CHAPTER 5

Botan's Rejection and Kurama's Broken Heart

Ever since Kurama and Botan's first outing, the started enjoying themselves outside the temple. Kurama felt more comfortable when he is with Botan and every time Kurama brings her along, she felt as if she has an older brother with her. On Kurama's day off he asked if Botan would like to spend the whole afternoon with him and she thought it would be some kind sibling thing she then happily agreed. They first arrived to the ice cream parlor and bought an ice cream, Botan strawberry flavor with sprinkles and Kurama just ordered an ordinary vanilla ice cream. They sat outside the parlor and the weather was fine, Botan then asked,

"Say, Kurama. I was wondering... how did I loose my memories?"

Kurama never thought of her asking that question and guilt started building up inside.

He then looked at her then answered,

"You saved me, … we were on a mission for Koenma and well, you see," he turned his gaze to the side and Botan asked,

"What happened?"

He shut his eyes then sighs.

"Instead of me loosing my own memories, it was you who pushed me out of it."

She tilted her head and thought that was what his saying was true. He then forced a smile and said,

"I have you to thank for saving my life."

"Why? Why are you thanking me on something I don't remember?" she asked.

Xxx

After the conversation at the parlor, they haven't spoken. They then first came to the shore and finally Botan spoke.

"Kurama, if what I said earlier offended you, please accept my apology." she said as she played around with the sand using a stick.

He looked at her then reassures her.

"No, I'm all alright. I was just in deep thought that's all."

He then walk passed her then she followed.

"By the time we get to the park it will be evening and I heard from Yusuke that you like sunsets and stars am I right?" he asked with a smile.

She then nodded and held on to his arm with hers and said,

"Well, we better be going! We don't wanna make Mr. Sun wait for us do we?"

Xxx

They finally reached to the park and stopped by a fountain where they sat and waited the sun to go down.

"Just a few more minutes and till sundown and the stars will light up the sky!" Botan said with excitement.

"You're really excited just to see only a sunset and a bunch of stars." he commented.

"Well yes, I mean it's wonderful when it twinkles, especially when you're watching it with someone." she answered.

To wait for the sun to set they started having short conversation while looking at the sun as it turns from day to dusk. Botan notice it was dim and she started laughing excitedly as she spots the first star.

"Wow! Isn't that beautiful! It's even the first star." she said happily.

They were now admiring the stars that were appearing at the night sky. Kurama turned his head to Botan as she connecting the stars using her index finger.

'Has she been this beautiful?' he asked himself.

He then felt a tug on his shirt and looked at Botan.

"Look, it's a shooting star!"

He then looked at her again then to star that has fallen.

"It's wonderful," he whispered. Botan looked at him happily then she placed her hands together then closed her eyes and prayed for a wish.

'Shooting star, I wish….'

Kurama lifted his eyebrow and asked teasingly,

"Do you think just a fallen star could grant you a wish?"

She reopened her eyes and looked at him. "Yes, to me, the stars are the symbol of faith." she answered.

"And what was your wish?"

He stared at her beautiful eyes with his emeralds and then,

"I can't tell you. If I did, that means it will not come true." she said.

Her sky-blue locks haven't been in a pony-tail since the accident. She turned her head forward and the wind blew it against her cheek. It glistens beautifully when she started to smile.

And without thought, Kurama grabbed her by the shoulder then pressed his lips against her only bringing her shock. Her eyes widen and a she short flash inside her head.

FLASHBACK

"I'm sorry, my mother might get worried." said the voice. It then walked away from her bringing her tears.

END

She placed her arms on his chest then gently pushed him away. He was stuck in a daze then suddenly realizes what he had done and she looked at her speechless. Botan took a few steps away from him with her hair covering her bangs and said,

"Kurama…I should be going now," she turned back and continued,

"It's getting late and I don't Yukina to be worried…"

She started walking away from him then a few blocks she started running.

Kurama felt the sting of rejection and regretted his actions.

"What have I done?" he whispered.

Xxx

Botan finally arrived at the temple and she spotted Yukina feeding Puu. Yukina notice Botan and sensed something wasn't right. She then asked,

"Botan? Are you alright?" Both Yukina and Puu looked at her and Botan walked passed her.

"I'm alright, there's nothing to worry about. I don't feel so good so I'll go to bed early." she said sadly.

"But what about dinner?" Yukina tried to protest.

"I'm not hungry, I'm sorry."

She then passed by Genkai who just came outside to check what's wrong.

Xxx

Kurama arrived home and went straight to his room. His parents were feeling worried that there was something wrong and they wanted to help. Kurama lied back on his bed feeling guilty again, he then heard a knock on the door and it opened revealing his parents. He sat up then turned to his window.

"Shuiichi is something bothering you?" his mother asked. He looked at her and pretended to smile.

"I'm alright, I'm just…not in the mood to talk about it." he answered.

His mother looked worried and patted his back, she then asked.

"Then when you are in the mood to talk about it, and then let us know when you ready."

They then left the room leaving him and his newly arrived step brother. He then sat on Kurama's chair and asked,

"Did something happen between you and Botan?"

He looked at him a nodded. He was the only out of the house knew Kurama's relationship with her.

"I confess too early," he admits.

"You know, Shuiichi, a couple months ago you said Botan confessed her feelings to you and then when she came back; you started to fall for her. Brother may I ask what really happened to her?" Kakoda asked.

Kurama sighed then explained about what happened a different way.

"After six months she came back and well on that day she had an accident."

Kakoda looked at him then stayed quiet to listen to the whole explanation.

"On that afternoon she was hit and her boss explained to us, meaning our friends that she lost her memories."

He then bowed his head down covering his eyes with his bangs.

"We didn't loose hope, Master Genkai told me if I could help her bring back some of her memories and convince her who she really is."

"And as the day go by you started to fall in love with her." his brother finished the explanation for him. He then looked at him in a disappointed way,

"Shuiichi, you're not in love with her, you're just in love with the person who she's not really is…like a shadow."

Kurama knew he regretted everything what he did to her and he should have known that it could not be done.

Xxx

Botan was inside her room and she heard the shoji slid open, and she didn't look who it is.

"Botan is there anything you would like to ask, do tell me."

She knew the voice belonged to Genkai and she sat up not looking at her. Genkai sat close to her futon and crossed her arms.

"Did something happen to you today?" she asked motherly.

Botan sigh and suppressed her tears and said,

"Master Genkai, I don't want to talk about it right now, please can we talk another time?"

Genkai shut her eyes and nodded respectfully. After she left her room, Botan leaned her head onto her knees and wept silently.

A/n: dramatic isn't it? Well schools coming up tomorrow and I haven't finished my first one! That's pure shit! School is going to rip me off.