It was the early afternoon and Kate was walking through the jungle thinking. She wouldn't even deny that she was thinking about Sawyer, she couldn't stop thinking about him since last night. It was a mistake, yes,but it was so good the way he slowing kissed her neck sucking at it slowly and nipping at her skin it was just so…OK stop it Kate! That's enough, go to the caves... The caves, only one thing she could think about in the caves and that was Jack. She probably wouldn't have time to think about anything because he would ask her to do things for him, over and over again. Curse jack and his stupid medical crap, why doesn't he just ask Ana-Lucia? He seemed more interested in her at the moment anyway. Why is it always me? Damn him She thought.

"Hey Kate, what you up here for?" Jack said walking towards her.

There's Jack, oh what a surprise is he anywhere else? Oh yeah he's down at the beach playing doctor with Ana-Lucia. Wait why do you care? No...I'm not falling for him, no way! Her thoughts were interrupted as Jack was gazing at her for an answer.

"...Oh...uh just came to refill my bottle" She said, holding up the bottle.

"You know, there's water down at the beach, you don't have to come up here all the time" he said softly.

"Yeah I know, but I was walking through the jungle and the caves were closer so...yeah"

Just then Sawyer walked in.

"Well howdy folks! Did I interrupt your lil lovers meetin? Or am I just in time?"

Crap…please don't say anything about last night. Oh who am I kidding he's probably going to jump up and down and do the bloody funky chicken to boast in front of Jack! She thought, and cringed.

"Sawyer? What are you doing here?" Kate asked nervously.

"Gotta come get my bandages changed sweet cheeks, something made them rip last night. Hmm…just can't put my finger on what that was doc." He said with a smile.

Kate knew what he was doing; she knew that Sawyer knew she didn't want Jack to know. So why didn't he just tell Jack? I mean he told everyone about her being a criminal, what's stopping him now?

"Well it doesn't matter how you did it, just make sure to be more careful next time ok?" Jack said as he went into doctor mode straight away.

As he re-bandaged Sawyer's shoulder, Sawyer would give Kate looks while she watched him getting re-bandaged. Kate had no idea what these looks were meant to mean, normally she could read him but not now.

Sawyer grimaced and gave Jack a dark look damn it, why he have to pull at it so hard…some doctor!. He turned back to Kate giving her these looks, he knew she wouldn't be able to read them that's why he did it, he just loved her face when it went into confusion and worry it was just so cute. But he was looking at her with question, interest and need, three of the many things he hadn't shown to anyone in a while. Sure he would question people but not look at them with it; it was the same as need and interest. He was just drawn to her with need and was so deeply interested in her because she was so dark and different; that's what made him and Kate so alike they were different but so alike. They had a connection. That's why he understood her. But there was one thing he didn't understand, last night why did she leave? She didn't have to; she had nothing to go to. Yeah she did, had her lil doc to go cryin' to. But in the middle of the damn night? Nah she would be to damn nice to wake him up. She always runs god dammit, always! His thoughts were disturbed by Jack.

"Well looks like your done, just be careful with it." Jack said, he's said it so much Sawyer was sure he had it written on his damn forehead.

"Took your damn time dint' ya doc" he said with a smirk.

"Look Sawyer if you still want your bandages changed properly, I suggest you be a little more patient, it is a virtue." Jack said in his professional tone.

"Well…whatever" Sawyer replied defeated.

"Look I'm going back to the beach for a bit so I'll see you both later. Bye Kate" He said waving and walking passed and into the jungle.

Sawyer had to ponder how he said goodbye only to her. The way Jack gave her those looks, looks that let her know she was wanted and needed. Well two can play at that game. He thought to himself.

"Well looky here, then there was two!" Sawyer said.

"I'm not staying, just came here to get some water" She said walking to the fountain.

"Same here freckles case you dint' notice but I live down at the beach…ring a bell?" He said joking.

"Funny, but seriously I'm heading out see ya" She said taking a swig of her newly filled bottle and walking into the jungle.

"Hey wait up freckles where ya headin'? Wherever it is am I invited? Hell there aint nothing to do back on the damn sandy hills of depression!"

Kate didn't know what to say, he sounded so sweet just like a little boy asking if he can come. But she really needed this time to herself.

"..Sorry Sawyer I was just going to walk around the jungle you would be bored anyway" She hesitated did she really want to turn him down?

"Hey no problamo freckles, just have to go entertain myself with my book about those bunnies, later freckles!" He said obviously disappointed, he turned around and was about to walked into the jungle when Kate shouted.

"Sawyer!" He turned around. "Another time ok?" He nodded and walked away.

Why you have to go and say no? You know you're just going to spend all of that time thinking about him! She said to herself and mentally kicked herself for saying no.

Kate pushed back the soft green leaves and walked into the familiar part of the jungle she always came to think and pick fruit. About an hour into her walk she stopped and sat down on a nearby rock and took a swig of her bottle. Suddenly she heard movement and a rustle in front of her and saw a shadow move. She slowly moved backwards steadying her breath, looking around her and still walking backwards. Suddenly she tripped over a stray root and fell backwards.

"Whoa, gotcha" A voice said catching Kate in his arms and bringing her closer.

"Sawyer?" Kate said surprised. Getting out of Sawyers arms and standing upright.

"Nice lil walkabout you got goin on here freckles, but damn did ya have to walk for an hour non stop? You on steroids or sumthin'?" He said taking an intake of breath and smirking.

"You got to be kidding me, you followed me? Kate said.

"Hell didn't fancy reading that damn book twice, to sappy" He grinned.

Kate wasn't unhappy he found her, but it was just the question of what the hell were they going to do now? They would have to head back, but there was no doubt in her mind that Sawyer was going to pull something.

"Look we should really be heading back to the beach, it's going to get dark soon" She said.

Kate walked past him but Sawyer caught her arm, swung her around and pushed her up against a nearby tree. Kate winced as the wood scraped her sweat touched skin.

"Uh uh uh sweet cheeks" He said as he pushed closer against her.

Great now what am I going to do, I can't exactly avoid him. With him fully pressed up against me oh and his warm breath against my neck…

"You aint goin nowhere now sassafras" He teased.

"Oh really?" She replied. She moved her knee against his thigh and moved up.

"Well well look wh--" And with that Kate moved her knee higher and kneed him slightly in his groin softly but hard enough so that he would take an intake of breath and loosen his grip on her. She slipped out of his grasp and jogged past him.

"Ah...Son of a bitch!" He recovered quickly and ran after her.

"Oh no you don't!" He called out at her, still running.

Kate was surprised by how quickly he recovered, she heard him call out and it had to make her laugh, she stopped and hid behind a tree and waited for him to appear. It wasn't long before he came bashing out of the bushes.

"Jesus! She's gotta be on steroids" Sawyer exclaimed.

Kate laughed and quietly came out from behind the tree, she had led him into a new area it was completely closed off with huge trees and huge canopy covering any light there was left. So Kate crept up to Sawyer grabbed him by the collar of his shirt and pushed him up against the thick hard tree behind him.

"Steroids? Nah i'm more of a heroin girl myself!" She joked as she pushed up closer against him.

Sawyer couldn't stand much more of this, Kate was teasing him immensely and he couldn't take it. Sawyer could just see her in the dim light that was shining through the small gaps of the canopy, even in that light she looked as beautiful as ever, and the light was shining into her green eyes making them more amazing than before. Sawyer moved his head closer and brushed her lips slightly; Kate seemed shocked by this at first but didn't move. Sawyer then deepened the kiss, thrusting closer against her and pushing his tongue inside her mouth, causing her to lean back. Kate let go of his collar placed both of her hands on his chest and pushed him off.

"Stop…" Kate said in almost a whisper.

"Why? What have I done?" Sawyer questioned now was the time she was going to tell him no matter what.

"Nothing, its not you Sawyer"

"Oh common Kate don't gimme that crap, you know full well it's me!" Sawyer said he was getting angry now.

Kate was surprised of how angry he was getting, and how he thought this was his fault. It was hers all hers, it was her fault for running all her life, it was her fault for losing everyone she cared about, it was her fault for falling for someone on a stupid island. What? I'm not falling for Sawyer. I can't be…no I'm not, defiantly not.

"I…it's my fault Sawyer, it was never yours" She stammered as her eyes were beginning to water.

"Why? Why is it your fault? Please Kate talk to me" He said softly, he held her by the shoulders and looked straight into her eyes.

Kate hesitated but knew she had to say it.

"…I've been running all my life, I've lost everyone I cared about Sawyer, and I just can't take it anymore. I'm a wanted criminal; i'm losing Jack i'm losing you, i'm losing people who I care about!" Tears were now streaming down her face she was about to breakdown.

Sawyer was shocked. At one point she could be standing there teasing him having him up against a damned tree and then minutes later be breaking down in tears. Sawyer wanted to tell her that she would never lose him, ever. He couldn't admit that he was falling for her that would be going to far, hell he cared about her a hell of a lot but falling for her? Nah no way…he couldn't be, could he?

Instead of confessing all to her he just stood there, in complete silence watching and wiping tears from her face. Kate slipped away from his grasp and began to walk away.

"Kate…" He whispered.

"Just leave me alone Sawyer" She replied in a worn out tearful voice.

So he let her, let her walk away. He hated himself that he didn't tell her everything, it was the perfect chance and he skipped it, just let it roll past.

So he was left there in the darkness, alone.

END

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