Katara.
This just feels so wrong.
I'm chasing the Avatar, but I've fallen for his best friend.
It's killing me.
I think about her, constantly.
Constantly.
Whatever I'm doing, my thoughts always drift back to her smiling face.
Then I think, Whose sick and twisted idea was this? Whose fault that she's tormenting me?
And then I remember.
Oh yeah. It's my fault.
And after all these days, weeks, months, I feel different.
Not a lot, but a little.
I've dreamt of that one girl for so, so, long.
Too long.
Katara.
I'm being driven insane by a single person.
When we first met, I started to shake uncontrollably.
Inwardly, of course. It's just something I do.
And I still quake.
Except not that much.
I want to reach out, let her steady me, stay next to me.
Don't tell me I'm crazy, strange.
I had enough of that at home.
And this sounds weird as well.
But in my head, in my mind's eye, I can see her.
We hold each other's hands.
And, you know, it's odd.
I can nearly feel her touch.
Katara.
The last time I saw her, her gaze caught mine.
Rather, mine met hers, not vice versa.
But those eyes…
Sea blue and glittering, free of pain.
That girl is so lucky, it's almost unfair.
I'm becoming obsessed.
I'm afraid that I disgust her.
Uncle probably thinks she's too pretty for me.
I remember that Jun did.
But pretty doesn't fit her. It's not good enough.
"Beautiful" is far closer to accurate.
She'd never accept the likes of me, scarred, deformed, and banished.
But I can't think that.
I won't think that.
Katara.
She might as well be the one reason I go on.
I'm torn.
Torn between my honor, and my mental well-being.
If I imprison her friend, she'll loathe me even more than she probably does now.
If I don't, things will never return to how they were before.
Then again, I doubt that will ever happen.
But if I had to choose, I'd pick the one thing I've ever wanted so badly.
The one who could possibly love me back.
Though it seems almost unfathomable.
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A/N Yeah. I have no idea where this came from; it just popped out of my head. Fingers, rather, since I typed it. Reviews, but don't kill me. Feel free to correct spelling, grammar, etc.