This chapter has been edited as of October, 27 2006
Chapter 3: Confession
Sasuke sat up quickly. It took him a moment to adjust his senses to his surroundings and even longer to remember what happened. After a bit, he realized that he wasn't in the forest anymore, but in a small abandoned shack he saw a few times while traveling through the trees. Naruto's green coat was covering him and there was a small fire burning on the floor in the middle of the one room structure. Sasuke rubbed his throbbing head and laid back down on the cold floor. His eyes popped open. Suddenly he remembered! Naruto cruelly tricked him with a false kiss to distract him and injected some sort of chemical into his body, the effects of which still hadn't worn off completely. Sasuke rolled his hand into a shaking fist.
"How DARE he! How dare he take advantage of me like that!"
He was about to get up when Naruto entered carrying an armful of wood,
"Don't bother trying to get up," he said, "The sedate specifically affects the victim's legs so they can't move." He bent down and added some wood to the fire, "It won't ware off for another 10 hours at least."
Sasuke didn't bother to try to move his legs, he knew the effects of the chemical.
"What the hell is this? You've kidnapped me now; is that it? Trying to force me back to that stupid worthless spit of land? Even if you somehow manage to get me there, no matter how much sedate you use, I'll recover and then I'll slaughter everyone in that village just as my brother did to mine! Then maybe you'll realize that I don't and never will belong there ever again!"
Naruto sat down on the other end of the fire across from Sasuke. He put his hand to his face,
"Why does everyone keep saying that to me?"
"BECAUSE IT'S THE TRUTH YOU DUMBSHIT!"
Naruto looked back at Sasuke as the flames danced around his face.
"Sasuke…I didn't sedate you to force you back to that 'spit of land.' I simply wanted you to hear me out."
"About what?"
"About…why you need to come home."
Sasuke rolled his cold eyes and laid back down staring at the ceiling. He dramatically threw his arms up in the air.
"Anytime now! I'm all ears!"
Naruto glared at his face and spoke.
"Sasuke…you've been wandering by yourself for 3 years. You've done nothing and contacted no one for so long. Why?"
Sasuke didn't answer right away.
"Why?" He said, "Because…Because that's the way I wanted to live the rest of my pathetic life…in solidarity."
Naruto brought his knees to his face and stared into the fire for a moment.
"You're lying…" he whispered.
Sasuke whipped his angry head around but was surprised to see Naruto smiling at him.
"I...I could always tell when you were lying. Ever since the day I met you, you always acted so high and mighty so you tended to answer questions immediately. But whenever you were asked a question you didn't know the answer to or didn't want to answer…you'd pause for a moment and then say something ridiculous. It was always your tell tale sign."
"Hmph…you're going to use some stupid childish behavior to determine my mind now?"
"Yes…because…Sasuke, you are still a child…we both are. In a sense our lives haven't even started yet. You're 19 and I'm only 18…our stories have just begun."
"Oh cut the poetic shit…my life's purpose was met 4 years ago when I killed him."
Naruto closed his eyes,
"So that has always been your dream has it?...Even before your family died your dream was always to avenge them? That doesn't make much sense to me. Sasuke, didn't you have a goal when you were a little kid; before the tragedy?
Sasuke's eyes widened,
"I don't know…did I?"
After Sasuke didn't talk for a bit Naruto began to ask again,
"Come on, you must have had a-"
Sasuke spoke,
"That dream…was to become a great ninja just like my brother."
There was a long silence after that.
"But…that goal didn't work out too well."
Naruto spoke,
"No…it didn't. But Sasuke…I not sure about 'being like Itachi' but you can still become a great ninja. That's why you have to come home."
"And the people there are just supposed to welcome me back with open arms?"
Naruto didn't know how to answer that…he covered his face in his hands. He managed to say,
"There are people there who care about you deeply."
"DON'T TELL ME LIES!"
Sasuke shouted,
"NO ONE THERE CARED ABOUT ME!
TO THE ADULTS, I WAS JUST THEIR PRIZED PERFECT PUPIL!
AND ALL MY 'FRIENDS'?! DON'T MAKE ME LAUGH! THEIR SO CALLED 'CONCERN' WAS NOTHING BUT BULLSHIT! NO ONE CARED ABOUT ME…NO…no one truly loved me when I was there…no one…not one son of a-"
"I DID!!!"
A shocked Sasuke looked up to see Naruto on his feet, fists clenched.
"You'd like to think that wouldn't you!? You'd love to believe that no one cared about or loved you…WELL NEWFLASH YOU STUPID ASS! I DID!"
But he didn't stop there,
"When it first came to me...I thought it was brotherly love…that I loved you like you were my best friend…but…but it wasn't. When I got a bit older I realized that I wanted to be near you, to touch you…to give myself to you, to hold you tightly and lovingly. I loved you Sasuke…and I still love you to this day. And, I just can't stand to see you in so much pain anymore…I want you to stop being a moron and come home. To become the Sasuke I knew when I was a kid. I want you to accept my feelings and let me be with you."
Sasuke didn't know how to answer this.
"Y-You're lying! You're being ridiculous! H-How do you expect me to believe all that crap?!"
Naruto stared at Sasuke for a moment and then got up and sat next to him. Naruto ran his fingers gently through Sasuke's black hair and then took his face in his hands…
"…Like this…"
For the second time that day Naruto kissed him, but it wasn't like the first kiss, this one was slow, deep and wet. After a while, Naruto released his mouth from Sasuke's.
"Do believe me now?"
Sasuke put his hand to his mouth and stared at the floor.
"You can't be serious…you…you just can't." He put his head between his legs, "I've done too many terrible things…you can't love me like that…I've scarred too any people, I've taken too much happiness. There's no way in hell you could ever feel that way about me now…"
"Maybe not…but we're not in hell are we?…"
Sasuke shook his head,
"Yes we are…all of us are writhing in the flames of our own pain and filth…and…and I was the one who started those flames."
Naruto took hold of Sasuke's hand.
"But…I love you all the same. I know I do."
He tightened his gripped on Naruto's hand.
"How can you know that?"
"Love doesn't need an explanation…but it doesn't matter if I love you; the only thing that matters is how you feel."
And then, for the first time in years…Sasuke sincerely smiled.
"You speak such ridiculous things sometimes…you always have…and always will." Naruto stared at him a bit perplexed by his odd response, but Sasuke wasn't finished speaking.
"You know…since the very first day I ran away from Konoha…I cried at night. Even as the monster I was…every single night, no matter where I was, or what I was doing, or who I was with…I cried. Never once did I cry in a hysterical or passionate fashion…I…I never even understood why I was crying at all…but every night, the tears always came. They'd immediately begin pouring from my eyes…slowly, gently…and sadly. I would sometimes antagonize over the unknown reason for their existence…but I never figured it out…until now…" he looked at Naruto as the blond stared back at him, eyes blazing from the fire.
Sasuke stroked Naruto's face, "What do you notice tonight Naruto?"
Naruto blinked as he was pulled back to reality,
"Um…I…I don't know…"
Sasuke's rare warm smile returned as he brought his face a mere centimeter away from Naruto's,
"There are no tears tonight…" he whispered as he brought his lips to the blond's.
They sat there for a long time, just melting into that one kiss. It was their first kiss in a sense…because both of them consciously accepted it with open arms and open hearts. They pulled back slowly and then suddenly the Uchiha embraced Naruto,
"Thank you so much…"
Naruto was surprised.
"For what?"
"For not giving up on me…no matter how much shit I got myself into. Tonight…I now realize it. The reason I cried every night. It was because that no matter what…deep inside my black heart…I missed home…I missed you…I yearned for you. So thank you…because you did more then just bring me home Naruto…so much more."
Naruto held him back,
"My pleasure…"
They sat there for a moment.
"Naruto?"
"Hm?"
"I know I'm late but…would you ever become one with me…if I asked?"
Naruto pulled back from their embrace and looked at Sasuke's limp legs,
"…If you can-"
Sasuke smirked.
"Yes, I think so."
He caught hold of Naruto's wrists, quickly moved his own legs and pinned him to the ground with full force. He shoved his mouth onto Naruto's and quickly began removing his clothing. Naruto sat up and tore Sasuke's shirt off. In between their passionate kissing Naruto finally managed to gasp out a few words.
He inhaled and exhaled frantically, as Sasuke kissed his bare chest.
"You're…moving?!"
Sasuke paused a moment and laid his head atop Naruto's stomach and stared at him.
"Dobe. Did you really think I could be kept paralyzed for very long? The sedate wore off awhile ago. When you came in with the fire wood I could've escaped…but…"
"…you waited to hear me out." Naruto finished for him.
He nodded and Naruto stroked his face gently. Sasuke then bent forward and began nipping affectionately at Naruto's ear,
"How can you forgive me just like this?" he asked in a hushed whisper. His hot breath swam its way through Naruto's ear.
Naruto embraced his body and kissed his neck,
"Because I've always believed that ever since you ran away…you've been asking for forgiveness…and I felt its bout time you got it."
They smiled at each other once again but after that no more words were exchanged.
It was mid-winter and there wasn't any heat in that small shack, but it was alright. The two of them didn't need artificial heat…
UPDATE 10-27-06: I've been meaning to re-edit this chapter for about 3 months now…and now I have! This one turned out a whole hell lot better! I hope you enjoyed it!
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