Stars filled the dark sky. He stood on the pitcher's mound of the baseball diamond. He was facing the outfield looking up at the stars. He remembered time back in Kansas where he and Kay layed out under the stars on her ranch and talked the night away. This was the only place in town that reminded him of Kansas.
"Hey," he heard.
He turned around and saw Her there. He smiled. "Hey."
She walked up to him and asked, "What are you doing?"
He shrugged. "Nothing special. Looking at the stars and thinking."
"In the middle of a baseball field?" she asked.
"Well, I don't live on a ranch and neither does my best friend anymore. It's the closest thing I could find."
"You still look at stars at night and think?"
"Every night." He saw her smile making him smile even more. "When you and I weren't talking and apart, I always wondered what you were doing, who you were with, how you were feeling, all of that. I always wondered if you found someone who would take care of, hold, and love you forever. I'll admit, at that thought, I became jealous. My mind wandered back to memories with you and mostly you. The others were with my parents."
"Brae," she said softly as he began to cry.
"When I saw you at your father's funeral, I tore up. I didn't know what to do or say. All I knew is that you needed to be held."
"I know."
"I need to know what that night felt to you. DId it really feel like a mistake? Did it mean one goddamn thing to you or nothing at all?"
"Shut up and let me talk!" she yelled.
He shut up and looked at her.
"I lied. That night meant everything to me. Feeling your lips against mine. Feeling your touch. Feeling you love me. Nothing in my life has measured up to that feeling. The day I left hurt me, too. Not just you. I felt like shit for slapping you and telling you that what happened was a mistake when it was far from it. Hiding my feelings towards you hurt. Walking away hurting you hurt. Not a day has gone by where I didn't think the same things you did about me. Not a day has gone by where I don't think of what we've been through.
"I found you here, or you found me, whichever. My feelings for you came rushing back. Jealousy filled me as I saw you with Lacey. Anger filled me when I kept my feelings from you and acted the way I did towards you when you tried talking to me. Love filled me when you kissed me."
She could see him beginto smile as she finished.
"I Love You. And, I want to continue loving you until I can't anymore."