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Chapter 12
The next morning, Ruthie woke up with a feeling of uncertainty. She didn't know if she was doing the right thing. She had developed a relationship with a person who she thought was incredible, but she was questioning what exactly being in love meant. Ruthie headed downstairs to get some breakfast along with a side of advice.
"Mom, can I ask you something?" She leaned against the edge of the counter.
"Sure honey."
"How do you know when you're in love?" Ruthie asked.
"I don't know how to explain it. I guess, you just know. You get this warm feeling inside that tells you that they are the right person," Mrs. Camden told Ruthie.
"But how do you know for sure?"
"Well, there is this one moment. The moment when no matter where you are or what you're doing you would rather be with them and you would do anything you could to be by their side at the end of the day," Mrs. Camden said.
"Thanks Mom," Ruthie said, as she headed back upstairs, forgetting all about breakfast.
Ruthie sat down on her bed and picked up the phone. She dialed Lucy and Kevin's number.
Lucy was feeding Savannah when she heard the loud shriek of the telephone. She walked over and picked up the phone.
"Hello," she said into the phone. Lucy held the phone with her chin as she returned to feeding her daughter.
"Hi," Ruthie said. Lucy immediately got a bad feeling in the pit of her stomach.
"How did Martin take it?" Lucy asked. She wanted to get straight to the point and rule out the option of beating around the bush.
"He told me that I should go," Ruthie told her sister, sighing.
Lucy could tell that it was no longer about Martin.
"What's wrong?"
"I don't know if going to Scotland for the summer is the right thing to do. I'm not sure if I want to test the waters," Ruthie told her.
"This is something that you want to do right?" Lucy asked Ruthie.
"Yes, but I don't want to lose Martin," Ruthie told Lucy.
"You are not going to lose him Ruthie. He would never do that to you," Lucy told her, sincerely.
"If I went, I would also be missing out on things here. I'd miss the birth of the twins and watching them grow up," Ruthie continued.
"Ruthie, you're just going away for the summer, not forever," Lucy said, chucking.
"It would seem like forever," Ruthie responded.
"Going to Scotland is a once in a lifetime opportunity. If you don't take that opportunity, you will be missing out on what might be the best summer of your life. The other things, they will be here when you get back. You will have the chance to experience those things forever, but going to Scotland for the summer, you can only experience that once," Lucy told her sister.
"I know you're right, so why do I feel like this is a huge mistake?" Ruthie asked Lucy.
"Because you're scared. You're scared of what will happen if don't go, but at the same time you are scared of what will happen if you do. You know that if you go, you will be experiencing a wonderful world that will be new and exciting, but you also know that if you don't go there is no way that you and Martin's relationship could get off course. You need to put aside any insecurity that you have about you and Martin and seize this opportunity," Lucy told her sister, honestly.
"I guess you're right. Martin will always be my friend, but the opportunity to go away for the summer will only happen once," Ruthie said.
"You'll have a great time in Scotland, and when you get back I want to hear all about it," Lucy told her.
Ruthie smiled. "Thanks."
"Anytime little sister, anytime," Lucy told Ruthie.
Ruthie gently placed the phone in its cradle. Ruthie placed her hands across her chest and stared up at the ceiling. She had a huge grin plastered on her face. She had finally let herself fly free. Her sister had helped her realize that she needed to have faith. She needed to believe that everything between her and Martin would work out and that going to Scotland was the best thing. Most importantly though, she needed to believe in herself and know that whatever path life took her on, there would always be light at the end of the tunnel.