Disclaimer: Twilight is not mine.

Authors Note: I am back and I don't think that I am any better of a writer then when I left, but I can always hope. Read on, and I am sorry about the very long and hopefully never again needed wait.

I just layed and went over all of the bad things that I had done in my life, but every time that I would start to get depressed I would think of her. Bella. It wouldn't be much. Maybe her smile, or the way that her nose crinkled in just this way when she didn't like something. It didn't matter what it was, but it was something. It was enough to remind me that she wasn't mine anymore and that it was all my fault. Maybe one day….. no it would be better to accept that there was no chance of her coming back.

I felt something being lifted to my ear and then heard talking on the other end. It sounded like my Bella, it sounded identical, but I could not hear what she was saying. I needed to know. If only just to know that maybe there was a chance that she was out there and that there was still a chance that I could possibly save her, from the monster that had taken her.

"I need your help."

This was what I needed to hear. I heard it and knew that this was from the girl that I loved, and that she was in danger, but from what exactly I could not tell. I tried slowly to climb out of the hole that I had made in my mind and heard as she spoke of all of the good things that I had done and the fun times that we had. She started with how we first met, and how I saved her from the guys in Port Angeles.

She told me about the meadow and our first kiss; about the times that I had stayed in her room. The talks about how we loved my music collection and how she was afraid of breaking my sound system. She talked about the prom and how I had surprised her. She told me about her joy when I told her that I was going to change her and that she was going to always treasure and keep the necklace. She loved how I was nervous when I had proposed and how I was happy when she accepted.

All the while I slowly made my way to the surface of my mind and then finally I broke through. I was weak and couldn't move much, but I was better now that I could hear properly. What made me brake through was when she told me that she would love me despite every thing.

I had needed to know this for some reason. That despite all of the stupid things that I had done, and all of the mistakes that I had made, that she still cared. She still loved me despite everyhting. That was what mattered. I groaned and the door opened.

"Bella. You did it. You woke him up." This was from Rosalie who was thinking about how good this was. Now maybe we could come up with a plan that would get me completely out of my funk and Bella back home. I couldn't agree more.

"I am going to give Alice the phone and take him hunting. It shouldn't take long, but he will still be a little disoriented."

Alice came in and took the phone. "Bella are you okay?"

This was the last thing I heard before Rosalie picked me up and ran outside. We didn't go far, just right outside of the boundaries of our house. She set me down and steadied me when I wobbled. What could I say, after going through the most emotionally draining thing in my life I was bound to be a little unsteady. I caught the scent of a rabbit. It wasn't much but it would do with the state that I was in. I quickly caught it and drained it.

I felt better and caught a two deer and felt a lot better. Not one hundred percent, but better then practically comatose. I walked over to where Rosalie was and then we walked back to the house and around to the front. We went to the front and made our way down the walkway. I opened the door and then Esme said, "Go to her Edward."

I ran and picked up the phone and took a breath before I answered.

"Bella?" I had so many questions racing through my mind with that one word. Was she still there? Was she actually there or had I been imagining everything? What if she didn't want to talk to me? I would understand if she didn't want too. I had let her get taken from me and hadn't protected her. What kind of boyfriend was I?

"Edward." I took a deep breath and let it out.

"Are you okay?"

"Yes. Are you?"

"I am better."

"Edward I can't talk long. Richard is going to come back soon and I don't want him to know that I have talked to you."

"I understand. God I wish that I could hold you and that this was all not real. How did this happen Bella?" There was pain and anguish in my voice and I knew that she could hear it.

"I don't know Edward." I heard a car and tensed. So he was back. There was going to be hell to pay when I got my hands on him. "I have to go my love. Remember that I love you and always will. I will call you again as soon as I can."

"Bella be careful. I love you too. With all of my heart. Promise me something."

"What?"

"Don't do anything rash or such. I want you alive when I save you."

"I can't promise to be alive in the heart beat sense, but I promise not to do anything too rash." I took a sharp breath again. The chance that the last time that I had seen her blush, sleep, or eat sunk in. I might never hear the beat of her heart again. All of this was happening because of that monster. That thing that called itself one of my kind. This Richard.

"Bella."

"Edward the faster that you come up with a plan the faster that you can save me and then I can stay alive, for the time being. I love you Edward."

"I love you Bella." She hung up the phone and I drew in a breath and wished that it didn't end. I wish that I could have talked to her forever and never stop hearing her beautiful voice. One day maybe in the near future there would be a time when I never would have to stop talking to her, and when we ran out of things to say we would talk in the language of silence. The language that is so rarely used and yet is so much easier to understand and speak.

I was still tired so I went upstairs, tucking my phone into my pocket on the way. I sat on my bed and wished that I could sleep. In the end I decided that I would listen to music. I had made a CD of all of Bella's favorite songs and had planned on giving them to her, but right now I decided that it would be of better use for me then for her. I put it on and blasted it.

With the music so loud I couldn't think about how I was doing nothing. I wouldn't be forced to think of the impossible plan that would enable me to save my love from the hands of that thing. I put the CD on loop and then returned to the bed, and layed down. I closed my eyes and let my body just stop. I didn't breath or blink or smell. I just layed there and felt the tug of the music. The beat of the bass travel through my bed, and with that I slowly unwound.

I became completely relaxed by the 3 time that I had listened to the CD and finally turned it off. There was a sigh if relief from the other side of the door and Alice came in.

"How are you holding up?"

"How do you think I am Alice?" She was taken aback for a second but then her face softened with understanding.

"You really scared us for a while. We don't know what happened. One second you were sitting on the floor and then the next you are going crazy and demolished the wall." She looked away from me and then said, "You cried." She looked at me then and then ran to me and gave me a hug. "Please be okay Edward. I couldn't stand it if you left."

"I'm not going anywhere."

"I know, but you went somewhere that we could not follow. What would have happened if you didn't wake up?"

"I don't know Alice. I really don't know." I just held her in my arms and let her calm down.

"I love you Edward. Please don't do that again."

"I love you to Alice and I promise to try very hard not too."

"That will have to do."

"What did you come up here for?"

"Well it was getting late, I mean it has passed on to the next day, you have been laying in here for so long. We were worried that you had slipped back into whatever you were in the last time, so they sent me to go up and check on you."

"Oh really. Well as you can see I am okay and awake. I have to say that whatever I was in reminded my body of sleep and now I am tired. I really wish that I could sleep right now."

"Oh yeah, well you can't. Come on lets go downstairs and see the others. We are worried about you, you know."

"I know. Let me take a shower and then I will go down."

"Okay."

She ran out of my room and down the stairs, probably telling the others that I would be down soon. I walked to the bathroom and then turned on the shower, hot. I was fast and wrapped a towel around my waist and walked to my closet. I looked inside and chose a pair of jeans and a white shirt that Alice had said Bella loved. Also it was next to some of her clothes, so it smelled like her. I put on socks and some boots, and made my way downstairs.

Time to face the troops and I was not looking forward to it.

AN2: Wahahahaha. I have finally updated. I feel so proud for some reason. Now that I have started maybe the rest of my updates will come faster and easier. I hope that you liked. Please review. Don't deny me my reviews. I will cry and that would be bad.