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Chapter Five

How can you make some one see truth? Do you need evidence? Do you just need to hit them until they can accept it? Talk to them and tell them it's all lies, expecting them to understand? But what if they don't? What if they won't listen to you? Run from you and all you can do is go after them and try to protect them from their own illusions? How can Cloud see what's real and what's false anymore? I tried not to cry. I tried really hard. For the most part I did a good job. Puddled up really bad, had a hard time breathing. What am I suppose to do?

I looked around the kitchen for what must have been the ninetieth million time. Don't know why. It's still the kitchen. There's still a pot in the sink and junk on the counter. Something burnt is still clinging to the stove top no matter how hard I try to get it off. I smirk. Maybe that's it. Aerith really cared about how things looked. Always made it...nice. Hmph. It's like some one made a doll and brought it to life. She was too damn perfect. Always smiling and shit. I squint off into the distance. Did she ever show any other emotion? God. Even when she was killed she was smiling. I shook my head. I shouldn't be thinking this. It's not right. What if she comes back from the dead for the sole purpose to haunt and kill me for thinking poorly of her? Yeah but Cloud already thinks that. Maybe she will come for me after all. Talking badly, sleeping with her ex.

Cloud's putting the kids to bed again. They like having him around. Should I tell them he's leaving again? That's he's gone crazy? Yeah 'cause that would be easy to explain. Marlene and Denzel just sitting there eating breakfast or some crap. I'm wiping down the counter. One of them asks where Cloud is. "Oh yeah, he's gone. Cloud left to go find a dead woman cause he's gone insane and thinks she's still alive." They'll understand without any problem what so ever. Not. I can't believe he would screw me and then tell me this. I knew something was wrong but how could I have guessed this?

"He's alive too, you know." I jumped. Cloud is leaning against the doorway. How long he had been there, I don't know. "Zack is with her. He was there too. In the doorway, waiting for Aerith. If I find her, he should be there too." I look down, shaking my head. "Tifa, I saw them! How can you not believe me? Help me. We can find them together." He walks over to me, puts his hand on my shoulder.

"Cloud stop. Please. Just stop. You're sick. You need help."

"I know I need help. That's why I'm asking you. This city's too big for me to find one person on my own."

I smacked his hand away from me. "That isn't what I mean! Cloud! You accepted the fact that she was gone! You saw it happen. You avenged her death. It's over. She's in peace somewhere else. Let it go. Please. For me. Let it go," I whispered. My head fell into my hands.

"Of all people I thought you would understand. It's why I told you. I really thought you would belie-"

"Shut up already!" The chair I was on flies out behind me as I jump to my feet. "I don't want to hear your bullshit! Zack is gone. He's been gone forever and I don't need people reminding me of everything that happened! Aerith is gone and she's probably happy where ever the fuck she is!" I scream. "What the hell happened to you? You were all right. Why the hell did you come back here? Just yesterday everything was fucking peachy with you. You were normal, hell, you were sweet! You- you fucked me! After all these fucking years you fuck me and then tell me you're looking for Aerith? What the hell!"

My knees finally give in. I crouch on the floor, trying once again not to cry. "Tifa..." Cloud whispers.

"Go," I whisper back. "Just...go. Do what ever it is you plan on doing to find zombie Aerith and don't come back here. Don't you fucking come back here." I hear his sigh, his boots thumping on the floor. The bell on the front door rings. He left. I shouldn't be so upset he left. He's always leaving. But what if he really doesn't come back in the end? What if he seriously listened to me? l look up at the empty kitchen. What if he does something stupid? Or gets hurt? My eyes got really wide. Killed? I ran to the door. You could hear his bike fire up. My legs pump faster. It's amazing how when something is really important to you just running through a tiny bar seems like forever. By the time I slammed the door open, his tail lights were only little red dots. "Cloud!" I scream. "Cloud!" It was pointless. He was gone.

Sobbing, I turned back inside. The door closes. I lock it, put my back against it, slide down on the floor. I'm not censoring my tears anymore. They're just gushing down my face like I had a fire hydrant explode out my eyes. When there's nothing left to drip out, I open my eyes. Marlene's coming. I guess she was just waiting for me to finish before she came out. By the sound of shuffling feet, Denzel's right behind her. They peer around the bar counter. I wipe my face on the back of my hand and try to smile. "Tifa?" Denzel calls.

"It's okay, kiddo. You two can come over. I won't bite." Denzel walks over to me, Marlene pauses to grab a clean hand towel before coming over. She hands it to me sadly. "Thank you," I say.

"What happened Momma? Where's Cloud?" Denzel asks.

Marlene echoes, "Where'd Cloud go?"

In my head I smile, seeing my own little prophecy come together. "He...it's complicated. Cloud..Cloud is a little sick right now."

Marlene gasped. "Does he still have the stigma?" I shake my head and she nods.

"It's not that kind of sick. Things are a little fuzzy in his head. He can't think right." I pause. "You guys understand?"

"He's crazy?" Denzel whispers.

"You could say that. He thinks one of our old friends is here in the city but she isn't. She doesn't live here anymore."

"Does he miss her? Is that why he left?"

"Yeah. He's gonna go find her." I sigh and it comes out shaky. "Look, you two have school in the morning. You need to go back to sleep." They nod slowly. Begin to shuffle away. Marlene stops and hands me her doll.

"She always makes me happy when I'm sad. Maybe she'll do the same for you." Tears well up in my eyes again as I nod and take it from her. She's so damn sweet. I look down at the cloth doll. At her long yarn hair and the little pink sun dress she's wrapped in. I pull the hair back into a pony tail and think of Aerith. My hand clenches on the hair. I let it go and it falls in her face. Looking up I think, This is the most ridiculous thing I've ever thought of but what if..

And that's the end! Now you have to wait til I put more down and stuff like that. Gimme reviews guys! And please don't hate me because it's been too damn long since I updated! Ska.