Chapter 5 questions that shouldn't be answered

As always the two boys appeared in the bathtube of Yuuris home, Wolfram lieing on his fiancé, looking into eachothers eyes, their lips met in a passionate kiss, soft groans escaping both of them.

"I love you Wolfram!" Yuuri whispered as they broke the kiss again.

"I love you too!" Wolf replied softly and climbed out of the bathtube, Yuuri followed landing on top of his beloved, both had forgotten about their nudeness, Wolf just needed Yuuri, desperatly.

"Konban wa Yuu-chan" the young kings mother said happily, but her smile died as she saw the two boys naked on the floor, on eachother "I'm sorry, I didn't want to..."

Noticing that they were still naked "No, we just arrived here...that's why we are..."

His mother dropped the towels onto the floor "Oh, then take them and get into your room Yuuri, give him some clothes please, dinner is ready in an hour." She left smiling again.

Wolfram helped Yuuri to his feet and pressed him against the wall, somehow this reminded him on Shori...he kissed his king desperatly...wanting...needing.

After Yuuri broke their kiss again he took a towel and put it around Yuuris waist, befor he put one around his own too and helped Yuuri to get into his old room.

"Wolf, may you look for some clothes on your own?"

But the young Mazoku had no interest in getting dressed, he pushed the king down onto the bed and started kissing him again, his body getting hotter every second, eerytime he touched Yuuris skin with his own and one part of Wolf showed more than anything else how much he needed his fiancé. He covered his kings chest with hot kisses.

"Wolf, I can't..."

"Shh, I know Yuuri...I know..." How couldn't he, he was just hoping Yuuri would fnd out the reason soon and be able to make love to him, or else he'd explode, that's at least what he thought. He rested his head over Yuuris heart listening to his heart beat.

"Yuuri, you're here again? Why?" Shori had entered the room, obviously ignoring the blonde.

"Yes I am here, as you can see...but why...well I don't know..."

"Tell me brother..."

"You shouldn't call me brother you know that...and that's nothing you are supposed to know about!" Yuuri said getting angry.

"Well, if you wanna talk, I'm always there...for you." He smiled softly.

"We should get dressed Wolf!" Yuuri said as he sat up.

"Hai, what do you wanna wear, I'll help you...your knee doesn't look good."

"Doesn't matter what, if you think it'll be okay for me to wear it, I'll do." He smiled at his beloved who came back with a black shirt, black boxershorts and some camouflage colred pants for Yuuri, he dressed himself in some white longsleeved shirt and blue jeans.

After they had had dinner, Yuuri and Wolfram went away, to the lake where they escaped this world last time.

"It's beautiul here" Wolf said sitting between Yuuris legs, his hed on the others chest.

"With you it's beautiful everywhere!" he said smiling down at the other boy.

"I'll walk around a bit" Wolfram said smiling and kissed Yuuris cheek, and Yuuri noticed why, Shori was walking towards them "Be nice Yuuri...please!" he added as he saw the insane look in Yuuris eyes again.

"Yuuri..." Shori said and sat down next to his brother, throwing stones into the water.

"What?" It was the most nice response Yuuri could say, and he really tried to obey Wolframy will.

"Why are you here? It doesn't look like some sight seeing trip."

"It isn't..."

"Then tell me why are you here?"

"That's nothing you should worry about."

"Yuuri...I know what I did was wrong...I know I hurt you...and him..."

"You don't have any idea Shori! And the worst of all, you could've fucked him anytime, just like his own brother...but I can't...and I've no clue why...he's beautiful...he's...everything for me...but I just can't..."

"I could've guessed it's something like that...Mum always hoped you wont remember...but it seems..you do..."

"What should I remember Shori?"

"At least part of you remembers..." he closed his eyes to remember more clearly "Well...it was...I've mad a party at home, mum and dad were on vacation, you were...13 I think...Our neighbors had sent the police because it was too loud, and I was glad they came...to late anyway..some fag of my class was the last one there, well apart from you, me and Murata." He swallowed hard as he had to remember those pictures "I thought it was just a gag as he tied me up and kicked me onto the floor...but you and Murata were scared and Murata ran away, but he went towards you...stroking you...I'll never forget that look on your face...disgusted...scared...innocent...he raped you Yuuri...and he hurt you...he didn't want you to be able to do that to someone else...He's still in jail for that...I told mum she should send you to a therapy, but you never lost any word about it anymore, so we all thought you wouldn't remember anymore...but it seems, somewhere in your mind, the pain of that night still lingers..."
Yuuri looked at his brother like an innocent little child, now clearly remembering everything, Wolfram was behind him on his knees holding him in his arms, tears dripping onto the floor.

"I'm sorry Yuuri...it's all my fault..." but Yuuri shook his head, he didn't want to hear anymore now, to bad were the things he'd heard already, but almost inaudible he said "It's not your fault Shori..." he let himself sink into Wolframs arms, his eyes wide open, he feared if he closed them he'd see the pictures again.

"Probably you should go home with him now..." Shori said looking downwards.

"Yeah...it's to much for him..." he lay one of Yuuris arms around his neck, to bring the shocked, barely able to move, boy home.

"What happened?" Yuuris overprotective mum asked worried.

"Shori told him something he better wouldn't have asked anything about..." replied the young prince sad.

"Oh...poor Yuuri...I always said he should have been in therapy..."

"It probably would have been better...but noone can change it now...mistakes have been made...but it's sad...he doesn't deserve beeing hurt all the time.. he positioned Yuuri on his

bed, softly stroking his cheek.

"Maybe we should let him rest for today!"

Wolfram noticed his king shiver as he touched him "Probably I shouldn't be with him now..."

"Nonsense, it's not because of you, I'm sure he wants you here with him."

(In case you didn't notice by now, Yuuri's mind has drifted somewhere far away...)

Crying Yuuri sat there in the darkness alone, shivering everytime something touched him.

"Go away"he wanted to scream out, but as he opened his mouth nothing came out, he just

had to let the pain, every touch caused, happen. His eyes widened as he looked for the thing

that caused so much pain, because there was nothing, he was all alone sitting in the cold

darkness.

"What is this?" he thought to himself "I don't want to be alone...here...wait...where is

'here'?"

He slowly stood up and walked around but the only thing he saw was darkness...black nothing.

As he went on the darkness faded now there was dim light in what seemed to be a room.

"Our living room..." he walked on and saw his brother Shori, there also was Murata and...that's impossible, he thaught as he saw himself standing next to the Great Sage.

He knew this scene already, he was watching as his brother was kicked to the floor, watched as Murata ran away, but then he couldn't watch that scene. As he saw the strange guy coming closer to his younger self the present Yuuri ran out of the scene, back into the darkness, where he sat crying.

Wolfram was sitting next to his fiancé watching every move of the boy carefully.

"Wolfram, come and eat something you can't help him anyway!" Shori said, watching him from the doorway.

"Shouldn't he eat something too?"

"But he can't, Wolf...please, when he wakes up, I'm sure he prefers to see you healthy next to him"

"I don't think I'm supposed to be here...everytime I touch him...it looks as if he was in

pain...as if I'd stab him with a knife..."

"I guess his mind is trying to protect him, it's not because of you!" he let himself sit infront of

the blonde mazoku "It's not your fault that he doesn't want anyone touching him now" he added quietly, stroking over the others cheek, the touch made Wolf shiver, remembering what had happened last time.

Noticing this Shori smiled at him "I wont do anthing like that again..." The young Mazoku just nodded and pushed himself off the bed to stand infront of the window.

"Why does everything bad seem to happen to him?"

Shori stood behind him holding him in his arms "I don't know..but everything...wasn't it just that?"

"Not really...he found out that aniue and me had a relationship befor he came to shin makoku...and I'd call what we did bad for him too...Weller hit his knee hard enough so he can barely move it anymore at the moment."

Shori didn't reply, he just held the prince in his arms, after turning the young man around he pulled him even closer finally softly whispering "Don't worry, he's not such a hennachoko as you think. He'll wake up soon, I promise!" he felt his Shirt stick against his chest because of Wolframs sweet warm tears.

"I know that he isn't...he's stronger than most soldiers in shin makoku...but somehow it seems that now...there is something he can't fix on his own...but noone can help him...even the strongest soldiers sometimes need help."

"The truth is he's stronger than you, although...you'd never admit that I guess. He can't fix it on his own...noone said that...he'll need you when he wakes, but at the moment...he needs to...well at least get along with the memory he wanted me to wake from the back of his head again."

"But...why is he like that? I'd never well loose my conciousness because of some memory my mind was hiding because it wanted to protect me..."

"How do you know how you'd react? Id on't know why he is like that...and actually I don't want to think about his feelings at the moment...come with me, I'll make something to eat for you." He didn't ask that anymore he just walked out of the room still holding the blonde in his arms.

A few moments later Yuuri decided to walk into the other direction.

But again he just found himself in the living room, he saw his brother kicked to the floor, Murata ran away, and then the king turned and walked away, again sitting in the darkness...

"You can't run away"

Am I truly insane now? Who was that...There was noone here but himself, so who was talking there?

"It doesn't matteer who I am"

Again this voice...I'm going insane, this can#t be...Noone is here Yuuri...Now I'm even talking to myself...he burried his face in his hands

"You're not crazy...You have to get on knowing this memory you tried to forget so long"

But I can't...I..I just wanna forget it again...and I don't wanna see it, I don' want to know what happend exactly.

"Then, there's no way you'll ever see Wolfram again...and then there is no way you'll ever enjoy his touches again, you know what hurt you befor don't you?"

Wo...Wolf? It was him touching me...and...it hurt? I don't understand this, I'm sure he...didn't hurt me...

"He didn't hurt you...that's right...but as long as you are here you'll always feel this pain when someone's touching you...you know why!"

But...I don't want to feel any pain when he's touching me and...does he see when I'm in pain?

"Yes...of course he does."

But I can't watch this scene there, I should never have asked about it...

"But then you could never make love to him...like you want it, or to be exactly you can't do anything at all...he doesn't even exit here!"

So this is some sort of...dream about my past...

"If you wanna call it a dream..then yes...well I told you what to do if you wanna see him again!"

Yuuri sat there in the cold darkness looking to where he last went...Wolfram...I have to do this for him...No matter how hard it is...I can't make him think that he causes me pain any longer.

He stood again and went straight ahead to his living room where he saw the same thing as befor.

Only this time he stayed or well he sat on the floor, next to his brother.

Tears rolling down his cheeks as the strange guy infront of the 13yer old Yuuri began stroking him, holding him tightly as he wanted to run away, pressing him against the wall as he started kissing him...

Enough, Yuuri thought and stood up walking towards the 17year old guy, he wanted to punch him, but he didn't hit anthing his fist went right into the boy and out on the other side. I don't wanna watch this...it's horrible...

But he had to, disgusted he looked at the boy who was touching his younger selfs thigh.

Yuuri went back to his brother and sat next to him looking down at him seeing his widened eyes as his "friend" was abusing his little brother right in front of him, he screamed out loud.

Just then as the older boy was pushing his cock hard into Yuuri, holding his guts tightly someone knocked at the door, and Shori was yelling for them to come in.

Hering those scared screams two police man entered, one of them was taking care of Shori the other one took the strange boy away from Yuuri.

The present Yuuri sat there crying, still feeling the pain of the strangers rude grip. He just saw himself falling to the ground and then the vision faded, he knew he had fallen unconcious, the pain must've been unbareable, and now that he remembered so clearly he knew it was.

When Shori stopped trying to make Wolf eat more, they went back into Yuuris room.

"Shori...he's lying there since...almost a week now"

"I know...but you heard what happened, it's hard for him...living like he did...knowing this..."

"What...if he wont wake up anymore?"

"He will..I'm sure he'll wake soon, I promised he will, and if he wont wake until tomorrow I'll do everything I can to make him wake up again. I don't want to see you sad anymore, with tears in your eyes" he knew the prince usually wouldn't have accepted that someone knew he was crying, but it didn't seem as if he'd care about that now.

"Yuuri..." Wolf said smiling as he saw his fiancés head move to the side he was standing.