Jackie woke up on a couch, confused about where she was. "W-what happened? Steven, what happened?"

"You fainted."

"What? Where? Oh my god, in school? This is so horrible, now everyone's gonna be talking about it, oh god, what am I gonna do? Why did I faint?"

"He um, he passed you in the hall. I saw him talking to you, and I hit him. Then you fainted."

"Steven, you didn't get in trouble did you?"

"I got a three days in-school, it's not a big deal."

"Oh my god, Steven, I feel horrible. I'll go talk to the principal, I'll tell him that you did it for me, it was my fault. You can't get suspended for this."

"Jackie, calm down. It's fine. I need the break anyway."

"Well, what did Matt say?"

"When I got there he said that he had a good time, and then I told him to stay the hell away from you, and he said make me, so I hit him. I know that you didn't want anyone to think it was because of you, I'm sorry."

"Steven, I-I-I seriously have to get out here, I can't breathe. I need to go." Jackie got up and left the nurses office, and ran down the hallway. She kept running until she got to her house, which was about 12 blocks away. She collapsed as soon as she got into the house, she couldn't believe what happened. How could Steven get in a fight over her? How could she faint? How could Matt say he had a good time? What would she tell everyone?

She ran upstairs and went into the bathroom and rolled up her sleeves. She pulled out her only possession that she couldn't like without: her razor blade. She dragged it across her skin, over and over until she couldn't focus on her emotions. Jackie looked at her arms. She was scarred for life, her body was marred, and she was the reason why. She did this to herself, she was the reason she couldn't wear short sleeves, the reason why Steven pitied her. "Why am I so fucked up? Why am I so damaged?" she repeated it to herself until she had the strength to stand up and clean herself off.

Jackie ran downstairs and grabbed her jacket to look for the flyer she got. It was for a party. She hadn't been to one since before Matt raped her, but now something changed. She didn't care anymore. Maybe she was getting over it, maybe she was over it, or maybe she was just numb. But she looked at the flyer, it was at Hannah's house. I should've taken that ride she offered that night, she started thinking. No, get over it, stop being weak, move on. You can't dwell on this forever. You need to grow up Jackie. Unicorns and fairies and love don't exist, deal with it. Go to this party.

Jackie went, she knew there would be alcohol there, and she needed to drink. She opened the door and was greeted with stares and whispers. She ignored them and went straight to the bar that Hannah's father always kept loaded.

"Jackie, hey, I haven't seen you in a while, is everything ok?" Hannah asked.

She's a horrible liar, Jackie thought. "Yea, everything's fine. I guess you heard about my little episode at school."

"Yea, sweetie, is everything alright, nothing's off, right?"

"Yea, everything is totally fine. I've had a horrible cold for awhile now, so annoying. So my mom told me to load up on cold pills, and I guess I took too many cause they made me faint. It's so embarrassing."

"Thank goodness, I wouldn't want anything to happen to you. Well, at least you quit the squad so you didn't make your cold worse by doing all those exercises."

"Yea, good thing. Do you have any vodka? I really need to drink this day away."

"Who doesn't? What flavor?"

"I don't care, as long as it's strong as hell."

"Here, this should be good."

"Thank you, I owe you my life."

"Eric, why are we here again? Why are we wasting a Friday night here?" Donna asked as Eric parked the car in front of an unfamiliar house.

"Free beer, free weed, that's some pretty good reasoning." Eric responded.

"Too bad we have to spend the night with these assholes." Hyde said.

"Well you won't be seeing them for five days, so stop complaining and get out of the car." Eric said.

"Whatever man." Hyde said as he walked through the door. He could tell all the jocks and cheerleaders and preppies were looking at him, since he hit Matt.

"Hyde, everyone's staring." Donna whispered. "It's like the Twilight Zone, and you're Mr. Popular. Everyone knows you now."

"I need a drink." Hyde left the other two and went to find a keg. Instead he was greeted with an entire bar, fully stocked. He made his way toward it, and grabbed a bottle containing something he didn't know, but he knew it was liquor and that was all that mattered to him. He couldn't believe he just let Jackie run off, and never tried to stop her.

"And then, I quit that stupid squad, and Michael hates me for it! It's that hilarious?" Jackie squeaked out in between drinks from a nearly empty bottle. "Michael cheats on me like 7 trillion times, and he gets mad that I quit!" she said, dragging out the q in quit.

"That's so brutal of him, I can't believe he would ever cheat on you." The guy said. It was someone Hyde didn't recognize.

"Well, he did. A lot. A lot a lot a lot a lot. He never loved me. And I slept with him so much, even when I didn't want to. And I bought him so much stuff, and, oh, and he set my house on fire. Can you believe that? Then he poured liquor on it! Vodka! Where's the vodka!" Jackie said laughing. "This cannot be the last bottle, I think I'll die without more v-o-k-d-a!"

"Vokda?" the guy asked, laughing at her mistake. "Here, it's whiskey. It's stronger."

"Aw, Jason, you're so sweet. It's like, full." She couldn't stop laughing.

"Whatcha looking at? Jackie? And Jason Erving?" Donna asked Hyde.

"No. Just wondering where he got that whisky from. Why would I care what the She-Devil does?" Hyde asked her, trying his best to sound annoyed.

"Whatever. You know you like her, stop trying to deny it."

"I don't like her. I hate her. I think she should drink bleach with her next shot." Hyde said, wondering how he could even think that about Jackie, considering what she had just been through. He looked over at her seat, to make sure that guy wasn't hitting on her, but saw nothing. He looked at the stairs, and a very drunk Jackie was stumbling up them with Jason. Hyde tried his best not to push all these mindless assholes out of the way and knock Jason out. But he couldn't, he hated Jackie and Jackie hated her.

Yes, I am finally getting over Matt. Jackie thought as she went upstairs with Jason. She tried to convince herself she was ready, and knew that she would have to be.