We arrived at the cabin a few hours later. I was relieved somewhat, I had sat in the back seat with Tro and Quat…let's just say that they couldn't keep their hands to each other. I had tried to escape into Heero so I wouldn't have to witness my best friend fondling his boyfriend. I think Heero found it somewhat amusing that I was trying to bury myself in his chest.

The rest of the week had gone smoothly ever since that first date. I learned that we balanced each out very well. Where he was silent and stony, I was outgoing and loud. And I never heard the end of it from Treize and Zechs…of course it didn't help that they lived right across the hall from me. I would leave for class and there a message on my board that said "Snog him already" and "You know you want him". The couple was driving me crazy.

I immediately started to scour the house for rooms. I had suffered with Tro and Quat and I figured that I had at least deserved a pretty nice room. I ran as fast as I could through the house and inspected the rooms. Zechs looked at me in horror as I gave him a devilish smile. I claimed the biggest room in the house. I gave Zechs the peace sign.

Treize came behind an irate Zechs and placed his arms around his blond lover. I smirked at the two as Treize manipulated Zechs into the second largest room in the cabin. As they disappeared into the room, Heero came into view with our luggage. He looked kind of pissed off, so I decided to avoid him. I didn't want to deal with an irate Heero. I had seen Heero mad and believe me, it was not pretty. I grabbed my coat on the way out made my way to the beach.

-----dream----

I could hear Quatre; he was screaming 'please no'. I couldn't tell where he was. I got up and looked around. This was Wufei's house, why was I here? It looked exactly as it had when we were there. I made my way up the stairs. Quatre was hurting and I needed to help him. He was begging for someone to stop.

I made my way to Wufei's room. Maybe Wufei could help me find Quatre and help him. I stopped in my tracks at what I saw in Wufei's room. Quatre was tied up and Wufei was thrusting into him with abandon. I turned around and left…Quatre's pleads ringing in my ears.

I curled up in the Lovesack. My head was reeling, I didn't and I did register what happened to Quatre at the same. A part of me wanted to bust Wufei's kneecaps. The other told me that I was in condition to take on Wufei because he was sober and I was drunk.

I laid there, Quatre's cries and pleas ringing in my ears…

----end dream----

I woke up with a start. O god…that night, Wufei had raped Quatre. And everyone fucking knew except me. No one told me. I felt betrayed…but wait…I was the one who took Quat there and I was the one who could have stopped Wufei. I could have saved Quatre. And the fact that no one told me…pissed me off even more. They didn't even judge me. They just kept going on as if nothing happened. I didn't deserve them. And I sure as hell didn't deserve Heero.

The curse was true…anyone who gets close, gets killed or hurt. It struck with my mother, then Solo, then the orphanage, and now Quatre. I had avoided everyone when I first arrived. Then there was Quat. He made me believe that the curse wasn't real and he broke me of my depression.

He was so wrong. I never should have listened to him then. I just should have ignored him like I had everyone else. I buried my face in my hands. I heard a bird call somewhere and I looked to the sky. It was sunset. I had been gone for hours now. I wondered if they were worried about me.

I pushed those thoughts out of my head. I didn't need to swing into depression. First thing was to figure out where I am and possibly make a shelter for myself. The shelter would depend on if I found the cabin before night fall.

I walked from the beach to the forest and was face to face with the cabin in no time. I scanned the area and noticed that the cars were still there. I was hoping that they had gone to town. I made my way to the cabin and peered in through the window. I saw Quatre on the couch cuddling with Trowa. Treize was sitting by the fireplace and Zechs was between his legs.

I turned my gaze to Heero. He was sitting at the table staring at something. I squinted my eyes and saw that it was a picture of us. I remember that night. We were at the mall and I had insisted that we go into one of the booths that took pictures. I had loosened him up enough so that we were making faces. But the last one was of him stealing a kiss from me.

I looked at Heero's face. His brows were furrowed in thought and his eyes…o god those Prussian blue eyes were in pain. And that did for me. I couldn't leave, not Heero or anyone else for that matter. These people were my family; I couldn't abandon them like I am guessing how my father did with us.

I straightened my shoulders and made my way to the door. I opened the door and screamed "Honey I'm home!" at the top of my lungs. I heard the rumbling of feet and five pairs of eyes were staring at me. Two sets were concerned, another held love, and the other two looked like they wanted to strangle me (guess who they were, Trowa and Treize.)

Heero grabbed me and pulled me into a hug. He sobbed into my hair. I was confused. What the hell happened while I was gone? What had Heero so worried? I buried my head in his chest and inhaled his scent. He smelled of vanilla and Adidas for men, a combination that I loved. I felt so safe in his arms. We stayed like that for what seemed like forever.

I pulled out of the hug and stared at all of them. I had to tell them that I remembered that fateful night that Quatre was raped, but I didn't know how. If only Mueller had come with us, I would be able to do it. I was not good with this sort of thing.

"We were worried about you. You just took off like something was chasing you." Quatre said. He was the first to speak.

I shrugged my shoulders. "I just wanted to be alone for awhile. I went down to the beach; it's beautiful in the moonlight."

Heero narrowed his eyes. "You're hiding something koi."

Damn, I was busted already. This was not good. I really didn't know how to approach the subject of Quatre's rape and why no one told me. I didn't know if Quatre had put it behind him or if he was still dealing with it. I just didn't know what to do.

"Duo, what's going on in your head?" Zechs asked me. I looked up and saw that everyone was staring at me intently. I felt like an animal in a zoo.

"It's nothing…Zechs…can I…can I talk to you?" I asked him.

Zechs nodded his head and we made our way up the stairs. I could hear Zechs' graceful footsteps behind my own noisy ones. I sighed and open the door to my room…well mine and Heero's.

I sat on a bed while Zechs took a char. I took a breath and looked at him. There was confusion written on his face.

"I ran out tonight because I was scared." I began and looked out the window when I started up again. "I fell asleep out there. I was just so tired, I had to. And I had a dream Zechs. Want to know what it was about?"

I looked over at Zechs and saw him nervously nod his head. I continued. "I could hear Quatre screaming 'please no.' I went to investigate and guess what I saw. I saw Quat tied up and Wufei pounding into him. And I remember wanting to help him…but I was too weak…and drunk to help him. I went back to bed…And I realized that this was a memory. A memory I pushed to the back of my mind. And then I realized something else…everyone knew but me. And no one told me."

I looked at Zechs again and noticed that he was paler than usual. I'm guessing that no one was going to tell me. I could read right there on his face. I balled my fist. I was angry. No one thought that I would like to know that my best friend was raped. Even if I couldn't help him, even if I would feel guilty, I wanted to know.

"Duo, we didn't want to tell you because-"

"I don't want to hear excuses Zechs. I don't want to hear them. I could care less what they are. I'm packing my stuff up and I'm gonna call Mueller. I'm going back to the dorm to think about this. You can tell the others that."

"I will. I'll call Mueller for you." With that Zechs left.

I stared at my empty room and noticed that Heero didn't unpack my stuff. Well that saved me some time and effort. I got up and stared out the window. I was a swirl of emotion on the inside. I was angry, confused, hurt, depressed. I just couldn't decide on what emotion to feel.

I hated this feeling. I was interrupted by a knock on the door. "Duo it's me, let me in."

I sighed. I didn't want to talk to anyone right now, especially Heero. He was my goddamn boyfriend and he didn't tell me this. But a part of me wanted to talk to him and I tried to fight that part, but couldn't. I walked over to the door and opened Pandora's Box.