Here it is…the next chapter. I know I've been talking about redoing this one. I just wasn't satisfied with the ending…so I've decided to drag it out a bit more. Hope you guys don't mind.
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I opened Pandora's Box and Heero was in it, well on the other side. He had this look on his face that I had never seen before. Well I don't know if I would call a look. He had no emotion on his face whatsoever.
I didn't know if I should have been scared or indifferent. I decided that indifferent was better than scared. I stepped to the side and let Heero in. If I was the younger me, I would have been out the window and gone by now. But I was older and no longer ran and hid.
I shut the door behind me and the sound of it slamming cut through the heavy silence. The silence was unbearable, but I didn't want to break and talk first. If I did, I would have felt stupid. I mean yeah, I was a normally loud person…but when it comes to something like this…I can't break the silence. The guilt weighed heavily on my chest and I just would feel stupid if I gave in first and said something.
I didn't have to wait for Heero to speak up. "What do you think you're doing? Are you just going to leave us here?"
I sighed and sat down. I knew this was going to be a long talk. I really didn't feel like talking about what happened. I know I was being childish about it…but in a way I didn't want to lose Heero if it came down to that.
Heero stood by the dresser and looked out the window. He had this thoughtful look on his face. I figured he was thinking of what to say without making me scared or pissing me off. At least he was being considerate of me. That's more than what most people have done for me. If it had been Zechs or Treize, they would have blurted it out already, regardless of what I might have felt.
"Duo, I know you're…angry with us for not telling you. And I know I should not have kept something like that from you…but Quatre had made me promise. He didn't want you…beating yourself up for it. He had your best interests at heart. Please don't take this out on us and don't beat yourself up for what happened." Heero started out. His voice was soft and hesitant.
I sighed. "Heero it's not a matter of why you didn't tell me, it's the fact that you guys didn't trust me with this. It makes me wonder if you guys really do trust me. I just need to be by myself this weekend." I said as I laid back. I put my hand under the pillow and felt something. It was wrapped in plastic. I wonder what could've been under the pillow. I pulled it out and in the middle of my hand was a condom.
I was enraged and I think Heero knew. He had look of surprise/fear/confusion written across his handsome face.
"I…I can explain Duo." He stuttered out.
I narrowed my eyes. "There's no need to explain Heero. I see what you really want from me. You think after just a few days of dating that I would have sex with you? That you could seduce me into your bed? You're wrong Heero; I'm no one's pet." I yelled as I stomped out of the room after grabbing my bags.
As I made my way to the door I could feel everyone staring at me. I didn't look at their faces to see what was written across their faces. I was too mad at Heero. I opened the front and slammed it shut. Hopefully Heero heard it.
I didn't have to wait long in the cold. Mueller arrived about ten minutes later. I opened the back doors and threw my stuff in the back. I went around the back of the car and got in the front. I looked at Mueller to let him know that I was ready to leave. He nodded and took off from the cabin.
Mueller was silent for twenty minutes. Personally, I thought he would open his mouth sooner. This was a sign that he wanted me to talk first. Fine, time to throw his words back at him.
"You were wrong Mueller. Heero only wanted me for my body. I found a condom under our pillow while we were talking about what happened at Wufei's." I said in a hateful voice.
"Duo, I can't be right all the time. And I know what happened at Wufei's. It's all over campus. You have quite the rep now, and people are waiting in line for you." He replied.
I sank lower in my seat. "Mueller I knew that no one could love me. I might as well take those people up on their offers."
"Damnit Duo! Why? Just because Heero fucked up?" Mueller practically yelled.
"Not just Heero. I bet I could make good money. Probably enough to pay for college. I mean, people would kill for someone like me on the streets. I know they tried when Solo was still alive." I went silent after I mentioned Solo. I never talked about Solo to anyone.
The town came into view sometime later. I sat up and studied all the bright lights. I let out a cry as we passed someone walking down the street. I didn't realize that I had said 'Stop'. Mueller stopped and I got out of the car and walked up to the figure.
"Solo?"
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Evil aren't I? So with Solo back in the picture, what'll happen?
