Author's notes
Disclaimer. Not mine the end.
Warning: Angsty and confusing
Yeah, I'm abit down today so I kinda killed someone in this fic. Well not really kill. I'm not sadistic, I swear. I'm fairly sane.
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Do you think it was wrong? As I hold you're petit hand in mine. You cried onto me as they announced your grandfather dead. I couldn't take it away. The pain that you're feeling now. Weeks ago, you told me I was something special to you. But what can I do?
I can't be with you. I can't comfort you the way you want me too. After telling you that I love you I had nothing else to think about. The only bit of emotion in me gone just like the sparkle that fell from you're eyes just a moment ago.
There's no cheerfulness in your voice. I can't see your smile only the pain as you let those pent up tears go. You cry and tell me why. And I sit there quietly and hold you close.
Your grandfather the died. The only one in your family that could be there for you. Your brother and father halfway across the world.
It seems like you have nothing left. And I do nothing but agree with you.
Eventhough I'm here. It's really not much.
Because I'm nothing.
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Flashback
"Kai, see those!" I walked up to you. And I watched as you danced around the flowers aimlessly.
Then suddenly you stopped in front of a flower. The only purple one in the field. Your eyes sparkled as you reached down and carressed it so softly.
"Why is there only one?"
Takao looked at Kai and smiled.
"Lavender, nice neh?" Kai nodded.
"They're my mothers favourite. To tell you the truth, the whole field was actually full of lavender. It looked like a sea of purple."
"What happened?"
"Nobody tends to this flowers last time. So my mother did. She planted those lavenders by herself."
"All of them?"
"Every single one of them" Kai was surprised but not much. The way Takao talked about her she seemed like one of those that really care for something.
" Then she died." His sapphire eyes darkened.
Kai shook his head.
"They all wilthered. And the only one left was this." He smiled.
Kai wondered why but kept quiet. Takao smiled brighty.
"It tells me not to give up. And I won't Kai." Takao stood up and wrapped his arms around Kai.
"Now I no longer have to climb a hill to get better..." Takao snuggled into Kai's chest as Kai stroke his hair.
He shook his head and looked up staring into Kai's crimson eyes.
" I have you..." Kai held Takao close as he felt Takao shaking.
Tears fell down.
"Don't leave me, Kai..."
Flashback over
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Normal Pov
After the funeral after everything that seemed to cause to much pain for Takao. He broke down. In the middle of the dojo everybody watches as Takao's eyes darken. Music was filling the background from just now as though to calm him down but then he stood up.
He started to dance. So slowly. His hands rose up in the air . His head shaking like a gentle wind.
His hips swaying and everyone stared at him in a trance as he moved his petit body to the gentle song. Tears fell down from those once so beautiful sapphire eyes.
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Kai's Pov
Just a broken doll.
Pulled by the strings.
There's nothing to hold on.
You'd keep falling.
You can't stop
Tears fall down.
You can't concentrate.
When can I be there for you? I stood up and turned to leave from the room. Then I heard your voice.
Don't leave me...
I turned and looked into your blank eyes. You twirl around, never once taking you're eyes off of me.
And everytime you twirl and I caught your eyes and I can hear you. Calling me ...
Promise me...
I did promise you. I walked up to you. Everyone stared. I didn't know why but I kept walking. In front of you, you stopped twirling. I held your hips. You looked up at me. Those blank eyes. I can't stand it. Not those eyes. I pulled your face to my chest. Everyone walked away knowing that we needed some space.
I leaned down. Making sure you would hear me.
"I . WON'T. LEAVE. YOU." So fiercely, just to assure the angel before me.
EVER...
I heard sobbing. Your tears soaking my chest.
This was the Takao I know. The one who would cry, laugh and smile. You looked up at me with those insecure eyes. I held you tighter. You're eyes turning to those misty pools that I always seem to sink into.
"Thank you..."
"For what?" You looked up and giggled as I gave that simple answer. I smiled as I picked you up from the ground bridle style.
"Kai be there for me." You looked at your own hands and fiffled with your fingers.
"Always..." I reply. You gave me a small kiss.
"Grandpa's dead, Kai." I looked away not knowing what to say but then I felt a hand cupped my cheek. You pulled my face to look at you. And I watch you beautiful eyes search me.
"But you're not..." You put your arms around my neck.
"You'd stay with me."
You whispered so softly.
"Forever..."
And I held your petit hand tightly.