It's Sora's turn now, and this one is from the pure need to update, so don't disown me if it sucks. This is about Sorathinking aboutRiku and wondering if their friendship is gone… and it's dedicated to my friend... we had a big fight, but we finally made up! Her name is Hili.
A Battle Won
A battle won is
The same right now as
A battle lost…
I won against the darkness
But I lost you.
As I wander through the uncertain road
In front of my eyes
I can see something so clearly.
I let you down
And you let me down
But somehow, we're not even
What happened to us, Riku?
Kairi said for us to never change
From who we were
And yet, there we were
Fighting.
I defeated you in that fight, Riku
But I certainly didn't win anything worth winning
Because
After all….
You're still far away from me
And your heart is out of my line of vision.
So a battle won
And a battle lost
All at the same time
Is it…
Is it something to be pitied?
It is something I should be ashamed of?
Because honestly…
I'm not ashamed of winning
I am ashamed
Of losing at the same time.
I'm ashamed of throwing back
All our times together
Just to salvage my pride.
But if I see you again…
I wonder if I'd be able to say a word
Or maybe instead, I'd shun you because…
Every time I think about you, from the moment I gave you the direct message
That I did not want us to be friends anymore
I regretted it from the moment I thought it.
From the moment the dire thought leaked into my head
My heart told me not to listen.
But I listened anyway
Because I was hurt by your choices.
I thought you had forgotten me, Riku.
And even if you search for me every day…
I cannot honestly tell you
Or myself
Or anyone
That I would accept you back
Because I owe you an apology
But you also owe me an apology.
And I don't think, in my heart,
That either of us would say
"I'm sorry" so easily.
Even if I forgive you already.
But hey…
A battle lost…
Is a battle won...
right?