Chapter Nineteen:
Farewells and Worries
The next day during breakfast Harry thought he should ask about heading home soon.
"So..." he started but Sirius interrupted him.
"You all have been here much to long we must get you home today" he said.
"How are we gona go all the way back to the entry way in a day?" Ron said.
"Well you see you boys took the long way here really. All you need to get to the door is a good spell" Sirius said grinning.
"OH! Why didn't we think of that" Hermione said.
"Did, couldn't find one" Shane said.
They all packed up their things and put them in a pile at the center of camp. Harry really wasn't sure if he was happy to go or not, on one hand he would have to leave his Dad behind but on the other he'd get to go back to Hogwarts.
"Ready to go?" James said smiling at him.
"I guess" Harry said.
"What's the matter?" he said.
"Well if we go back I won't see you anymore" Harry said.
"Well we've still got our book now don't we? We'll write each other" he said patting Harry's back.
"Alright let's go now, gather round" Sirius said. They all gathered around his and their stuff as he uttered a small spell and a white glow came around them. When the smoke cleared a sort of mirror appeared in front of them. Through it Harry could see people. At first he couldn't make them out.
"Lupin!" he said.
Lupin and Dumbledore turned slowly looking into the mirror at Harry and the others. Lupin eyes grew big staring at James standing behind Harry. James moved and touched his hand up to the mirror but it didn't go through like Harry had thought it might.
Harry touched a hand to the mirror and it went straight through, he pulled it back looking at it.
"It's time to go" Sirius said to them. The others went through one by one Ron then Hermione and Shane, Airean, and Luna. Sirius turned and looked at Harry.
"You can't stay you know that" he told Harry.
Harry turned and looked at James. "I..." he broke off.
"It's all right I know" James said hugging him. He gave Harry a little push through the mirror and Sirius followed him.
Harry turned to look at where the veil should have been but nothing was there anymore.
"What happened to the-" he started only to be cut off by Dumbledore.
"It has served it's propose that it was made for long ago. It isn't needed anymore." he said smiling at Harry and the others. "But I think right now what we need to do is to get you all back to school for Christmas, after all it's tomorrow you know?" Dumbledore said smiling.
Harry lay on his bed thinking, all the others were very happy to be home and Ron's family had even been waiting for him at school when he got back. Harry was having mixed feelings though, he hated the thought of never seeing his Dad again...writing to him just wasn't the same. Yet he had got what he wanted so much, he got Sirius back in his life so why couldn't he be a little happier?
"Ohh this is pointless!" Harry said rolling over.
"What is pointless now?" Sirius said smiling at him.
Harry sat up and looked at him. "How long have you been there?" he said.
"Long enough to know you're not very happy" Sirius said looking him in the eye.
Harry sighed and looked at him. If he couldn't open up to Sirius after all he'd went through to have him back then whom could he talk to. "I'm scared" he said.
Sirius looked at Harry. 'The poor boy has had to bear so much' "Of what?" he asked.
"I don't wana do it! I don't wana fight Voldemort or his death-eaters or anyone. I don't wana see him. I don't wana live with people who hate me. I don't wana be Harry Potter anymore. It's too hard and I'm scared I'll lost it" Harry said a tear dripping down his cheek.
Sirius rapped his arms around Harry hugging him and sighed. "I'm so sorry Harry so sorry" he said.
Harry looked at him. "I'm sorry I'm ruining your Christmas Eve I'm fine really" Harry said sitting up and giving him a weak smile.
Sirius shook his head. "Your not, and all I need to be happy is the ones I care about and you're my godson I care about you and if you're upset you should talk about it." he said. "I know your scared about Voldemort but there is really nothing that can be done about that, but no one says you have to face him alone you've got me and your friends and the whole wizarding world backing you up. Oh and I'm sure you won't have to live with those ugly relatives of yours much longer."
Harry only could nod.
Harry lay awake in bed till he felt someone shaking him.
Read on things are about to get juicier!