she spoke too much, her way of speaking would give Shinichi away.
"Hurry! They're about to start cutting the cake!" Ayumi ran up and grabbed her hand excitedly. "Hayaku!!!!"
"O-Ok!" she did her best to act like Edogawa Conan and raced off with her little 'friend.' "Um… what kind of cake is it?"
Ayumi shot her an incredulous look, "You picked it! You should know!" "O-Of course!" Haibara sweatdropped and managed to paste a smile on her face. Today was going to be a long day.
All in all, even she had to admit, the party was good. Ran had specifically asked her to be her partner for water balloons, but Haibara suspected that the older girl became suspicious when her beloved Conan-kun didn't call her Ran-neechan.
But here was the important part. She had to get everyone else but Ran out of the house so that Shinichi could speak to her.
"Minna!!" Haibara called out in her best Conan impression. "For an end to the party, Prof. Agasa is setting off fireworks at the park right down the street! Let's all go!"
"Yatta!" the detective boys were dancing around the professor as they began walking out the front door.
A small click in Haibara's pocket set off the phone upstairs and she ran to get it, "Ran! It's for you!"
"You guys go on ahead!" she could hear Ran calling out to the rest of their friends. Her footsteps echoed as she walked up to where Haibara was and she thanked her before taking the phone. "Moshi moshi?"
"Conan-kun" ran off and supposedly left with everyone else, but in truth, Haibara had hid behind the table.
"Moshi moshi? Mou! No one is there! What was Conan-kun doing?" sighing, the brown haired girl put the phone in the receiver and turned to go down the stairs, but stopped.
Actually, the pair of arms encircling her waist stopped her. But she wasn't a karate champion for nothing, "HYAA!"
Ran's left foot shot straight into the stomach of Shinichi, slamming him hard against the wall.
"S-Shinichi?!" Ran ran over to help him up. "Why are you here? A-Are you ok?" "Your kick." "Huh?"
"Your kick," he grinned, as he stood up, holding his stomach. "Is still as strong as ever, Ran… actually… I think it's stronger."
"You're back… I can't believe it… are you going to stay?" a few tears dripped down her face and Shinichi hurriedly wiped them away with his thumb and held her close.
"I'm sorry Ran… I can't stay just yet… but I'm close. Very close to being done with this case…"
Che. I guess they really are made for one another… I really shouldn't be listening… I should leave them alone… give them their privacy…
But for some reason, Haibara's legs were planted to the ground and her breath caught in her throat as she watched Shinichi lean down and plant a kiss on Ran's lips.
I wish… no. Don't think about that. Don't even go there Miyano Shiho. Haibara scolded herself and tried to will her legs to take her away from that place.
"I wanted to ask you last time… but a few men from the case I'm working on appeared…" a silver band was slipped onto a surprised Ran's finger. "W-Would… you marry me?"
"I…" Ran was speechless… so was Haibara. "I'm so… surprised."
What she had wanted to say was happy, but… she was so shocked.
"… You don't have to give me an answer now…" he kissed her again. "I'm just happy to see you Ran… I know this is sudden." He flashed her a grin before he felt his insides give a jolt.
Fool. You shouldn't have taken the pill so early in the day… you just couldn't wait, could you?
Haibara slipped out of her hiding place and soundlessly went to her room to change, doing her best not to break out crying.
It should NOT hurt. I do NOT like him so why… I'm just so lonely… and pathetic. If nee-chan saw me… she'd laugh I'd bet. I need to get my act together.
When she got out of her room, dressed as Haibara Ai, Ran had already left, and Shinichi was in the bathroom.
She knocked and the door opened just enough for her to hand Conan's clothes in.
"How was it," she found her voice and spoke, but for a while, Shinichi met her question with silence. "… I did it. I asked her to marry me."
The door swung open and out stepped Conan, "But… she hasn't given me an answer yet… I swear. I thought I was going to die."
Choosing to play the cold and calculating friend, Haibara shrugged, "She'll get to it eventually. You were rather sudden about it after all. Come on. They're probably whining about a missing Conan."
The two walked in silence to the park.
"Where you listening?"
"…yes…"
"Kind of embarrassing, wasn't it?" Conan grinned and put his hands behind his head as they walked along the road. "But I did it. I asked."
"…no…"
"Huh?" he turned and looked at her. She could feel his questioning gaze boring into her very being. "I said no. It wasn't embarrassing."
"…oh…"
Conan seemed to notice something else in her, causing her to blush because he was now staring, "What is it?"
"I was going to ask you the same thing."
She turned to look at him, raising her eyebrows in a quizzical manner.
"I mean… you seem a little depressed."
"Oh. I'm fine."
"But really!" He stopped her when she began to walk away. "Is something wrong? I know there is something."
"Nope nothing."
He sighed, "You really are exhausting to talk to. Just tell me. Give me some answer or I won't let you go." "Something is on my mind then."
"Yes, what is on your mind?"
"You're exhausting to talk to as well," she let small smile grace her lips before turning to look up at the stars. "Fine then… it's my birthday today."
She left him there, gaping at her.
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To be continued…
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BTW. Just to clear a few things up. This is not my first fanfic, but it's my first DETECTIVE CONAN fanfic. Ok?
Naze – why?
Nani – what?
Moshi moshi – hello on the telephone
Hayaku – hurry
Minna - everyone